I made it thru the detox mark

[tennchick9598]

Hey Mark and everyone else, I just wanted to share this with you, good news
Guys, im back i went thru detox/rehab, more detox than anything, not much counsel, but i have followups with mental health for pain control and bipolar issues (they say im bipolar) I am on mega medication, i mean wow......but i think i can do this, i feel good and happy and out of that damm bottle of tramadol. Love and thanks to all you guys who urged rehab, THIS FORUM AND YOU GUYS PROBABLY SAVED MY LIFE I LOVE YOU

[Codieneaddict]

Congrats tennlady! I hope everything keeps going good for you.

Best wishes,
*C*

[historyteach]

So good to hear you doing so well, Tennlady!!!
Thanks for letting us know how you are.
Hope to see you here often as we both continue to grow in our recovery!

Shalom!

[tennchick9598]

thank you so very much for your kind words, prayers, thoughts and wishes for my sorry self, haha....You are a fantastic bunch, and mean the world to me........

[brynn38]

Hello everyone, I am not new to recovery, but new to this site and have never visited another. i did go through a local hospital a few years ago and detoxed, but within 29 days was right back on my d.o.c....painkillers. at that time had a very strong support system at home, work, etc. it took me about two more years to realize that i was not only just numbing my emotional pain, but destroying all things around me. it still amazes me that although i have been clean for more than two years all the damage i've done to myself and those that cared about me. anyway, a close relative at the time entered a recovery program at a methadone clinic and encouraged me to do the same. i felt like it was trading one addiction for another...but much cheaper and from what i read(alot), safer for my body. Not long before i entered the program, i had lost my mother and best friend to alzheimers, she was only 66. and i had suffered a misscarriage more than half way through the pregnancy, and the emotional pain of the combination of the two seemed unbearable. i guess i used this as an excuse and my addiction just got worse. i am still going to the clinic, and am still confused about if it was the right thing to do and if there is anything better. i feel better physically, but things just seem jumbled in my head. i have a hard time finding and keeping a good job, i have been a real estate agent, a retail manager, among other things and managed those jobs well while using, now i just feel unmotivated and dont have the support system anymore.waaa waaa poor me. i just wonder if anybody understands what i mean about feeling unmotivated and everything feeling all jumbled in my head? I guess its like i said....it still amazes me that i still see reminders everyday of all the damage i've done. i actually believed before i started treatment that i could just quit using and life would go back to the way it was before....if only it worked that way!

[brynn38]

hello,in response to what you said about them saying you are bi-polar, im just curious because the first time i tried to get clean, it was in-patient and of course we had meetings to go to everyday. well, at one of the group meetings everyone attended they had a guest speaker that told us that pretty much all of us were bi-polar. He really believed this. It seemed as if he was telling us that if we had addictive personalities we were also bi-polar, in all reading materials and meetings concerning addiction that word seems to come up almost always...just curious if you noticed this also. by the way, i am a new member to this site and i noticed that somehow something that you posted had my name under it , i believe it said "made it through the detox mark", im just learning and becoming familiar with this site so hope it wasnt something i done. i thought maybe the tennlady. and the fact that im from tennessee might have something to do with it, anyway...hope you have a wonderful day thanks brynn

[MarkSichelCSW]

TEENLADY...Congratulations!!! You should be very proud of yourself.