no more ocs

[S-ROD]

So i have been off oxycontin for 77 days now. I had a boyfriend that i went out with for 6 years the last two years we were addicted to oxys. We got in a fight and i cheated. I was really not thinking at the time. So we broke up, he kicked me out started seeing another girl. We got back together from time to time then i got help and started my road to recovery. Well on x-mas eve we got into a fight again because my parents didn't want me around him(because of the drugs and his history with drus) he is in a methadone clinic. I haven't talk to him since our last fight. He told me to die and calld me some bad names. I have been ok. Started a new job, go out talk to some new guys that are nice. But i am so depressed all the time. Its like if i have one second that i am not busy i am thinking about him and our cats (we did live together for 2 years) I am only 21yrs old i know there are more men out there but i am really hurting inside still and i will never give a guy a chance because i am so scared. Should i go and talk to someone before it gets worse. I was treated for depressed about 5 years ago. But have been fine ever since. I also get a lot of anexity. What should i do? Do i need meds? I do not like to take anything after the whole oxy thing. I dont want to use again but when i feel depressed thats the first thing that pops into my head. Sorry so long.

[MarkSichelCSW]

You not only should go to talk with someone about your depression but I'd strongly recommend you go to 12 step meetings...NA or AA to get some support. You're young and bright and strong and if you get the help you need, you should be fine. But please do so as soon as possible.