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Fulldresser4 · 02-27-2008, 04:09 PM

DH and I had a long talk last night. He had known I have been drinking again. God, I love that man...he said to not worry about the house or the stepdaughters and to go to whatever meetings I need to. He actually opened up and talked to me and told me he was afraid of me drinking myself to death. I think he feels that way because a few weeks ago we just buried a lady that he grew up with and was in rehab the first time around with me. She literally drank herself to death (along with the vicodin). We have committed to getting me better. I did not go to a meeting tonight and probably not tomorrow night because I am sicker than a dog with an upper respiratory infection. I just wanted to check in and thank you all for the prayers and thoughts. I will be checking in soon. The wierd thing is that he told me that I thought I always had the answers for everything and want to help everyone else but myself. Anyone else like that?

toad · 02-27-2008, 04:21 PM

Sounds like some real communication going on between the two of you.....I pray that God gives and you receive, the strength each and every day to do what it takes to stay clean and sober............

Share this with me:

"Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are restless, irritable, and discontented, unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfprt which comes at once by taking a few drinks, drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the phenomenon of craving develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resoulution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience an entire psychic change there is very little hope for his recovery."

Dr. Silkworth (The Doctors Opinion....from the book Alcoholics Anonymous)

Rarly Harley · 02-27-2008, 06:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Fulldresser4

The wierd thing is that he told me that I thought I always had the answers for everything and want to help everyone else but myself. Anyone else like that?

All alchoholics are like that, to one degree or another. It is called codependency, or the "ism" part of alchoholism. The first step to recovery is admitting we don't have all the answers. Sounds to me like you just did that. You are on your way. Great news that DH is supporting you. We all sure are....Please keep us posted as to your meeting experiences. Don't forget that you are helping us when you do....

Rarly Harley · 03-07-2008, 03:22 PM

FD4: How are the meetings going down there in Saginaw....?

Fulldresser4 · 03-07-2008, 05:02 PM

Hi everyone. I went to a meeting at one of the local detox center/hospitals where I am "comfortable" and took some stuff out of it. Of course, I thought I had my meeting in for the week and what do I do? Pick up again. I have to work forced overtime tomorrow but I am going back to a meeting Sunday. Please keep me in your prayers, this is kicking my @@@. I have been reading the Big Book and trying to accept, it is just a hard thing.

Fulldresser4 · 03-07-2008, 05:04 PM

P.S. -- how do you all like my new avatar? I think it is sooo me, a growly bear on the outside but all soft and messed up on the inside...God, I want to go for a ride.

best · 03-07-2008, 05:12 PM

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Originally Posted by Fulldresser4

Please keep me in your prayers, this is kicking my @@@. I have been reading the Big Book and trying to accept, it is just a hard thing.

Keep trying and the answers will come.

Growl away, we all know your just a teddybear *LOL*

It is hard at times but anything good always requires effort.
Good to see you are seeking answers and giving meetings a try.
It will catch and you will not pick up that first one and be on your way to a better way of living.

The_Hammer · 03-07-2008, 10:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Fulldresser4

P.S. -- how do you all like my new avatar? I think it is sooo me, a growly bear on the outside but all soft and messed up on the inside...God, I want to go for a ride.

God knows what you need; always.

02-27-2008, 04:09 PM	#1 (permalink)
Fulldresser4 Fulldresser4 Join Date: May 2007 Location: Mid-Michigan Posts: 531	What a Relief... DH and I had a long talk last night. He had known I have been drinking again. God, I love that man...he said to not worry about the house or the stepdaughters and to go to whatever meetings I need to. He actually opened up and talked to me and told me he was afraid of me drinking myself to death. I think he feels that way because a few weeks ago we just buried a lady that he grew up with and was in rehab the first time around with me. She literally drank herself to death (along with the vicodin). We have committed to getting me better. I did not go to a meeting tonight and probably not tomorrow night because I am sicker than a dog with an upper respiratory infection. I just wanted to check in and thank you all for the prayers and thoughts. I will be checking in soon. The wierd thing is that he told me that I thought I always had the answers for everything and want to help everyone else but myself. Anyone else like that?

02-27-2008, 04:21 PM	#2 (permalink)
toad Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: mountain grove, missouri Posts: 1,439	Sounds like some real communication going on between the two of you.....I pray that God gives and you receive, the strength each and every day to do what it takes to stay clean and sober............ Share this with me: "Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are restless, irritable, and discontented, unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfprt which comes at once by taking a few drinks, drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the phenomenon of craving develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resoulution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience an entire psychic change there is very little hope for his recovery." Dr. Silkworth (The Doctors Opinion....from the book Alcoholics Anonymous) __________________ "Tet Vet" Combat Veterans Motorcycle Association Patriot Guard Riders 2007 Road King Classic 96 C.I. Six-speed Vivid black "God is doing for me what I could not do for myself"

03-07-2008, 03:22 PM	#4 (permalink)
Rarly Harley Have we seen a person fail... Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: S.S. Marie, Ont. Can. Posts: 708	FD4: How are the meetings going down there in Saginaw....? __________________ Rarly 2002 FLHTC "Annie" " as we let our own light shine, we unconciously give other people permission to do the same"... Nelson Mandela

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03-07-2008, 05:02 PM	#5 (permalink)
Fulldresser4 Fulldresser4 Join Date: May 2007 Location: Mid-Michigan Posts: 531	Hi everyone. I went to a meeting at one of the local detox center/hospitals where I am "comfortable" and took some stuff out of it. Of course, I thought I had my meeting in for the week and what do I do? Pick up again. I have to work forced overtime tomorrow but I am going back to a meeting Sunday. Please keep me in your prayers, this is kicking my @@@. I have been reading the Big Book and trying to accept, it is just a hard thing.

03-07-2008, 05:04 PM	#6 (permalink)
Fulldresser4 Fulldresser4 Join Date: May 2007 Location: Mid-Michigan Posts: 531	P.S. -- how do you all like my new avatar? I think it is sooo me, a growly bear on the outside but all soft and messed up on the inside...God, I want to go for a ride.

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