Tanis

[2stop]

Good Morning Tanis,
I know mornings are really rough when it's hard to sleep from withdrawal. I am on day 7 of detox and while i don't feel good I am doing good, trying to do all the healthy things I acn think of. Wanted to wish you an awesome day and hope you are still hanging in there. Here's a couple of quotes I found yesterday. sometimes it helps me keep my thinking straight to read quotes I've collected.
--2stop

"desire, ask, believe, receive." --Stella Terrill Mann
"I respect faith, but doubt is what gets you an education." --Wilson Mizner
"The only courage that matters is the kind that gets you from one moment to the next." Mignon McLaughlin

[Tanis]

2stop -

Thanks for the quotes! Sorry I am not quick to reply. I don't spend a lot of time on here like I probably should.

"Decide what you want, decide what you are willing to exchange for it. Establish your priorities and go to work." - H. L. Hunt

Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts." - Winston Churchill


I hope you are doing okay as well. I have finished night #8. If I can just find a way to fall asleep easy I'd be better off. All in good time I suppose. Sleep and getting some confidence.

- Tanis

[2stop]

Hi Tanis,

I am so glad you are still hangin in there! You're not too late in replying, I think I am too long on here, but right now it is the only thing keeping me sane.

My drug of choice is narcotic pain pills, but have never been prejudiced against alcohol and speed and downer like valium,etc
I began using pill at ten yrs. old. My dad was(is) an addict but won't admit it. It is very painful to get sober now and have at least some grip on reality, but I tell you, the same as for you, it became so unbearable to continue using and also I will die sooner noit later if I continue. 3 yrs ago a doctor told my husband I was in end stage narcotic addiction, I had sores, bleeding and infected on my body and my mental state was to where I would sit on the living room floor and hallucinate. God was not through with me yet and here I am today. I WILL make it through this and know you can too. I know what you mean by living up to others expectations. It is so difficult. I was aparent to both my parents from 4 yrs on up because they were constantly trying to commit suicide. I have 2 young children and thankfully they are doing well. I was able to quit for each pregnancy so it's true that an addict/alcoholic can also quit for awhile but unless we admit our problems lie in the fact that we obsess and consume more and more time in our drug of choice we will always pick right up where we left off and continue with our cycle until we firmly decide to let go and let God. I am not a religious person, don't think God has any religion, but I do know some one greater than me created me and I'm pretty sure as the patent holder he wants me as well and as happy as possible.

Miracles do happen, Tanis. And they will happen for you as you journey through recovery.

Many hugs and hope too,
Tammie:shades:

This exchange was incredibly healing for me to read -- as I'm sure it is and will be for anyone who comes to this site.

thanks to both of you. You're showing us "how it works."

warmest prayers & hope --

Guy

[TimOFromChicago]

Great job, it's hard but it does get better. It took me a good month before I finally slept a solid night and I still occasionally have those sleepness nights (I am human after all). After having read your other posts I can really feel for you. I had a huge crisis of confidence when I first sobered up (14 months ago) but it does pass.

I have one other reason for taking a particular interest, my mother's maiden name is your screen name. If there's any connection, feel free to private message or e-mail me as there's lot's of alcoholism within that side of my family (myself included!) and I'd love to compare notes. If not, that's cool too. The most important thing is to keep on keeping on. You're doing a much better job than you think

Tim

[Tanis]

Hi Tim -

Nope, no relation. I took the name Tanis from a fantasy novel. To be honest, it was the first thing that came to mind so I used it. The character Tanis struggles with his duality so I guess I sort of related somehow.

Day #10 for me.


I wish my wife thought I was doing "better". She is very critical of me now. I am not saying that she doesn't support me. She just doesn't like that I am expressing myself more. Ah well. I am not going back so she will have to deal with me.

Take care!

- Tanis


*waves to 2stop*

[Jon]

I'm not sure if you can even begin to know how the courage from both of you helps others. Today, tomorrow and in the future as well...

Keep up the good work, and please stay in touch here.

[2stop]

Good morning guys!

Tanis, I know what you mean by the spouse being critical!! I got a little cocky yesterday and informed my husband that I didn't think he could handle it now that I am getting sober and healthy and he doesn't have anyone to focus on to block HIS need to change!!!!! OOPs!! LOL!! I've apologized and all is well, I realized he has gone through so many ups and downs with me it's hard for him to believe I am REALLY doing well this time. I will just show him with my actions and try to bite my tongue more!

Hang in there and take it easy, keep posting, love to see others progress.


This life's dim windows of the soul
Distorts the heavens from pole to pole
And leads you to believe a lie
When you see with, not through, the eye.

-William Blake

You all have a great holiday weekend!!

Hugs,
Tammie :waves:

dear 2 stop --

that blake poem is great...

guy

[2stop]

Hey Tanis!

Where are you??

Just wanted to check on ya and see if each day is finding you stronger and steadier. Don't worry, your spouse will come around-I think it's a huge shock to their system as well as ours!

Well, let us all know how things are going for you?

All philosophy lies in two words: sustain and abstain.
-Epictetus

Many hugs and hope too,
Tammie

[TimOFromChicago]

Where ya been? Give us a hollar. We don't bite (all that often...) Hope everything is ok. If it ain't you can still give us a hollar...

Tim

[Tanis]

I am here.

I don't get around to posting all that often. I should do better.

Check out my "Hi" thread to read my update to Guy.

Tammie and Tim, thanks for caring!!

We all care, TAnis. GOOD TO HEAR FROM YOU.

Guy

[Sarah2003]

Thanks for the book recommendation. I'm going to pick up a copy this week.

I appreciate your reponse,

Sarah