Ok, starting over again. Day 10 now
Ok, starting over again. Day 10 now
Hello everyone,
My last post here was that I made 60 days.
Well, in total I made 64 days but then I relapsed.....
To make a long story short: I got back up, dusted myself off, and walked back to the NA program after a leave of 2 days.
I'm not terribly proud of my relapse because it's my 4th in about the 4 months that I'm in the program.
Then again, I returned just as many times.
I just wanted to share this here. I did share about it in meetings and picked up my white keychain again but I also want to tell it to this great online community.
Whenever there isn't a meeting or I can't reach someone from the program, this forum is always there. And I'm grateful for that
Nick.
My last post here was that I made 60 days.
Well, in total I made 64 days but then I relapsed.....
To make a long story short: I got back up, dusted myself off, and walked back to the NA program after a leave of 2 days.
I'm not terribly proud of my relapse because it's my 4th in about the 4 months that I'm in the program.
Then again, I returned just as many times.
I just wanted to share this here. I did share about it in meetings and picked up my white keychain again but I also want to tell it to this great online community.
Whenever there isn't a meeting or I can't reach someone from the program, this forum is always there. And I'm grateful for that
Nick.
I'm grateful that you came back Nick. 10 days is awesome. You have so many tools at your fingertips, now you just need to use them. How are the meetings going for you?
This site is wonderful isn't it? I don't know if I would have made it this far without it.
This site is wonderful isn't it? I don't know if I would have made it this far without it.
Thanks for the support Roxann
Meetings are always good for me eventhough I just had 2 "weird" ones.
But I'll make a seperate posting about that.
In the mean time I just keep working the program to the best of my abillities.
I go to a meeting everyday and do some service work (putting up tables and chairs and making coffee).
I try to keep it simple. That seems to work best for me.
Meetings are always good for me eventhough I just had 2 "weird" ones.
But I'll make a seperate posting about that.
In the mean time I just keep working the program to the best of my abillities.
I go to a meeting everyday and do some service work (putting up tables and chairs and making coffee).
I try to keep it simple. That seems to work best for me.
I'm an addict.
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: Hyde Park, NY
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Welcome back Nick.
One of the greatest tools I have to gaurd me against a relapse is the first step.
It says in the basic text that if we believe that we can somehow control our drug use, we almost are forced to go back out and prove ourselves wrong. But the moment we surrender that control, we never have to use again. I really believe this to be true and today I know that there is no hope of me ever regaining control of my drug use, for me it has been a great relief to give up that fight.
A couple of things that people in my area repeat over and over is:
"don't pick up, NO MATTER WHAT!"
and
"Tough ****, Don't use"
When I'm feeling like I want to go get loaded, I run these things through my head...it helps me.
Good luck dude,
-Blake
One of the greatest tools I have to gaurd me against a relapse is the first step.
It says in the basic text that if we believe that we can somehow control our drug use, we almost are forced to go back out and prove ourselves wrong. But the moment we surrender that control, we never have to use again. I really believe this to be true and today I know that there is no hope of me ever regaining control of my drug use, for me it has been a great relief to give up that fight.
A couple of things that people in my area repeat over and over is:
"don't pick up, NO MATTER WHAT!"
and
"Tough ****, Don't use"
When I'm feeling like I want to go get loaded, I run these things through my head...it helps me.
Good luck dude,
-Blake
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Join Date: Apr 2003
Location: out there...
Posts: 2,653
Glad your back Nick.
I know for me, getting clean time was a big deal.. in fact I made so much of a deal about it that everytime I got a few months, I'd lose sight of the just foir today. When I really surrendered all of a sudden the weeks and months didn't matter so much, because I had finally figured out that if i just didn't pick up .. just for right now, those minutes would eventually add up.
Narcotics Anonymous and getting a day clean ruins the using for us. Then it just becomes a matter of not using come hell or high water.
I know for me, getting clean time was a big deal.. in fact I made so much of a deal about it that everytime I got a few months, I'd lose sight of the just foir today. When I really surrendered all of a sudden the weeks and months didn't matter so much, because I had finally figured out that if i just didn't pick up .. just for right now, those minutes would eventually add up.
Narcotics Anonymous and getting a day clean ruins the using for us. Then it just becomes a matter of not using come hell or high water.
Not all better, getting better
Join Date: Feb 2002
Location: The Beautiful Inner Banks of NC
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Originally Posted by Gooch
Glad your back Nick.
I know for me, getting clean time was a big deal.. in fact I made so much of a deal about it that everytime I got a few months, I'd lose sight of the just foir today. When I really surrendered all of a sudden the weeks and months didn't matter so much, because I had finally figured out that if i just didn't pick up .. just for right now, those minutes would eventually add up.
Narcotics Anonymous and getting a day clean ruins the using for us. Then it just becomes a matter of not using come hell or high water.
I know for me, getting clean time was a big deal.. in fact I made so much of a deal about it that everytime I got a few months, I'd lose sight of the just foir today. When I really surrendered all of a sudden the weeks and months didn't matter so much, because I had finally figured out that if i just didn't pick up .. just for right now, those minutes would eventually add up.
Narcotics Anonymous and getting a day clean ruins the using for us. Then it just becomes a matter of not using come hell or high water.
Good job pickin youself up and dusting yourslef off Nick, you got what it takes!!
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