TOPIC: Touching Base. Keeping In Touch. How Are You Doing?

[aasharon90]

I am still in thought about this past weekend
with not completing the bikers course.....so close
and to not have enough strength to finish.

It kinda feels like a disappointment. Failure.

My friend who was with me was there to witness
for himself first hand how i proceeded throughout
the course.....

As we reflected about all that went down and
how the course was set up....we both agreed that
there could have been some changes done with
it to accomidate the new comers like myself and
the other girl.....

First they told us that the only requirement was
to be able to ride a bicycle. Sure i use to ride one
many moons ago....but hey.......look how long
that has been.....

Maybe if they had separated the newcomers with
NO knowledge of standard riding and worked one
on one with us.....

What if i had another day to heal my muscles
in my arms and legs to then begin the test.

My friend agreed that this was too much even
for himself who was taking it for the second time.

How in the world was i to do a figure 8 in a confined
box with out going out of the lines or not placing my
feet on the ground.....esp. when i was physically
fatigued.....

Anyway....

This chapter is not over yet. The chapter is not
finished.....

After i stop beating myself over not finshing the
course and not getting my endorsement today, I
will pick myself up and try something different.

In fact we went to look at the Ridley Bikes....automatic
bikes. ....not to shabby,,,,,Maybe that will be
the way to go....i can still look cool on a bike
without all the stress of shifting etc.

Whatcha think?

I did practice at the course on a Honda Rebel which
was a good beginners bike....Too bad they dont have
that one in an automatic. Or even a Harley Sportster.

Hmmmm....

[toad]

I have only seen one Ridley and I was impressed with the design. Looked like a 3/4 size Harley. American made too.

At least by taking the course you picked up some pointers about riding. You should be able to apply them to being a passenger also.

[aasharon90]

I looked at my friends Harley Sportster before work
and got inspired once again. It's sitting there waiting
for me and I cant wait to take her out by myself
and ride.

No i didnt fail my course. I learned how to get on
a bike and ride all by myself. It was like taking off
with wings and flying. Raising my feet off the ground
like landing gears at take off.

So Fine.

This afternoon i came inside for a second to only
run out quickly as if to say she was calling me...
so I climbed aboad and sat with my feet stretched
out before me on the pedals....Boy did that feel
awesome.....sooooo different from what i was sitting
on at the course. A cute little Rebel.....

This bike im sitting on is a a Custom 1200 Sportster.
More chrome than the regular Sportster.

Forgive me, but Im in the learning process of bikes.
Don't know much about them......

Anyway....today im inspired and I cant wait to take
her out to ride solo and practice soon.

Now I need to come up with a name for my Sportster.
Hmmmmm.......

Harley Princess (maybe) ?

[Hurricane]

What year is it ? I think the newer ones may sit a bit lower. They changed the style some the last few years, but I still like the older style best.

[Jazzed_N_MD]

My sis-n-law rides a 1200 custom. Bright yellow!!

You call ur baby what you wanna!!

[Rarly Harley]

That is so cool Sharon. Call her what ya wanna...

[recoveringnky]

"Harley Princess"..... I love it!!!!!!!!!

[aasharon90]

Thanks guys.....

My buddies bike is a '01 Sportster.

Since he bought the bike there were
changes done to it to make it just the
way he liked it.....

When i begin to ride it, he will begin to
change it to make it to my liking.

And comfort and safety is most important.


Maybe the name will change as it begins
to change....

[aasharon90]

Morning Bikers and SR.

Happy Tuesday.

Trying to reconnect with my program.
Not that I don't keep AA fresh and
working in my mind daily. It's just at
times I get distracted by other things
that seem to be important.

What things you say...What could be
that important....what could be so
darn important to top your AA program.

The one thing that keeps us alive on a
daily bases. The one thing we were taught
in early recovery to help us stay clean
and sober. To learn to be happy joyous
and free. The one thing that keeps us
off that merry go round....that obsession.

Sharing my experiences, strengths
and hopes with others of what life
was before during and after alcohol.

Life before I got sober was tough. I
had an inner battle going on inside
me that kept me insane. I wanted
control on life and the more I tried
control, it whipped me down.

I managed to raise 2 beautiful kids,
keep a 25 yr marriage held on by
a thread. All done in the mist of
being a full blown alcoholic and
finally hitting bottom.

August 1990, my family stepped in
with an intervention sending me to rehab
for 2 weeks. As i began to learn
about my disease I wanted and had
the desire to stay the 28 days offered
to me.

I emerged with lots of anger still locked
u inside me, yet I had the tools passed
on to me to help me live life one day
at a time without a drink.

I followed those before me with much
determination and hope to gain those
promises offered to us in recovery.

Today I have a many one days at a time
collected together to get to where I
am. I gone thru many ups and downs in
my life, forever changing moments.

New experiences, joys, disappointments
all that life brings to us.

Today I can honestly say that I am
finally repeaping the rewards of what
our program offers us if we work our
program to the best of our ability
ODAAT.

To know a new freedom like no other.

What AWSOME WORDS....

NEW FREEDOM.....

Today I am free....free from the bondage
of the drink that kept me paralized for
those year.

FEAR.....Now that one im still working on.

It's far better than what it use to be....but hey,
I remain teachable. Trust is always there in
my Higher Power to relay on for emmediate
help.

Today I am me. Living my life for me. Taking
charge and standing tall, emerging a more confident
person. Stronger and forver remaining humble.

Each turn in my life is an adventure.

Hummmm what's around the corner?

Thanks for letting me share.

[toad]

Excellent AA talk Sharon...........

"To know a new freedom like no other.

What AWSOME WORDS....

NEW FREEDOM.....

Today I am free....free from the bondage
of the drink that kept me paralized for
those year. "

I too am free from the chains of alcholism and addictions. As long as I remember that I am only one drink away from a life of bondage, I can battle the one drink. Trying to battle and win against a life time of drinking was too much for me. When I realize that my battle is against the first drink only, I can fight that battle.

Thanks for sharing Sharon............toad

PS.........been riding that road king any?

[aasharon90]

Morning Bikers in Recovery and SR.

Im one of those early birds. I woke up
around 2ish just a tad shy of 3am...

Why do i get up SOOOOO early? Well....
I dont like to rush getting ready for
work at 6:30....So i get up, get coffee,
listen to VH1 music, then come here
to SR to share a little bit of my
ESH to begin my day.

I read the Thought For Today and
wanted to share it with you.....


From: "AA Taught Him to Handle Sobriety"


"Bewilderment, fear, and resentment moved into my life.
And yet my ability to lie outwardly and to kid myself
inwardly grew with every drink I took. Indeed, I had to
drink now to live, to cope with the demands of everyday
existence. When I encountered disappointments or
frustrations - as I did more and more frequently - my
solution was to drink. I had always been oversensitive
to criticism and was acutely so now. When I was
criticized or reprimanded, the bottle was my refuge
and comfort.”


Yep, that is eactly what I USE to do.....Did you?

Today its a little bit different. Of course I dont
need to rely on the drink to solve my problems....

Today I have a solution....a healthier solution
to rely on.

Sure things in life, family, work, people, places,
and things still can get the best of me. Sure
i get resentful at times....sure i get pizz'd at
things that dont go my way....or people that
push my buttons....aggrivate me...etc.....

Today all i have to do is follow the steps....
using the first 3 on a daily bases....Admitting,
Turning it all over,,,,and Believing or having
faith that Whatever it is that is ruffling my
feathers....or distrurbing my serenity will
be taken care of in time.

Drinking was to be my final solution to
all my problems back then. A permenant
solution as it began to snuff out my life.

Thank God that it wasnt time for me to
go. My HP wasnt thru with me yet and thus
my life was spared.

Today i have purpose in life....

Today I can handle sobriety ...
and its not looking down the
bottle or glass of alcohol.

Thanks for letting me share.

[aasharon90]

Once again im Looking forward to getting a new tattoo tomorrow, Friday.

They did say those things r addicting.... I will however keep
it to a minimum. This one will be on my left back shoulder. Something
with Harley Roses and leaves with a ribbon and the words Lady Rider
on it. The roses will be of a vibrant Harley Purple, Orange and small
deep red color rose bud. Something to compliment the Harely Heart I have on my right shoulder.

Another wonderful gift to enjoy in recovery.

[toad]

Originally Posted by aasharon90

Once again im Looking forward to getting a new tattoo tomorrow, Friday.

They did say those things r addicting.... I will however keep
it to a minimum. This one will be on my left back shoulder. Something
with Harley Roses and leaves with a ribbon and the words Lady Rider
on it. The roses will be of a vibrant Harley Purple, Orange and small
deep red color rose bud. Something to compliment the Harely Heart I have on my right shoulder.

Another wonderful gift to enjoy in recovery.

go for it..............post a picture without your face for anonimity.

[aasharon90]

Will eventually get a picture here as soon as
I know how.....lol

I got my new tattoo this afternoon but it is
still bandaged up. I havent looked at it since
Ive gotten home. However at the shop, i saw it
in the mirror and it looked nice.....

Tomorrow after a good nights sleep i will look at
it and report back to ya.

Till them ...happy sober and clean slumber.
Sweet dreams of living happy joyous and free.

[toad]

Happy sober and clean slumber to you tooooooooooooo

[aasharon90]

Hi Im Sharon and Im and Alcoholic.

By the Grace of my HP and people like
you here in SR , I havent found it
necessary to pick up a drink since
8-11-90.

For that and you I am truely grateful.


It's been awhile since I last posted.

Sorry about that. : )

We do seem to get caught up in the
stream of life and sometimes get off
track. However I never forget inside
whats most important.

Sobriety....Recovery.


This week with only a few more days
approaches my sobriety birthday, I am
reflecting back on where I came from.
What got me here in the first place
and how recovery has played an
important role in keeping me sober
this long.

ONE DAY AT A TIME. 18 YEARS with
a many ODAAT collected together.

Well almost 18yrs. Remembering JUST
FOR TODAY.

Im reflecting on HONESTY, OPEN-MINDEDNESS,
and WILLINGNESS.

I recall in all my life I wasnt totally
honest in all my affairs.....but today
I have HONESTY. Today it comes
first were it was last on my list.

Because i wasnt totally honest with
myself and others I fell victim to
remorse, guilt, shame....not trustworthy.

No wonder I was so miserable with
myself and others.

Today as I look back on my life
experiences, my marriage, etc.
I can see the pain and discomfort.
The RESTLESSNESS, IRRITABILITY
AND DISCONTENT.

I blocked myself from the Sunlight
which kept me as a prisoner inside
myself. Not allowing me to grow
and mature into the person I have
become today.

Like the little ugly ducklin, today I
have emeged into a beautiful swan
as someone discribed it to me.

Because I became Honest in all
my affairs, today I have the gift
of inner beauty. All that baggage
I carried within myself has been
lifted and now Im free.

FREEDOM.....That part of being
HAPPY JOYOUS AND FREE in
recovery.

A beautiful Swan has merged
in recovery in all her glory with
help and guidance from Above
and an AWESOME recovery program
to follow on a daily bases.

Thanks for letting me share.

[toad]

Originally Posted by aasharon90

I havent found it
necessary to pick up a drink since 8-11-90.



Because I became Honest in all
my affairs, today I have the gift
of inner beauty. All that baggage
I carried within myself has been
lifted and now Im free.



Thanks for letting me share.

Sharon......I will be on the road when your birthday rolls around, so I want to tell you HAPPY (soon to be) BIRTHDAY. I believe that yesterday was FREEDOM1990 birthday. She has 18 years also. You and Devon got sober with in a week of each other.

May you be blessed by your sobriety as you share with us your strengths and hopes and experiences.

[Rarly Harley]

Originally Posted by aasharon90

Hi Im Sharon and Im and Alcoholic. By the grace of my HP and people like you here in SR , I havent found it
necessary to pick up a drink since 8-11-90. For that and you I am truely grateful.

Congrats Sharon. 1990 was a darn good year to sober up, wasn't it...?

[aasharon90]

Hi, Im Sharon and Im still an Alcoholic.

By the Grace of my HP and people like
you here in SR I havent had the desire
to pick up a drink of alcohol since 8-11-90.

For that and you I am truely grateful.


It's been awhile since I last poped in here
with u guys, especially with the hurricane
that blew through here in Baton Rouge the
past week.

We did sustain alot of power outages and
for many they are still without it today.

For me, preparation was intac before the
hurricane and thus made stress and anxiety
less to deal with.

Having a generator was a blessing for
this alcoholic which made me extremely
grateful.

Power was finally restored to me while
watching the Blues Brothers. In a near
by room there was a soft glow of an
amber lamp that lite up. It was enough
to catch my attention and thus made
me think the Presence of my HP was
there.

A pretty cool feeling.

Over all Im in a good place and keeping
busy cleaning up a yard which will soon
become a Serenity Yard to enjoy for
years on out.

HAPPY JOYOUS AND FREE