Hearts' startin to be a load to carry

[The_Hammer]

Monday gets closer and closer. I am prayin, only for the wisdom and strength to do the next right thing. I am meditating on the principles. Talking hours with IcePick.

I can't do anything more. That's it. That's the extent of my power here on Earth. It's a good thing to have an HP.

Because Monday, I reap the spoils of my addiction and my girls will be on their way to Washington state. WIthout me. I try to say I am alright, I try not to be sad or feel sorry for myself. It don't always work. But it does work more than it doesn't, it works enough to keep my from getting high.

That's all I care about right now-that and when I will see Jordan's sparkling eyes and smile again.

[recoveringnky]

One day at a time, my friend! Remember, our HP NEVER leaves us...rely on that fact and the fact that we all love you as well, okay? All things in His time, not ours!
I love ya my friend!!!
(((((((((((((((GREAT BIG HUG)))))))))))))))))
Your sister,
Kym

[TonyB]

Jimmy,
God bless you my friend. It's people like you that give me hope on a daily basis. In knowing that no matter what I go through in this world, I don't have to give in to the "old way" of doing things.
Stay strong my friend. Everything is but for a season, or in AA verbage... This too shall pass.
TB

[BillJ]

Jimmy,

You are not losing your wife and daughter forever; just for today; and you can make it through today. Tomorrow is in HP's hands right now, and who among us can say what that ol' trickster has up His sleeve?

I continue to hold you and your loved ones in prayer, brother. I'm here if you need me. I love you, and you know the rest.

[The_Hammer]

Truth of it is simple. My HP showed His amazing love and grace through you people. Yea, it's true. After the first post I made confessing my lies and whatnot, I read all the posts to me from you guys. I fell on my face in the most incredible spiritual awakening of my life. It was stronger than anything I have ever known. I could not have shakken off the chains without it.

I am not certain of anything right now BUT my sobreity and cleanliness. For this minute, for this hour, for this day, I choose to go it straight and sober and let the chips fall where they may.

IF I had a thousand lives to give for Jordie, I would-but not one of them a drunken life, or a life stoned on dope.

[toad]

I burned many bridges in my addiction. Many I could never rebuild myself. God has rebuilt and continues to rebuild the most hopless of these bridges. God is doing for me what I could not do for myself.

[Rarly Harley]

[quote=The_Hammer;1780930]I am not certain of anything right now BUT my sobreity and cleanliness. For this minute, for this hour, for this day, I choose to go it straight and sober and let the chips fall where they may. /QUOTE]

I love you Jimmy. This quote of yours is a recipe for winning, for each and every one of us and all those lurking in the shadows. If you hang on to this recipe with both hands and pray hard, God will lead you to a far better place, one that you cannot even envision at this moment. You are a shining example of the "sticktoitiveness" required to maintain your sobriety despite the "serious as a heart attack" issues you are currently facing. As painfull as this part of your recovery is at this moment, you are giving hope to countless desperate ones, lurking in the shadows, wondering if what we have is real....
I'm here Bro.....

[The_Hammer]

It is a real thing, a beautiful thing. A thing I can not give up today out of sheer hope that a new day will bring yet another promise come true. I don't have any desire to shut the door on this. The pain is labor to birth that new day.

Words cannot express the love and admiration I have for Rar, Jesse, Kym and Toad, BEst and all the rest of you amazing human beings, dig this with me:

"We are flawed human beings on a perfect spiritual journey"

Father Tom D. St. Gabriel's Center for Alcohol and Addiction

[sticker]

hammer you hang tough brother...nobody said it would be an easy road. But i know the by living this new way of life it will be worth every rocky mile. my prayers go out to you through this trying time.

[Jazzed_N_MD]

Originally Posted by The_Hammer

I am not certain of anything right now BUT my sobreity and cleanliness. For this minute, for this hour, for this day, I choose to go it straight and sober and let the chips fall where they may.

Originally Posted by Rarly Harley

I love you Jimmy. This quote of yours is a recipe for winning, for each and every one of us and all those lurking in the shadows. If you hang on to this recipe with both hands and pray hard, God will lead you to a far better place, one that you cannot even envision at this moment. You are a shining example of the "sticktoitiveness" required to maintain your sobriety despite the "serious as a heart attack" issues you are currently facing. As painfull as this part of your recovery is at this moment, you are giving hope to countless desperate ones, lurking in the shadows, wondering if what we have is real....
I'm here Bro.....

Whuff! ! !

I have heard in meetings people share that in their begining, they didn't believe any of what "YOU PEOPLE" had to say. They were court ordered to attend these 'alcohol classes' because of their anger managment.
But as their story progressed, they came to experience the growth we as a whole have been blessed with.
They share about looking back and smiling, greatful for whatever God had carried them through. All they had to do was stay in His Hands.

All I have to do today is stay in step-1.
I cannot use and (especially when I do) I do not make rational decisions, (on my own).

[best]

Jimmy

I had no words to post till now. My heart is heavy for you. Many prayers also.

This I know...
No matter how much I screwed up...once I started living a sober life, every part of my life improved. I see it as the only way to get things done.
Sober actions and sober living along with the Lord's touch on my heart saved my marriage and had us get back together after my selfishness had us separate for over 2 years.
Stay the path, trust in God and you will see things happen before you know it.
Prayers run deep for each of you and more so as a need is seen.
Love you my brother.

[The_Hammer]

[suki44883]

What a beautiful little girl.

[The_Hammer]

Thank you. SHe is just as sweet a spirit as she has beauty. I am doubly blessed. This will close the door on this thread for me. I won't shut out my past. I will just move forward now and observe it for the lesson I must learn. You all have helped me through a brutal time in my life. I could not have risen above it with meetings alone, or me and IcePick. Ice and I have come through the woods together many times, we will do it again, we will meet with God and overcome yet again. Amazing.

Sometimes I just want to look up and say; "My God; who am I that you would even consider me? Yet you bear me up on the wings ove eagles. You scatter my enemies like chaif in the wind."

Thank you Lord. thank you Ice, Thank you SR bros. Just Thanks, that's all.