alcoholic123

Well that's it for me.

My 25 year fight against paranoia is now well and truly over. Even a speck of dust gives me paranoia now.

Not sure whats next, maybe a long stay in a mental health unit or maybe there till im done.

I am actually a bit relieved though, at least I wont have to lie, give fake smiles and fake everything.

Good luck to everyone else here who is fighting, fight for as long as you possibly can.

Coldfusion

There is a big difference between surrender and hopelessness. Surrender is often viewed as the first step to recovery. Do you have any hope that a stay in a mental health unit would be helpful?

Dee74

Hi alcoholic

I'm sorry for your situation. Will you be speaking with a Dr to get the ball rolling?

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Fabat50

Where there is life there is hope!

I have not read any of your previous threads yet but I just wanted to reach out and say that as long as you are posting here there is still a lot of hope.

Bekindalways

May you find help and hope Alcoholic. This is one heck of a thing to have to live with. Come back and post if it feels right. If nothing else we can be yours community.

Astro

I'm sorry you're feeling hopeless and down. I'm coming up on an anniversary. Almost 11 years ago I was admitted to a mental health facility as the result of alcoholism and suicidal ideations. It was one of the best things that ever happened to me, although I will never forget the despair I felt at the time.

I can tell you there is hope. When I look back at my recovery now I can see that the lowest times were opportunities I had to reach out and receive help. It was freely and generously available to me. Last night my wife commented that she's never seen me happier. I haven't heard that in a long time.

Please don't give up. What may appear to be the end could actually be the beginning of something miraculous.