Dream2bClean

Hi,

I am 12 days clean today. I have felt very bad all day, really anxious. I have been going to meetings everyday but missed the last 2 days b/c I had the flu. I got ready to go to the meeting 3 hours early and tried everything to fill the time. I walked my dog, breathed, and read the NA book, which only made me feel more anxious. I went to the meeting with little expectations b/c I have been to a couple I really didnt feel comfortable in so far. The meeting was on sponsership which I really needed to hear people talk about. When I got there it was all guys and I was the only girl which happens to me a lot. I met a guy and told him about my frustrations with other women I had met so far in the program. Surely enough a few women came in a little late one at a time. At the end of the meeting the guy I had met introduced me to one of the girls and I ended up meeting them all and they were all great. There were three and for the first time I can see myself being able to call them and relate. I still dont have a sponcer, but I feel much better. It has only been 12 days for me but ever since I have done this, the right people keep coming into my life at the right time. I finally know what they mean about when you are feeling bad, get to a meeting. The meeting today saved me.

Gooch

Thanks for the post!

(((((((want 2)))))))

cj.

(((((want2B)))))

Thanks for your wonderful words of hope! Keep your eyes on the prize!! It does get better.

Peace
cj

Roxann

I'm glad you went. It's amazing how much better you feel after isn't it? Just keep going, and you will get a sponsor. Make sure you get phone numbers of people to call for the rough moments. :heart:

CharacterDefect

The meetings will get better, I promise.

I went unnoticed for a week at meetings and was very hurt because of it. I ended up going in without any expectations like you did and it felt a bit better. I also started praying early on and found my Higher Power's help right away which was such a blessing.

Just keep going, you'll find your place. You don't have to find a sponsor right away if you haven't seen anyone fitting. Perhaps ask one of the nice males to be a temporary sponsor until you find a female one that jives with you?

~J