Dream2bClean

Hi,

I have been clean for 16 days now, and I guess I am what you call dry. I will not drink or take pills but I want to. I am pissed of at the rest of the world b/c they can at least have a beer and I cant have anything. I dont have a sposcer at NA yet b/c hardly any women go to the meetings around me, and I have asked 2 paople and they both said they couldnt do it. My husband works at night and I am bored and lonely. I know I should call one of the phone numbers I got at NA, but I feel weird calling someone I dont know and I dont even remember what they looked like. I know I wont use, but I wont do anything else either, is this normal. I have no motivation and everything seems like it sucks b/c I cant use. I wish I had interests but I cant think of anyhting I like to do besides what I know I cant do anymore. Can anyone relate to this?

nutz

it's normal, just don't keep up no matter what.
when you get sick and tired of going thur with what
you're are going thur, I'll start doing something about it.
I use to take lots of shower, yes it's hard to just drag yourself in there.

It works in the same manner as not wanting to use drugs any more.
You got sick of the crap.

It is not just about stopping or abstance.
We must change our life style or behavior patterns.
Now that our mind is a little clearer our senses are coming back.
The feelings are actually a possitive thing to happen.
It basically telling us to do something about our lives.
If we don't keep up, and when we get sick and tired of
these bad feelings, we'll do something posistive in our lives.
Little posistive actions, like cleaning house a little bit at a time.
or cleaning out junk draws. Or take little walks outside to
just get out of the house for fresh air.
Or read recovery books....yes i know that books is heavy as hell,
just like that 2 ton phone.
Give yourself a break, just don't pick up no matter what.

Boredom can be very dangerous for recoverying addicts
earily in recovery, becuase back in our old using days
we pick up and used becuase we were bored.
That's why people over eat sometimes.

Roxann

Congratulations on your 16 days clean. I think Nutz gave you some excellent advice. I say read some recovery books, work your steps and don't give up on finding a sponsor. Ask one of the women if they would be your temporary sponsor until you can find a permanant one. Take those phone numbers and dont' be aftraid to call them, that's why you have them. :hugs:

WNY Addict

There you go

People gave you those numbers for a reason. I don't like being woken up at 3am (like most peeps), but it's well worth it in my opinion if I can help a fellow addict from relapsing.

Go to more meetings, meet people, follow the crowd that's doing it (and doing it well), find out where the NA women tend to go.

We'll come up with a million and one reasons not to chase our recovery, but we'll go to hell-and-back (more than once) for that "one last hit".

Addiction is some crazy s--t, isn't it?

WeDoRecover

Check your PM's. I'm in Atlanta too.