| alcoholic girlfriend (cont.)-looks pretty obvious i know
Wow, was just re-reading the message I posted last night and i really can't believe myself. If I were giving someone advice on this I would tell them to run as fast as I could. My post looks very co-dependant. A friend told me this morning that that is what she is trying to make me become so I can enable her. All I can say is LOVE STINKS and I don't want to do this anymore. This crap just triggers me to want to use and I haven't felt that way in a long time. I don't know what's wrong with my willpower. I do know that i'm very angry with alcohol in general now (especially Rum and Coke - her drink of choice). I really fear going into the Holidays this month. Just want it to be January already. Why can't alcoholics see the pain they put the one's they love in? She's a smart girl and I know she loves me. I just don't get it.
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