sleeping pills

[S-ROD]

So i have been clean 36 days off of oxycontin...i am doing good. I have been taking sleeping pills...tylenol pm or any over the counter brand. Well I snorted the oxy's for 2 years. For the last couple days i have been snorting my sleeping pills. I just do it for the feel of snorting again, it isn't the same but i just like it. It actually hurts and has a gross taste unlike the oxys. Will i keep doing this? Should i just throw all the sleeping pilss out and forget it. I get happy when it's time for bed now. Am i sick? I will probably die from this and i am kinda embarassed about it. I told my ex boyfriend whom has been clean the same as me but he's in a methadone clinic and he thinks i am crazy. :jeez

[GuyBlakeKett]

dear s-rod -

well, all I can tell you from my own experience is that once an addict, always an addict - the urge to 'escape' (or go to sleep) is something that will continue to bite your butt until you take steps to recover from it. Snorting Excedrin P.M. is NOT a good idea. What would be a good idea is getting to some NA meetings - going regularly, getting a sponsor & sober friends with whom you can talk all this out. It's great you got off the oxycontin - but believe me, your life will really improve if you manage to stop trying to replace it with anything else. I know it's hard. But try NA, okay? And post what you've written here on the NA thread in this site. You'll get a lot of helpful response there.

best,
Guy