Leaning on the Fellowship...Hard - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

The_Hammer · 06-09-2008, 07:47 AM

To All at Bikers in Recovery;

I just wanted to take a minute to thank everyone for their patience with me. I have leaned heavily on all my resources in the program lately, out of the need to survive. Most of you know that the las couple of months have been difficult for me. Many losses and many gains. Drunks hate change, it just isn't in our nature.

In April, I was so close to death without realizing it that I was shocked to hear my sawbone say the words; "You're dying." That with the surgery and the close calls there were, it had been overwhelming enough. I called my sponsor three or four times a day, made 3 meetings a day real often and always at least 1 and hung out on Bikers in Recovery everyday too. So, unfortunately yall were the recipients of a lot of my troubles.

So how do you thank agroup of folks that saved your life? I don;t know. Ya just say; "Thanks." That's all. Like this program, it's real simple, but not so easy, cheap, but not free. I am humbly at your service, any thing at all that I can do for you all is the least that I can do. You must know that I am in prayer for all of you all of the time. I think of each of you and all your prayers and sharing of your ESH that you gave to me so freely and I am moved beyond what I am able to explain. What a special group of folks in a special program sharing a common bond. I will never ever lose touch of the grace you all have shown me and my family. All whom love me wish to thank you as well.

Without you, I would not have made it this far.

suki44883 · 06-09-2008, 08:04 AM

Well, I'm not a biker, but I have been reading your posts. I've prayed for you and your family, too. You sound to me like your head is in the right place. Just hang in there and keep doing what you're doing. We're behind you 100%!

Rarly Harley · 06-09-2008, 04:13 PM

That's just what we do Jimmy....The day will come in God's time, when you will be doing it for someone else...

Love Ya,

toad · 06-09-2008, 04:30 PM

Here's a KIS for you Jimmy.............Keep it simple.............I will keep it simple, you have helped me more than you know. Thanks for being here for me. Don't make me come up north and get you so we can see Kym in person !!!

Last year Bill threatened to tie you up in his trailer and haul your butt to Indiana. this still can be done.....................love you my brother.

Jazzed_N_MD · 06-10-2008, 02:31 AM

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Originally Posted by The_Hammer

To All at Bikers in Recovery;

So how do you thank a group of folks that saved your life? Ya just say; "Thanks"...That's all. Like this program, it's real simple, but not so easy, cheap, but not free. I am humbly at your service, any thing at all that I can do for you all is the least that I can do. You must know that I am in prayer for all of you all of the time. I think of each of you and all your prayers and sharing of your ESH that you gave to me so freely and I am moved beyond what I am able to explain. What a special group of folks in a special program sharing a common bond. I will never ever lose touch of the grace you all have shown me and my family. All whom love me wish to thank you as well.

Without you, I would not have made it this far.

Geez,
here I was always thinking you were savin my life with your ESH.

What an honor to find that it's a two-way street.

BillJ · 06-10-2008, 05:53 AM

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Originally Posted by toad

Last year Bill threatened to tie you up in his trailer and haul your butt to Indiana. this still can be done.....................

I still have the trailer, too!

The_Hammer · 06-10-2008, 11:43 AM

I have been quiet about this out of respect, but I want you all to know that there may be a slight chance that I can make it! It is looking as if I maybe returned to full duty at work very, very soon. Of course, bills come first.

recoveringnky · 06-10-2008, 12:50 PM

Woo hoo hoo!!

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BillJ · 06-10-2008, 02:30 PM

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Originally Posted by The_Hammer

there may be a slight chance that I can make it!

Hope you can, brother. Wouldn't be the same without you!

The_Hammer · 06-11-2008, 08:34 AM

Someone out there is prayin for me. I got one step closer to RFL '08 today. I spoke to the mortgage company and they told me that since we are in chapter 13, I need to stay within 60 days of current before they will send my mortgage to the legal department. So, I make a payment on the 20th and I am ok, for now. I am going to try and get caught all the way though. I have the smaller one to get caught up too. One day at a time. I seem to be on the mend, a day at a time.

Rarly Harley · 06-11-2008, 10:05 AM

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Originally Posted by The_Hammer

One day at a time, I seem to be on the mend, a day at a time.

That's all any of us have Jimmy...., based on the maintenance of our spiritual condition...

The_Hammer · 06-11-2008, 10:57 AM

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Originally Posted by Rarly Harley

That's all any of us have Jimmy...., based on the maintenance of our spiritual condition...

The reasonI headed the last post was that I wanted to say how much I wanted to see you this year. If I get to go anywhere at all. I had it in my mind to hang out with you, or at least I am torn between going up to see you and RFL 08. God knows what I need, all I know is what I want. ya dig?

Rarly Harley · 06-11-2008, 06:49 PM

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Originally Posted by The_Hammer

The reasonI headed the last post was that I wanted to say how much I wanted to see you this year. If I get to go anywhere at all. I had it in my mind to hang out with you, or at least I am torn between going up to see you and RFL 08. God knows what I need, all I know is what I want. ya dig?

Who woulda thunk that a couple of weasel-hoppers like you and me, would connect in AA and be able to tell each other..." I love you Bro..."
I can remember descending on the bar, back in the day, with the skull & crossed pistons on and we would be snarlin' at the patrons and kissin' each other, but that was all show (at least on my part), designed to freak out the citizens...LOL. Today, I can honestly tell someone that I love them and I know what love really is. Thank God for the miracles of sobriety in AA.....

Jazzed_N_MD · 06-12-2008, 03:35 AM

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Originally Posted by Rarly Harley

Who woulda thunk that a couple of weasel-hoppers like you and me, would connect in AA and be able to tell each other..." I love you Bro..."
I can remember descending on the bar, back in the day, with the skull & crossed pistons on and we would be snarlin' at the patrons and kissin' each other, but that was all show (at least on my part), designed to freak out the citizens...LOL. Today, I can honestly tell someone that I love them and I know what love really is. Thank God for the miracles of sobriety in AA.....

Aint it grand that we live our lives now instead of doin life!?! Aint it grand that our Brothers go beyond "the call of duty" and that we have Sisters as well!!?!

A different picture is on my "clothing" now but I recognize the one you discribed. Mine was different but the meaning was the same, so were some of my actions, (shock value). With this new life, I dont intend to shock society but when citizens see me, they are shocked at the results Gods work has done. Only because they either dont know God or they are unaware that I do. (Pre-Judgemental)

One step at a time, I am trying to make at least a day (or Two) at RFL this year. Today is a road test & UA for a new job driving. Better $, no weekends.

The_Hammer · 06-12-2008, 03:48 AM

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Originally Posted by Rarly Harley

Who woulda thunk that a couple of weasel-hoppers like you and me, would connect in AA and be able to tell each other..." I love you Bro..."
I can remember descending on the bar, back in the day, with the skull & crossed pistons on and we would be snarlin' at the patrons and kissin' each other, but that was all show (at least on my part), designed to freak out the citizens...LOL. Today, I can honestly tell someone that I love them and I know what love really is. Thank God for the miracles of sobriety in AA.....

What's more is that today, I don't have to be the "baddest of the bad". I can be ok with myself and happy to be alive as well as love without a condition.

recoveringnky · 06-12-2008, 05:25 AM

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Originally Posted by The_Hammer

...... as well as love without a condition.

I am so grateful for that today....grateful that I can love and be loved without any conditions....to love and be loved because of who I am and who "you" are and no other reason......it's so freeing!!

Love and hugs,
Kym

06-09-2008, 07:47 AM	#1 (permalink)
The_Hammer Jesus is just alright with me. Join Date: May 2006 Location: Bugaha, NE Posts: 722	Leaning on the Fellowship...Hard To All at Bikers in Recovery; I just wanted to take a minute to thank everyone for their patience with me. I have leaned heavily on all my resources in the program lately, out of the need to survive. Most of you know that the las couple of months have been difficult for me. Many losses and many gains. Drunks hate change, it just isn't in our nature. In April, I was so close to death without realizing it that I was shocked to hear my sawbone say the words; "You're dying." That with the surgery and the close calls there were, it had been overwhelming enough. I called my sponsor three or four times a day, made 3 meetings a day real often and always at least 1 and hung out on Bikers in Recovery everyday too. So, unfortunately yall were the recipients of a lot of my troubles. So how do you thank agroup of folks that saved your life? I don;t know. Ya just say; "Thanks." That's all. Like this program, it's real simple, but not so easy, cheap, but not free. I am humbly at your service, any thing at all that I can do for you all is the least that I can do. You must know that I am in prayer for all of you all of the time. I think of each of you and all your prayers and sharing of your ESH that you gave to me so freely and I am moved beyond what I am able to explain. What a special group of folks in a special program sharing a common bond. I will never ever lose touch of the grace you all have shown me and my family. All whom love me wish to thank you as well. Without you, I would not have made it this far.
	__________________ Blessings, Jimmy "As I climb onto your back, I will promise not to sting I will tell you what you want to hear and not mean anything Then I treat you like a dog as I shoot my venom in You pretend you didn't know that I am a scorpion" Dave M.

06-09-2008, 04:13 PM	#3 (permalink)
Rarly Harley Have we seen a person fail... Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: S.S. Marie, Ont. Can. Posts: 710	That's just what we do Jimmy....The day will come in God's time, when you will be doing it for someone else... Love Ya,
	__________________ Rarly 2002 FLHTC "Annie" " as we let our own light shine, we unconciously give other people permission to do the same"... Nelson Mandela

06-09-2008, 04:30 PM	#4 (permalink)
toad Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: mountain grove, missouri Posts: 966	Here's a KIS for you Jimmy.............Keep it simple.............I will keep it simple, you have helped me more than you know. Thanks for being here for me. Don't make me come up north and get you so we can see Kym in person !!! Last year Bill threatened to tie you up in his trailer and haul your butt to Indiana. this still can be done.....................love you my brother.
	__________________ Tet Vet PGR member 2007 Road King Classic 96 C.I. Six-speed Vivid black God......... Let You........... be enough for me.

06-10-2008, 11:43 AM	#7 (permalink)
The_Hammer Jesus is just alright with me. Join Date: May 2006 Location: Bugaha, NE Posts: 722	I have been quiet about this out of respect, but I want you all to know that there may be a slight chance that I can make it! It is looking as if I maybe returned to full duty at work very, very soon. Of course, bills come first.
	__________________ Blessings, Jimmy "As I climb onto your back, I will promise not to sting I will tell you what you want to hear and not mean anything Then I treat you like a dog as I shoot my venom in You pretend you didn't know that I am a scorpion" Dave M.

06-10-2008, 12:50 PM	#8 (permalink)
recoveringnky Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: The beautiful mountains of Kentucky Posts: 579	Woo hoo hoo!! :
	__________________ Kym P. Keeping it Simple Life is too short for drama & petty things, so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly and forgive quickly.

06-09-2008, 08:04 AM	#2 (permalink)
suki44883 Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Texas Posts: 1,417	Well, I'm not a biker, but I have been reading your posts. I've prayed for you and your family, too. You sound to me like your head is in the right place. Just hang in there and keep doing what you're doing. We're behind you 100%!

06-11-2008, 08:34 AM	#10 (permalink)
The_Hammer Jesus is just alright with me. Join Date: May 2006 Location: Bugaha, NE Posts: 722	Brother Rarly, RFl '08 Someone out there is prayin for me. I got one step closer to RFL '08 today. I spoke to the mortgage company and they told me that since we are in chapter 13, I need to stay within 60 days of current before they will send my mortgage to the legal department. So, I make a payment on the 20th and I am ok, for now. I am going to try and get caught all the way though. I have the smaller one to get caught up too. One day at a time. I seem to be on the mend, a day at a time.
	__________________ Blessings, Jimmy "As I climb onto your back, I will promise not to sting I will tell you what you want to hear and not mean anything Then I treat you like a dog as I shoot my venom in You pretend you didn't know that I am a scorpion" Dave M.