A new Beginning for Me
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A new Beginning for Me
I've posted some awful things in the past. My depression, DTs, etc. I finally got detox halp and am finished. Now for a 30 day program which I will find and hopefully be admitted to this next week.
I can't thank all of you enough for your good wishes, hopes, and prayers. They meant more than any of you know.
Life is good now. I have a plan. I see a future. I see hope (not my ex but true hope. I realize now that I can never be with my ex because she also has this disease but will not try to quit.)
I know it will not be easy but I have my family and all of you for support. Again, thank you so much.
I was given a very powerful document in detox and want to share it with all of you. I've never done this before but will attach it to this thread I suppose. Please read it. It is my number one thing to go to if I have problems now. It may also help some of you?
I can't thank all of you enough for your good wishes, hopes, and prayers. They meant more than any of you know.
Life is good now. I have a plan. I see a future. I see hope (not my ex but true hope. I realize now that I can never be with my ex because she also has this disease but will not try to quit.)
I know it will not be easy but I have my family and all of you for support. Again, thank you so much.
I was given a very powerful document in detox and want to share it with all of you. I've never done this before but will attach it to this thread I suppose. Please read it. It is my number one thing to go to if I have problems now. It may also help some of you?
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((((V))))
I can't tell you how happy I am for you. I, too, know that dark, dark night of the soul (as most of us do here) and am so grateful you are getting help and doing what you know you need to do. There is hope. It does get better.
You always have a place here. Know that no matter what, you are never alone.
many hugs,
jojo
I can't tell you how happy I am for you. I, too, know that dark, dark night of the soul (as most of us do here) and am so grateful you are getting help and doing what you know you need to do. There is hope. It does get better.
You always have a place here. Know that no matter what, you are never alone.
many hugs,
jojo
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congratulations on getting help, my prayers are with u!
i justread uratachment, its one of the most powerful I've ever read, thank you so much for posting it, it was like the devil was talking right to me!!!!!
be a sponge in your 30 day program....God bless and \\// peace
i justread uratachment, its one of the most powerful I've ever read, thank you so much for posting it, it was like the devil was talking right to me!!!!!
be a sponge in your 30 day program....God bless and \\// peace
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(( X Boozer ))
Glad to hear you are doing better.Best of luck with your treatment.
I have read " I am your disease" many times ,it is very powerful ! Great title for your new thread.Thank-you ! Bless, Trish
I have read " I am your disease" many times ,it is very powerful ! Great title for your new thread.Thank-you ! Bless, Trish
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What the others said.
Jump in to this program with both feet and all your heart.
You are so worth the freedom from active alcoholism.
I never believed that until I felt the first little bubbles of happiness float over me.
The best of luck to you friend.
I was given the "I am your disease" when I was in rehab.
I need that thing in my back pocket. For the times I start feeling cocky again.
Thanks for the good news.
Peace.
Jump in to this program with both feet and all your heart.
You are so worth the freedom from active alcoholism.
I never believed that until I felt the first little bubbles of happiness float over me.
The best of luck to you friend.
I was given the "I am your disease" when I was in rehab.
I need that thing in my back pocket. For the times I start feeling cocky again.
Thanks for the good news.
Peace.
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Thank you all. I was not aware so many people new of that document. I am still learning though.
I will be a sponge but more than that, I will participate in everything. I did the same at detox. We were given homework to evaluate ourselves based on a series of questions. Many people had been there for weeks and not done it. I did it, read it etc. I attended all meetings and even stood up when we had an actual AA spokesman come and told my story then. I've learned I can't get rid of this demon if I hide from it so will share my story and all I've done good and bad at every meeting I go to.
I will be a sponge but more than that, I will participate in everything. I did the same at detox. We were given homework to evaluate ourselves based on a series of questions. Many people had been there for weeks and not done it. I did it, read it etc. I attended all meetings and even stood up when we had an actual AA spokesman come and told my story then. I've learned I can't get rid of this demon if I hide from it so will share my story and all I've done good and bad at every meeting I go to.
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Good luck with your journey to find sobriety. It appears you're off to a great start. Hard work, determination and the proper tools will get you everything. Have hope and keep the faith. In doing so, you can achieve anything...
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Well it is 12:30 at night. I am fine. Don't want to drink or anything like that. Just sort of turned into a vampire I guess? My sleep schedule is exaclty opposite as it should be. I sleep half the day and wake earlier each night. Must be one of the side affects of my body not having booze anymore? I think it doesn't know what to do.
I feel entirely different than before. I am motivated and ready to go. The problem is that it is 12:30 at night. I feel like brewing a pot of coffee and starting the day. Can't do that though because then I will never get out of this bad schedule. So, just chatting I guess. Anyway, that's it. Thanks for the ear.
I feel entirely different than before. I am motivated and ready to go. The problem is that it is 12:30 at night. I feel like brewing a pot of coffee and starting the day. Can't do that though because then I will never get out of this bad schedule. So, just chatting I guess. Anyway, that's it. Thanks for the ear.
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Boozer,
Im so happy that you have found the way to sobriety.
It's an awsome way!
And your sleep patterns will even out.You are waking up wanting to start your day cause you can actually enjoy it now!
Good for you!!!
Im so happy that you have found the way to sobriety.
It's an awsome way!
And your sleep patterns will even out.You are waking up wanting to start your day cause you can actually enjoy it now!
Good for you!!!
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Boop,
Thanks. I guess you are right. I laid down and read some of one of my recovery books. That put me right to sleep. (Not to belittle the book, it is just not exactly a page turner.)
I slept fine until 6:00 and that is a good start.
You are correct about wanting to start the day. It is brighter, my head is more clear, everything has taken on a new meaning and value. That was the problem last night. The crying has been replaced by happiness and I kept thinking of things that made me happy. Problem was they also kept me awake. Better to be awake and happy than awake and miserable like all last month.
Thanks. I guess you are right. I laid down and read some of one of my recovery books. That put me right to sleep. (Not to belittle the book, it is just not exactly a page turner.)
I slept fine until 6:00 and that is a good start.
You are correct about wanting to start the day. It is brighter, my head is more clear, everything has taken on a new meaning and value. That was the problem last night. The crying has been replaced by happiness and I kept thinking of things that made me happy. Problem was they also kept me awake. Better to be awake and happy than awake and miserable like all last month.
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