DrakeCKC

Hi All: I am in a deep depression/anxiety phase now. Worst in several years. I am prone to having some temper outbursts now and then too.

I am just not up to posting much here and sadly had a couple of occasions where I decided to drink when some booze was just too close at hand. I did not have any at home, but it came into my possession innocently and instead of disposing of it, I decided to drink it.. it has been sent down the drain now.

I am ok for now, psychiatrist involved and meds have been adjusted. I will check in sometime.

Thanks

DC

Soberwolf

Hi Drake sorry that happened but know you always have your friends here

Bekindalways

Depression is a pisser. I'm another one in that club.

Good on ya for sending the hooch down the drain.

Opivotal

((Drake))

Dee74

(((Drake))) are you looking for more support regarding your drinking as well?

D

DrakeCKC

Dee: my two episodes, for lack of a better word, were related to the real intense depression I got into both days. It was triggered by two related events. My psych is watching me close ( I have to call the office and report twice a week) and I don't think I will drink again anytime soon. I have lost 50 lbs in the last 2 years or so, most of that due to not drinking. I do not want to get fat again. That is a big motivator. The fact that I am posting here is a good start, I was really just wanting to slide away and never come back here again.

But you can't get rid of me that easy.

Soberwolf

Good because your a good friend to many here brother

MidnightBlue

Hi, Drake.

Depression is a terrible thing.

I know that in the deep of depression everything seems to be useless and even posting to talk with friends is hard.

But, please, reach out when you need to talk.

Hugs to you.

Soberwolf

Are you exercising Drake it's doing wonders for my mood

Windancer

Hey there Drake.
Depression and anxiety are buggers. I know all too well the hell you sometimes feel. But don't forget: "This too, will pass".

Nofearnobeer

Drake, I am dealing with manic depression and some intense anxiety. I feel like I am grounded some days , like I can barely do anything..The horrendous feeling I get just overwhelms me...So I can relate with what you are saying..It seems worse at night..I appreciate Soberrecovery because it lets me know I am not alone with this stuff..

Hang in there..

oldsoul112249

I know with myself it's the emotions trapped in my body causing the anxiety and depression....frustration, anger and pain can play havoc on the nervous system. When mine tops off I vent somehow, move, run... write things down get the emotions unblocked and then end up with a good cry. I get a lot of relief that way.

DrakeCKC

Thanks for the kind messages everyone. With a good couple days, no drinking and support from a good friend who allowed me to bend his ear for a long talk, I feel I am crawling out.

to all!

Bekindalways

Sounds good Drake. Even . . . or maybe especially . . . when the baby steps are taken on your knees in a crawl, it counts.

SoberCAH

It sounds like you are doing the right thing with respect to your depression.

I hope that you pursue a program of recovery to get and keep lasting sobriety.

Soberwolf

Good job brother