Blake

So I woke up this morning in a clod sweat and crying...

Last night at a meeting the topic was "when medically nessacary" b/c there was a girl there that had oral surgery and had to be on pain meds for a day or two and was freaking out about it.

I got home and watched The 40 year old virgin (Highly reccomended!!!) and went to sleep.

I dreamed that I finally went and had my pending oral surgery done and when I got home I had a script for oxy's from the doctor....so instead of using the oxy's, I went and picked up a bundle of dope and told my roommate that "if it's medically nessacary for me to do oxy's, I can substitue heroin...it's basically the same thing..."

I lined up 4 bags of dope in my dream, hit them, then woke up...

I haven't had a using dream in a good while now and this one kinda shook me up. It makes me afraid to go have my oral surgery anytime soon, I don't think I can have my jaw broken and wired shut without pain meds, so I'll just put it off for a while, maybe a long while.

Just had to tell someone,
Blake