mfanch

I thought it was a fleeting feeling, but 2 months later I still have it and it's stronger than ever. I'm not talking about pink cloud (BTDT)....but something else. Maybe some can relate.

I am actually grateful that I was taken down by addiction. I could never have imagined how my life turned out. Before I got sober, if I would have made a list of all the things I wanted or thought I needed, I would have woefully sold myself short.

I look at all that I "lost"....career doing anesthesia, nice car/house/vacations/kudos, and yes, I used to miss them terribly and even mourn them, but I don't anymore.

I made a decision and that decision led me through the Steps to a psychic change/spiritual awakening and a life beyond my dreams. I say beyond because I never could have concocted it. In the beginning of my sobriety, I told my sponsor I wanted happiness, whatever that entailed. Now I am useful. I am an agent of a higher purpose...to be of service to my fellow man....and I am showered with serenity, grace, and happiness in return.

I never thought it would happen to me...just never thought. I am so glad that I became an addict. I am reading my own post and it sounds crazy. So be it. Addiction led me to the the door of my redemption.

Thanks for reading.

mfanch

CarolD

Inspiring share ...thanks for letting us know you found the joy!

Sobersunshine

Thanks for the post. Someone said something very similar at my AA meeting tonight. Powerful stuff.

instant

Thank you for the great post.

MsPINKAcres

I shared once in a meeting that I was grateful for the Addicts/alcoholics in my life - for because of them - I sought recovery for myself!!

A newcomer talked to me after the meeting & said how strange and she couldn't imagine ever feeling that way -

Now 6 years later that "newcomer" shares her e, s, & H and says she is so very grateful for the wonderful A's that brought her into the rooms that gave her new life ~

gratitude - for me it is one of the cornerstones of my recovery

congrats to you on your recovery journey!

PINK HUGS

misskris

I am glad I became an addict too....weve pickled our brains with alcohol and our pickled minds remember what it was like to be a cucumber..and although we can never become a cucumber again...we can now become relish :-) Something a cucumber can never be. hehe