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Old 06-14-2012, 06:43 AM
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Completed My First 5th Step Last Night

I'm sure there will be many more in my future since I am still young and new to the program, but I have to say right now I feel like I am on top of the world. I was so nervous for weeks and weeks and finally yesterday morning I got on my knees and prayed for my 5th step to go smoothly and how god wished for it to go.

I met my sponsor at about 4:30 yesterday afternoon and we sat for about 2.5 hours and I just lost all fear and spewed out everything at her. Lol. I lost my voice twice from talking so much. It amazes me. I can't even talk to people normally but I just went right for it. No holding back. No more secrets.

Immediately after I was done I felt this great sense of peace and security. I felt like God was sitting right next to me holding my hand. And I expected this feeling to go away once I left her house but nope. God sat in the passenger seat of my car all the way home last night and we chatted friendly and open until I got to my apartment. Then he followed me inside and I laid on my couch and did the "quiet hour" that the big book mentioned. I re-read how it works to make sure I thoroughly did steps 1 through 5, and then I reflected on my 5th step. I do believe I did it as thoroughly as I could have.

I meditated for about 20-30 minutes before bed time and then I fell right asleep, so peacefully. i didn't move or wake all night long. And this morning that wonderful peaceful feeling is still with me. It feels truly AMAZING! I no longer feel trapped or fearful, because I know that God is right next to me at all times if I ask him to be.

I am not nervous at all about any of the upcoming steps. Amends I am looking forward to very much because almost all of them are family members and I desperately want to make it up to them.

Just wanted to share this with all of you, if you are struggling with this, please do not give up! It does work if you work very very hard for it!
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Old 06-14-2012, 10:47 AM
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Awesome to hear! And the 7th step is a prayer....

Lucky you! My 5th step took over 6 hours.

Relief is real.
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Old 06-14-2012, 10:50 AM
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Wonderful to read that flyerfan.
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Old 06-14-2012, 10:54 AM
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Originally Posted by sugarbear1 View Post
Awesome to hear! And the 7th step is a prayer....

Lucky you! My 5th step took over 6 hours.

Relief is real.

Oh my goodness I hope you took a break for food! Lol! I am sure I will have some more 4-5 steps later on down the road. I don't remember a lot of things from my childhood and then one day suddenly something strange will pop into my head and I'll need to tell someone about it. lol
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Old 06-14-2012, 11:13 AM
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An ongoing process! Regular inventory is crucial as we are always growing in our spirituality. Yes, my sponsor cooks well and treats me well. Honestly, by the 5th hour I was really wiped... Once homeless, this sponsor now makes way too much money, volunteers time, is happily married, and is genuinely humble and a wonderful soul to know. Always is smiling....(that really gets to people!)

I'm so happy for YOU. Keep moving along, first relief, then the real freedom and pink-cloud-that-can-last comes after the 9th step!
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Old 06-14-2012, 11:22 AM
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How exciteing for you....well done....
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Old 06-14-2012, 11:30 AM
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An ongoing process! Regular inventory is crucial as we are always growing in our spirituality. Yes, my sponsor cooks well and treats me well. Honestly, by the 5th hour I was really wiped... Once homeless, this sponsor now makes way too much money, volunteers time, is happily married, and is genuinely humble and a wonderful soul to know. Always is smiling....(that really gets to people!)

I'm so happy for YOU. Keep moving along, first relief, then the real freedom and pink-cloud-that-can-last comes after the 9th step!
Yes I am so ready to plow right through the rest of the steps. I know I will be doing them for the rest of my life but since this is my first time through I am so eager to do them and do them the right way. I want to learn all that I can about the program from anyone who is willing to teach.
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Old 06-16-2012, 11:26 AM
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That was beautiful to read FlyerFan...Made my day.

We pocket our pride and go to it, illuminating every twist of character, every dark cranny of the past. Once we have taken this step, withholding nothing, we are delighted. We can look the world in the eye. We can be alone at perfect peace and ease. Our fears fall from us. We begin to feel the nearness of our Creator. We may have had certain spiritual beliefs, but now we begin to have a spiritual experience. The feeling that the drink problem has disappeared will often come strongly. We feel we are on the Broad Highway, walking hand in hand with the Spirit of the Universe.

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Sounds like you passed with flying colors!
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Old 06-17-2012, 05:17 PM
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It's like, ever since that moment after I finished talking with my sponsor, I have just felt like a brand new person. I am at east, at peace and nothing can hurt me anymore. God is with me all the time now.
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Old 06-17-2012, 05:23 PM
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It's a beautiful thing.....walking hand in hand with the Spirit of the Universe.
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Old 06-18-2012, 05:49 AM
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It's a beautiful thing.....walking hand in hand with the Spirit of the Universe.
Indeed it is
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Old 11-20-2012, 12:43 PM
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Wow well done you. Words cannot really describe it.
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Old 11-20-2012, 03:51 PM
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Wow well done you. Words cannot really describe it.
Yeah, I first posted this back in June actually. Boy that seems so far away now. lol. Still rolling forward. working with others now is great.
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Old 11-20-2012, 05:00 PM
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That's really awesome. Good work!!!
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