Dee74

Last part here

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...t-21-a-21.html

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PippoRossi

Oh, please do be careful...some good old fashioned hairpulling could be next.

tootsl1

Hahaha! Don't forget the squealing pippoRossi! Congrats on shotgun by the way!

Bird615

Aww, thank you for the One Month medallion/chip thing! That was very nice.

I'm missing my mom today and have been feeling a little down the past few days. It's still bothering me that she never knew I had started drinking again, and she died believing I was still sober. She had been telling a nurse in the hospital how proud she was of me and I felt like sh** when I heard about that. If she had come out and asked, I would've been honest, but she was sick and I didn't have the heart to say anything and worry her unnecessarily. It's probably the only real guilt I have about relapsing.

I suspect some of my low mood is also due to my recent increased sugar intake. I normally eat almost no sugar but was indulging in ice cream the past few weeks. I think it's messed up my blood sugar, because I remember when I changed my diet and cut sugar and some other things out a few years ago, the depression I'd had off and on for years went away.

As for shortening my name, call me whatever you like except late for dinner. Seriously, Mad or Bird or anything is fine.

melivinsober

I need to catch up on reading. But quick check in till I have time. Things are going well. I'm feeling much more positive. I had another opportunity to turn pot down again. :] I wish I knew more sober people. Also I have added pot to my list of things to stay sober from. I am not going to change my sobriety date because of the last hiccup, But going forward it is going to count. Have a great night undies. Off to class I go. *hugs*

tanja

Good Evening Undies,

Wow - this thread is moving so fast.

Carlos - CONGRATULATIONS ON 1/3 OF A YEAR OF SOBRIETYYou are such an incredible inspiration and blessing. I hope you celebrate this significant milestone in a grand way!

DP - Many hearty congratulations on 3/4 of year of sobriety That is a huge accomplishment. You should be very proud of yourself.

Welcome Resolute50 Congratulations on 69 days of sobriety!

Courage - Kudos to you for not giving in due to a typical trigger. You are far stronger than you realize.

Babs -Have a good time visting your sister. We will miss you while you are away!

Siesta - So glad to have you back with us. I think you should be very proud of yourself that you are willing to go back to counseling despite the fear. I suspect the next session will be better and provide you with some hope.

Drake - Way to go! Working through stress and refusing to drink over it. 1/2 a year is close at hand and you have worked hard on your sobriety. You are an inspiration to the whole group.

Madbird - Congratulations on 30 days I am so sorry for the loss of your mother. The fact that you are sober now, I am sure would make her very proud.

Grace, Toots, Carlos, DP and DG0409 - Thank you so much for the kind words, encouragement and support in my new endeavor in leading an AA meeting. It really means a lot to me.

Getting ready to go to my service position (clean-up) at a speakers meeting. Wishing everyone a very special Thursday.

walkingwithgod

Day 191, and had the toughest day of sobriety yet. 6 hours at a company event and everyone was drinking. I had club soda and a lime, but I almost caved. People kept asking me about not drinking, ugh. Then the buddy I ride with and a few others wanted to hit a bar. I went along and had more club soda. It was so tough, and scary how close I came to drinking. I felt like the oddball as others enjoyed their booze. I'm proud I made it through sober, but it was not easy. It took all the courage and good sense I had to not drink.

stevie88

Wow Tanja is right this thread is moving along rapid speed lol...

It's 00.20am here so that's day 302 just starting for me...Stuck on a 16 hour night shift but all is well....

Locked the stadium up around half hour ago so now I can chill for a while and monitor cctv apart from doing my hourly patrols of the stadium...

So many milestones here and it's hard to keep up....It'll be 10 months for me on Monday...

Big congrats to madhead,madbird,crazy bird lol you did say call you whatever...The first 30 days were the hardest for me so well done...

Big congrats also to carlos....4 months is amazing dude keep it up...

Tanja it's great to see you as usual...Hope you are well...

Same to you DG, toots, dotty p, melivin and to everyone else who I have missed...

Grace I miss you too....Hope you are having a wicked time....Thinking about ya xx

Midnight I love hearing about your boxing stories...You go girl....What do you think about Amir Khan fighting Mayweather???? I think Amir will be destroyed lol...

And last but not least....Big thanks to the main man DEE for starting a new thread....Cheers dude....

Take care all.....Steve.

stevie88

WWG you are amazing man....Really well done and I know exactly how you felt because I went to a nightclub 3 weeks ago to watch some boxing and the booze was flowing then....You did brilliant man...I'm proud of ya.

Dee74

I found it really important not to put myself in slippery situations until I knew I wanted to stay sober more than anything else.

If those situations are unavoidable for any of you guys I really think you need a good very solid plan.

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walkingwithgod

Thanks Steve for the support. Well done yourself.

walkingwithgod

Dee, I had no choice it was a company celebration for 25 years of business. It was at a Professional Football stadium. Everyone was drinking, but I made it through.

stevie88

DEE it was the first time in 10 months I had put myself in a position like that...I have a keen interest in my cousins boxing career and unfortunatly most of his fights will be taking place in night clubs....Luckily for me my cousins father has followed my sobriety very closely and he helps to keep me on the straight and narrow....It's him that buys me bottled water all night lol.....

Dee74

I'm not scolding anyone guys - just offering what I think is good advice
it's great all you guys came through
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ctrl

WWG- you are the man. That was solid.

Steve- I hope that my work life picks up as well as yours has. Right now I have lots of catching up to do.

Today was my 9 year anniversary with my supportive wife. First one not celebrated with a boatload of booze (me...not her). I used any reason to drink...

Goodnight all.

courage2

WWG & Stevie -- good for you for surviving those night outs in the booze-filled spots.

Your experiences remind me of a dinner party last spring when I had about 5 months -- the guy across from me ordered like 3 double gin & tonics, and then the restaurant bought us all champagne (because of slow service). I was one of the hosts of the dinner, but I practically ran out while the champagne was still flowing. I was just fixated on the booze. My sobriety survived, but it took days & days for the renewed obsessions to start to dim. I don't care to put myself in that mental space very often.

Carlos, Madbird, congratulations to you both on milestones!

Siesta, it's good that you & your husband are communicating & I hope things work out.

Toots, your words of wisdom make me think you must have adult children yourself. Thanks! It's hard to be powerless and at the same time still care so much. My son's issues are... his issues, not mine. I just worry.

MB -- no gloves??? That broad should be banned until she trims her nails!

DG0409

Well, I had a pretty good day. Managed to get quite a bit of work done and then had a nice bike ride this evening. Had some kind of down feelings earlier, just not feeling motivated to do all the things I need to and feeling a bit blue. But the bike ride did seem to help with that a bit.

dorothyparker

oye oye oye. My finger is numb from hitting "thanks" so many time. And I'm so fuzzy lately, I forgot all the stuff I wanted to say to each I felt like responding to so apologies in advance.

It must be stress but I forget all sorts of things lately: got a parking ticket (that I can't pay at the moment), went to a meeting at 10h30 (it was set at 10), and I forgot to lock my front door and it stayed open all night and all day today. Lucky the wind didn't push it any further. No one from the street noticed. I'm not my usual self.

Carlos, Bravo on 4 months. And it's so nice to read you hit Trifecta by landing here. A super compliment. Hey did the vote go your way? Maybe I missed your answer.

Siesta, I really empathize with you about feeling like you're on trial and doubly so re. your husband and narcissism. Thankfully, there are diff degrees of narcissists and if he's agreeing to therapy, even if it's to make himself look good, it's better than most hardcore narcissists who will never go to therapy.

Grace, you seem so cheerful from over there in your lounge chair. I didn't know we oculd order virgin Sangria. Please get used to being spoiled and served on. You deserve it.

Toots, thank you for your sweet words. Sorry to hear the visa thing is being put on hold. It must be fastidious to want to forget about it but still have it linger in your mind. A pity too you can't have a duvet day. I hope you went to bed early with your darling dog for company.

About sugar, I craved it so much at the beginning I would guzzle bottles of maple syrup, then I decided to only indulged in one tablespoon of the stuff and then I did 8 months of super low carb diet and it all helped me. I think it's OK to permit ourselves those indulgences if need be. As long as it's a temporary solution. I hear the sugar cravings usually diminish with time.

Stevie, I love my new nickname Dotty P. lol and Crazy Bird. You seem like you are in a good mood but I'll acquiesce to what others have said: you work too much. It may be good for the money but not so much on your social life hey?

WWG, you must be so very proud of yourself. I did that once, follow the gang to a bar, and didn't find it too hard but I remember thinking how much I was imbibing liquid in lieu of wine. it made me realize that if you don't have a drinking problem 2 glasses is as much as 2 glasses of mineral water, whereas for me, 5 glasses was very easy to gulp down...So I eventually found a way to pace my liquids too because if I had 5 glasses of diet coke or water, it was way too much and I felt sick.;(

As for me today, I had a meeting with a producer. No concrete projects there until the spring! I have time to starve until then but he took interests in my projects in development so I'll be meeting another person in that department. Let's hope they'll optioned at least one of these. Not much money, a few thousands but enough to survive for at least a month. Apart from that, I'm hustling for smaller writing gigs, secretarial, marketing work, etc...

Courage, I kept finding touches of colours all throughout the day to brighten my day...Friendship, lunches, autumn leaves, the sun, health, oh, here's to good physical health!

I was interrupted by my phone while writing so I may have missed quite a few extra posts. See you tomorrow. xoxo

tootsl1

Hi guys,

Before I forget, I had a pm from HappyDestiny3. He is doing fine, crazy busy and enjoying his sober life. He is not on his computer so much, so does not check into SR too often, but wants you all to know he is well and happy and sober! And sends love to you all.

Madbird, you will have to deal with the guilt you feel at keeping your drinking from your mum, but tbh I feel she would have died easier and happier believing her troubled child had found happiness and stability. Had she known at the end that you were drinking again, I'm sure she would have been upset by it. Find a way to forgive yourself, your mother died at peace, and you now honour her by your return to sobriety.

Mel, you did great turning down the pot again, the more we say no, the stronger we get, and the weaker the AV gets. Once you are ready to begin socialising more again, you will chose more sober ways to have fun, and that way will meet more sober people.

Steve, only 16 hours this shift, what dude? You dropped down to part time?? I have no idea where you get your stamina from mate, but if you could bottle it and sell it, you would never need to work again!!

WWG well done on managing last night. I know it was unavoidable so you did really well. Especially in a firm where you are relatively new and so many at the event would be comfortable around each other. In a similar situation last weekend, all I could think was how much easier it was to not drink, to not worry that I may say or do something indiscreet, or that I could be teased about for years to come! I was also really glad not to have the mega 3day hangover I normally would have afterwards.

Courage, I have a thirty one year old step daughter and a thirty year old stepson, both of whom are the children of my heart if not my body. I wish I could give them contentment, which by now I realise is the most important thing to have. But they are, in their different ways constantly striving for more, or better. I give what I can, love, support, hugs, (money!) but I know ultimately their lives are theirs to live. They will be what they chose and I will love them unconditionally. It is hard though, as you say to watch and not interfere. Part of growing is making our own mistakes, and we can't do that if we are forever protected from making choices.

DP, oh heck, now I javelin to call you Dotty, it is just too cute a name to pass on! Thank you for your supportive words, yes it is frustrating, trying to focus on the here and now, when the future is so uncertain, but as you are showing, I am not alone in that. Knowing you live that way all the time, gives me strength. What ever happens re the visas at least I have a roof, food and health. Funny you mentioned the amount of fluids you drank on your night out, I must have had about 15 glasses of water last weekend! Every bottle of beer the guys had, I got a glass of water pretty much, but I was super hydrated the next day! Lol
Good luck with the potential project, keep visualising positive outcomes, I do believe by positivity we can influence our destinies. ( hmm need to remember that myself and begin really believing in a stateside spring!!)

DG I just sold my bike yesterday, as part of a clear out of the garage, and yes, now of course the car is playing up! Oh how I love the fates!! I'm glad the exercise lightened your mood, when do you go away for work?

Ctrl, I too celebrated my first sober wedding anniversary earlier this year. I realise now, that by chance or timing, I pretty much gave up drinking at the perfect time of year, mid march. I was a couple of months sober for my anniversary so still keen, by Christmas and new year I will have too much time under my belt to want to spoil things, and by the time I hit my 50th in February, I will be too close to my year to be tempted. Well that's the theory anyway!!!

Tanja, your support here is always so staunch. I'm so glad you didn't leave us when you reached your year!
Well guys, looks like everyone else is struggling to find the new thread, ( teach them not to have SR sat navs!) so I wish you all a sober Friday as you make plans for your weekends. I will catch up with you all later xx

ctrl

Good morning undies!

Dotty, you help me remember that i can make it through tough times.

Toots, I was thinking the same thing re: time of year, except I only have 13 days in. I love the holidays so much and I look forward to experiencing sober for the first time in years.