My Friend, my Brother, Ricky L...in the Wind at 44, RIP - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

The_Hammer · 05-14-2008, 05:49 PM

Today, my friend, my brother Rick L. was T-Boned by a lady in an SUV doing an estimated 60 MPH on a city side street. Ricky died quick. Thank God. I don't even know how to act. Rick and I shat green in the sandbox together. We went all through school together, we even went to the big house together. That aint the point. I don't need to shut the door on my past today. I can smile and say Later my friend, I will see you later. Moving on is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard. The sleeping know no pain, it's the living that are scarred. Lilbit, Bobcat, now Ricky too. So much death in a world full of life.

Makes ya see the cycle of life real clear. God lilbit, I am soooo damned sorry for your loss. My heart could burst from the pain. I loved Rick, he was a true hard ridin ironhorse cowboy, just like I always thought I was, Ricky lived it and shows his colors now, off into the sunset. Ricky will ride on now, and I am truly happy for him, he always said he'd die on his sled. Hehe, self fulfilling prophesy, huh? Hundreds of scooter tramps will raise their fists to the skies for Rick tomorrow, myself included. There won't be a dry eye in the house, except for mine. I know Rick wanted me to smile when I thought of him, his body's gone, that's all. There's plenty of time for bein selfish later, when I am in my quiet place alone with God, on my knees for his mother and family. It was hard not to when Mama L. handed me his keys to his Road King. I looked down and smiled.

I know there's a reason for all of this, Laura and Jordie packin their bags even though I am sober as a judge. Lilbit's sweet Dorie dyin the way we all dread to go ourselves. Bobcat mudered a year ago nearly to the month. Sometimes I could just scream at God and ask Him why the good gotta die and all the stinkin evil lives on. 12000 + in China, 100,000 and much more in Myanmar, through the ignorance of egomaniacal Generals. God, grant me the serenity...! To the tune of starvin millions, they stand on pride and arrogance. What the F**k! Sorry, I just can't get it. I aint the sharpest knife in the drawer, just ask Jesse and brother Rarly. What's next? I lose one of you?

These are all stupid and irrlevant questions. People droppin like flies has a way of twisting my thoughts around like that. The monkey tries to get to my shoulder as fast as he can when I grieve for the dead, because I am selfish and wante them back here with me. So, it's with a real heavy heart I surrender Ricky to the wind. I wave farewell to Bobcat, to Dori, and to all in the wind now. I accept their passing as a part of God's eternal plan. Thanks for lettin me vent here yet again. I will accept another 24 hours and move on.

BillJ · 05-14-2008, 07:39 PM

Prayers continue, Jimmy.

Freedom1990 · 05-14-2008, 08:29 PM

Truth be known, if God had shown up before I went through rehab in '86 and shown me everything I would go through after I got clean and sober, I would have said screw it and just used/drank till I died.

There's a reason we don't know God's plan for each and every one of us.

My faith has been tested more than once in my recovery, and today instead of asking why, I say why not.

I've run on 'blind' faith more than once, when the pain just got so great that all I could do was put one foot in front of the other and go through the motions.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother and friend, and for lilbit's loss too.

It's okay to be selfish and cry because we miss them.

toad · 05-14-2008, 09:15 PM

Sorry to hear about your friend Ricky L.. My prayers go out to his family and his friends.

Friday I lost a good friend in KC named Ricky J.. Ricky J. and I partied together for many years. We worked together and shared a house for a year in the 70's. Ricky J. was 60 years old and never quit drinking whiskey or smoking tobacco. We talked over the past couple of years about being sober. He wanted what being sober offered, but did not want to give up the effect produced by it. Six months ago he told me he had lung cancer. It was quick. Ricky J. rode a fairly new Truimph 900 Trident. I will miss my friend as you will too hammer.

Hurricane · 05-14-2008, 09:55 PM

Sorry for your loss Hammer. Monday marked two years since a woman pulled out in front of my friend. Absolute nightmare, but I do Smile when I think of him and I'm Very grateful for the for the six years he shared his recovery with me.
Praying for You and your brothers family.

sticker · 05-14-2008, 11:14 PM

condolences to you hammer and all of Ricky's loved ones..he went as he live from the sound of it, but all to soon. I understand what your feeling..has been way to many deaths in my life the last couple yrs. All i can do is honor their memory and remember them with love. Many days I ride with them foremost in my mind

**best** · 05-15-2008, 12:13 AM

Continue to hang in there Jimmy.

We can honor others by keeping on the sober path.
Seems a year doesn't go by these days that someone I know leaves this earth. Part of it is our age now. Still hurts when we miss them.

Prayers are with you Jimmy

and prayers for us all that have seen friends go before us.

Jimmy123 · 05-15-2008, 12:41 AM

May God protect his loved ones

Rarly Harley · 05-15-2008, 04:44 AM

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Originally Posted by The_Hammer

I know there's a reason for all of this, Laura and Jordie packin their bags even though I am sober as a judge. Lilbit's sweet Dorie dyin the way we all dread to go ourselves. Bobcat mudered a year ago nearly to the month. Sometimes I could just scream at God and ask Him why the good gotta die and all the stinkin evil lives on. 12000 + in China, 100,000 and much more in Myanmar, through the ignorance of egomaniacal Generals. God, grant me the serenity...! To the tune of starvin millions, they stand on pride and arrogance. What the F**k! Sorry, I just can't get it. I aint the sharpest knife in the drawer, just ask Jesse and brother Rarly. What's next? I lose one of you?

Jimmy: Every morning, after my prayers, I open my 24 hours a day book to Jan. 6th. and read the thought for the day, before I read my daily page. Been doin' that many a year now...I also find the Meditation for the day, of May 5th, very comforting. Hope it helps Brother....

"I cannot ascertain the spiritual with my intellect. I can only do it by my own faith and spiritual faculties. I must think of God more with my heart than with my head. I can breathe in God's very spirit in the life around me. I can keep my eyes turned towards the good things in the world. I am shut up in a box of space and time, but I can open a window in that box by faith. I can empty my mind of all the limitations of material things. I can sense the Eternal".

I'll continue sendin' prayers up my Brother. Just keep puttin' one foot in front of the other and do the next right thing.....God granted the likes of you and I sobriety for a reason. I don't know what his plans are for me and I don't particularly care. I have a track record with Him now, that proves that He has my best interests at heart. I not only have complete Faith in Him now, but I Trust Him completely with my life and everything in it....What a sense of peace this gives me, when I am spiritually fit enough to accept this Truth. I know you have a strong Faith too, my Brother. Hang on to it with both hands...

The_Hammer · 05-15-2008, 06:20 AM

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Originally Posted by BillJ

Prayers continue, Jimmy.

That means everything to me Jesse.

The_Hammer · 05-15-2008, 06:22 AM

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Originally Posted by toad

Sorry to hear about your friend Ricky L.. My prayers go out to his family and his friends.

Friday I lost a good friend in KC named Ricky J.. Ricky J. and I partied together for many years. We worked together and shared a house for a year in the 70's. Ricky J. was 60 years old and never quit drinking whiskey or smoking tobacco. We talked over the past couple of years about being sober. He wanted what being sober offered, but did not want to give up the effect produced by it. Six months ago he told me he had lung cancer. It was quick. Ricky J. rode a fairly new Truimph 900 Trident. I will miss my friend as you will too hammer.

Sheesh, >>I am sorry toad.

The_Hammer · 05-15-2008, 06:24 AM

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Originally Posted by Rarly Harley

Jimmy: Every morning, after my prayers, I open my 24 hours a day book to Jan. 6th. and read the thought for the day, before I read my daily page. Been doin' that many a year now...I also find the Meditation for the day, of May 5th, very comforting. Hope it helps Brother....

"I cannot ascertain the spiritual with my intellect. I can only do it by my own faith and spiritual faculties. I must think of God more with my heart than with my head. I can breathe in God's very spirit in the life around me. I can keep my eyes turned towards the good things in the world. I am shut up in a box of space and time, but I can open a window in that box by faith. I can empty my mind of all the limitations of material things. I can sense the Eternal".

I'll continue sendin' prayers up my Brother. Just keep puttin' one foot in front of the other and do the next right thing.....God granted the likes of you and I sobriety for a reason. I don't know what his plans are for me and I don't particularly care. I have a track record with Him now, that proves that He has my best interests at heart. I not only have complete Faith in Him now, but I Trust Him completely with my life and everything in it....What a sense of peace this gives me, when I am spiritually fit enough to accept this Truth. I know you have a strong Faith too, my Brother. Hang on to it with both hands...

That helped me too man, thanks a lot, I am not so sad today.

The_Hammer · 05-15-2008, 06:29 AM

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Originally Posted by sticker

condolences to you hammer and all of Ricky's loved ones..he went as he live from the sound of it, but all to soon. I understand what your feeling..has been way to many deaths in my life the last couple yrs. All i can do is honor their memory and remember them with love. Many days I ride with them foremost in my mind

Yea man, it is like that when I ride too. It's like their there right there with you, hair whippin in the wind. Rick did die as he lived in a flash of the blade.

recoveringnky · 05-15-2008, 08:08 AM

You continue to be in my prayers my friend! I hope to get to see you and give you big hug come August!!!

Kym

harleyrunt · 05-15-2008, 03:41 PM

Hang in there Hammer Buddy!!!! You, your family, and Ricky's families have my deepest sympathy. For me dealing with death seems like the hardest time for me to stay clean. Remember one day at a time bud!!!!! We are all here if you need us!!!

05-14-2008, 05:49 PM	#1 (permalink)
The_Hammer Jesus is just alright with me. Join Date: May 2006 Location: Bugaha, NE Posts: 722	My Friend, my Brother, Ricky L...in the Wind at 44, RIP Today, my friend, my brother Rick L. was T-Boned by a lady in an SUV doing an estimated 60 MPH on a city side street. Ricky died quick. Thank God. I don't even know how to act. Rick and I shat green in the sandbox together. We went all through school together, we even went to the big house together. That aint the point. I don't need to shut the door on my past today. I can smile and say Later my friend, I will see you later. Moving on is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard. The sleeping know no pain, it's the living that are scarred. Lilbit, Bobcat, now Ricky too. So much death in a world full of life. Makes ya see the cycle of life real clear. God lilbit, I am soooo damned sorry for your loss. My heart could burst from the pain. I loved Rick, he was a true hard ridin ironhorse cowboy, just like I always thought I was, Ricky lived it and shows his colors now, off into the sunset. Ricky will ride on now, and I am truly happy for him, he always said he'd die on his sled. Hehe, self fulfilling prophesy, huh? Hundreds of scooter tramps will raise their fists to the skies for Rick tomorrow, myself included. There won't be a dry eye in the house, except for mine. I know Rick wanted me to smile when I thought of him, his body's gone, that's all. There's plenty of time for bein selfish later, when I am in my quiet place alone with God, on my knees for his mother and family. It was hard not to when Mama L. handed me his keys to his Road King. I looked down and smiled. I know there's a reason for all of this, Laura and Jordie packin their bags even though I am sober as a judge. Lilbit's sweet Dorie dyin the way we all dread to go ourselves. Bobcat mudered a year ago nearly to the month. Sometimes I could just scream at God and ask Him why the good gotta die and all the stinkin evil lives on. 12000 + in China, 100,000 and much more in Myanmar, through the ignorance of egomaniacal Generals. God, grant me the serenity...! To the tune of starvin millions, they stand on pride and arrogance. What the F**k! Sorry, I just can't get it. I aint the sharpest knife in the drawer, just ask Jesse and brother Rarly. What's next? I lose one of you? These are all stupid and irrlevant questions. People droppin like flies has a way of twisting my thoughts around like that. The monkey tries to get to my shoulder as fast as he can when I grieve for the dead, because I am selfish and wante them back here with me. So, it's with a real heavy heart I surrender Ricky to the wind. I wave farewell to Bobcat, to Dori, and to all in the wind now. I accept their passing as a part of God's eternal plan. Thanks for lettin me vent here yet again. I will accept another 24 hours and move on.
	__________________ Blessings, Jimmy "As I climb onto your back, I will promise not to sting I will tell you what you want to hear and not mean anything Then I treat you like a dog as I shoot my venom in You pretend you didn't know that I am a scorpion" Dave M.

05-14-2008, 07:39 PM	#2 (permalink)
BillJ Casual Hero and Raconteur Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Austin, TX Posts: 1,063	Prayers continue, Jimmy.
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05-14-2008, 08:29 PM	#3 (permalink)
Freedom1990 Zoo Crew Keeper Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Kansas Posts: 601	Truth be known, if God had shown up before I went through rehab in '86 and shown me everything I would go through after I got clean and sober, I would have said screw it and just used/drank till I died. There's a reason we don't know God's plan for each and every one of us. My faith has been tested more than once in my recovery, and today instead of asking why, I say why not. I've run on 'blind' faith more than once, when the pain just got so great that all I could do was put one foot in front of the other and go through the motions. I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother and friend, and for lilbit's loss too. It's okay to be selfish and cry because we miss them.
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05-14-2008, 09:15 PM	#4 (permalink)
toad Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: mountain grove, missouri Posts: 927	Sorry to hear about your friend Ricky L.. My prayers go out to his family and his friends. Friday I lost a good friend in KC named Ricky J.. Ricky J. and I partied together for many years. We worked together and shared a house for a year in the 70's. Ricky J. was 60 years old and never quit drinking whiskey or smoking tobacco. We talked over the past couple of years about being sober. He wanted what being sober offered, but did not want to give up the effect produced by it. Six months ago he told me he had lung cancer. It was quick. Ricky J. rode a fairly new Truimph 900 Trident. I will miss my friend as you will too hammer.
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05-14-2008, 11:14 PM	#6 (permalink)
sticker Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Saint Peter MN Posts: 127	condolences to you hammer and all of Ricky's loved ones..he went as he live from the sound of it, but all to soon. I understand what your feeling..has been way to many deaths in my life the last couple yrs. All i can do is honor their memory and remember them with love. Many days I ride with them foremost in my mind
	__________________ Clean means never having to say Im sober

05-14-2008, 09:55 PM	#5 (permalink)
Hurricane Smile, God loves you Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: Missouri Posts: 229	Sorry for your loss Hammer. Monday marked two years since a woman pulled out in front of my friend. Absolute nightmare, but I do Smile when I think of him and I'm Very grateful for the for the six years he shared his recovery with me. Praying for You and your brothers family.

05-15-2008, 12:13 AM	#7 (permalink)
best Don't get undies in a bunch Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: South Shore MA Posts: 7,191	Continue to hang in there Jimmy. We can honor others by keeping on the sober path. Seems a year doesn't go by these days that someone I know leaves this earth. Part of it is our age now. Still hurts when we miss them. Prayers are with you Jimmy and prayers for us all that have seen friends go before us.
	__________________ * I asked God to spare me pain. God said "No", Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me. Recovery Related Acronym B. E. S. T. = Been Enjoying Sobriety Today?

05-15-2008, 12:41 AM	#8 (permalink)
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05-15-2008, 08:08 AM	#14 (permalink)
recoveringnky Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: The beautiful mountains of Kentucky Posts: 579	You continue to be in my prayers my friend! I hope to get to see you and give you big hug come August!!! Kym
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05-15-2008, 03:41 PM	#15 (permalink)
harleyrunt Harley Rider and Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Hughesville, PA, Posts: 69	Hang in there Hammer Buddy!!!! You, your family, and Ricky's families have my deepest sympathy. For me dealing with death seems like the hardest time for me to stay clean. Remember one day at a time bud!!!!! We are all here if you need us!!!
	__________________ It's not the size of the dog in the fight, it's the size of the fight in the dog!!!