tryingtoforget5

I have had flashbacks on and off since I finally told someone that I was sexually abused 20years after It happened. Lately they are mor often adn body memories are comming now. I've never had them befor so I really thought I was extreemly afraid that I was going crazy. I have a great councelor now who understands and believes me and assures me that I'm not going crazy. After being 12 years sober from drugs and alcohol, I never thought I'd feel like this ever. But I'm not giving up and let them win. They have taken almost half of my life and I refuse to give them any more of my life. Im sober and I pray to God I stay that way because I know that He will get me through this.

Morning Glory

The first thing that we all think is that we are going crazy. That is the farthest from the truth. It sure feels that way though.

I was just sure I was losing my mind. I had a lady tell me that if I lost my mind God would find it again for me. That was just not very comforting! I found out that I wasn't losing my mind and all the things I was experiencing were from anxiety. I can have anxiety and panic now and know I'm not crazy and know I just have to make it though 24 hours until relief comes. It's very seldom though.

I'm glad you have a good therapist. That's so important. Get through a day at a time and you'll gradually start to feel better.

We're here when you need to vent or talk.

Hugs,
MG

DesertEyes

Hey there trying :-)

I had really bad flashbacks when I first started dealing with the incest and physical abuse. I understand how scary they can be. Mine didn't last long, they came on strong at first and quickly tapered off. What helped me the most was getting involved in a group of survivors of abuse, people who had experienced much the same thing I had. I don't know what's in your area but they're usually under Adult Children of Alcoholics or Incest Survivors Anonymous. Oh yeah, hang on to that therapist, good ones are a blessing.

Keep posting here and let us know how you're doing. We've all been there and we really do care.

Mike :-)

Don W

Hi Trying, Welcome to SR. I can identify with you. I once had 5 years sober but, never dealt with the sexual abuse stuff. I can tell you that it has been hiding inside waiting to come out. Although painful once out the new levels of sobriety will surprise you.
Once the flashbacks started I always had this little voice that would answer any praise I or anyone else gave me. Have you found yourself continuing someones statments inside with, " Sure you say you like me but, if you knew this or that?"
Once out you'll be able to find help to deal with it. This is a great place to dump this S***. We've all done it. Don W