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Happy Thanksgiving to everyone.

I am fortunate to have a large and caring family. So I feel bad whining but need a place to share. It was my first family holiday sober in a group of usually heavy drinkers. I felt bad because it seemed as if everyone was trying to monitor their drinking for me. It's nice to know they care but I felt as if I might have been a bit of a downer for people. Nobody treated me as such but I did notice drinks being shifted to less obvious places when I joined people in different rooms. Perhaps I am being paranoid or overly sensitive but I felt like a real "buzz" kill. I hadn't told most of them but I had to go through a medical detox and told a few people and secretes do not excise in my family so I am well aware that they all know.
Tomorrow is my 29th birthday and my 29th day sober and I'm already exhausted from tonight so I think I will just hid out in my parents house and have a quiet day.
I feel bad for complaining considering I have people who care but I needed to vent.
Hope everyone enjoys the weekend.