how I got sober

[lionsstripe]

I quit drinking wow that should have been a no brainer,,,, but how I stay sober is another story, I stay sober by learning to live life on life's terms on a daily basis, and I learned that by reading the big book, going to f2f meetings, getting a sponsor and working the twelve steps,getting a higher power and using the steps in every asspect of my life on a daily basis, I did this by following the directions gave to me by my sponsor and the direction as they are writen in the BIG BOOK, I had to listen because I already knew I couldnt do it, and to this day I still know I cant do it, I still go to my f2f meetings, I still listen to my sponsor, and I still work the 12 steps of the program as directed by my sponsor and by the way they are layed out in the BIG BOOK, I still stay in counsious contact with my higher power as I understand him, I am aware if I start to ease up on any of the above all I am doing is setting myself up for relasp, the BIG BOOK tells me alcohol is cunning baffleing and powerful, I dont under stand why it dont mention that it is also EXTREMLY PATIANCE, it will just wait and wait for as long as need be in the dark showdows of life, so I must stay on guard and stay in counsious contact with my HIGHER POWER, this is such a simple program but for me it also was extremly hard for me to get, I had to work my butt off, there were times I would cry like a baby and not have a clue why, I started feeling all these emotions I never felt before and they sceared the heck out of me, there were times i did just want to drink just so I would not feel, but for the grace I GOD, I didnt. I take no credit for my sobrity other than this is the lfe I want, with out the rooms of A.A. and the good folks inside the rooms I would probally be dead by now, yeah they told me some prety hard things at times, they could really push my buttons and get me really angry at all them, but with growth I came to relize I was not getting angry with any of them I was just angry with myself, and once I was able to relize that, then I was able to do something about it, because the only thing in this world I can change is me, I knew my judgment sucked I needed guidance to be able to do the changing, and I got that guidance from believing in a power greater than my self, working my butt off on the 12 steps and by listing to my sponsor and to what was said in the f2f meetings I went to,

[serenityqueen]

Great to have you as a new member of the SR Family

[BUTTERFLY-7]

You know witch part intrigue me when you sad
on How you "Quit Drinking" and how that should of been a know Brainer
this is the part I like when you said Staying Sober that was another
Story you are so right, I aways said It's easy putting that drug or drink Down
whats hard It's changing our Behaviors,Stinking Thinking,Short Comings, & Attitudes People,Places, &Things
and of curse Following up with the Rest thats Require
to Help us Stay clean one day at a Time.

[lilbit]

It's hard to stay SOBER. A battle against the war of disease. I remember thinking I had to drink. It was me...drinking let me be me...and if I went too far...I blamed my drinking. It was THE most dysfuntional relationship I ever had! And I guess I thought it was love....but slowly...I was robbing myself...of time...of happiness...of life on life's terms. I made sooo many people misserable...mostly myself. Why do we hurt the one's we love? Pushing that unconditional love further and further into the rabbit hole. I have kids now. And a great guy to help me raise 'em. I had friends that their parents would get all drunk and beat the crap out of the kid...RIGHT INFRONT OF US! I'd fly out the window...door...whatever to get out of there...wait outside the window....held my friend's hand once...me outside....standing tippytoe on a cinder block....reaching up to comfort a friend in hell. I knew what that pain was like. And being alone is aweful.

There's a little about me.
I love ya!
The Bitz

[Rarly Harley]

Lionstripe: I am so glad you joined our forum. From your post, I sense we are kindred spirits, on the same journey. I do all the same things you do, to maintain my sobriety and I never let up either. Life is too good today and I've come so far, but I also know how patient the S.O.B. is....Welcome Brother....

[lionsstripe]

thanky you Raly

[lilbit]

LION....WHAT ABOUT MY THANK YOU?
Thank you very much.......

[Fulldresser4]

Lilbit..are you even serious???