hope911

Are you tired of feeling pissed off? Do you wish you could feel something other than being pissed off? Do you wish you could cry, be happy, sad **** even be giddy or just smile cause life is good?? God knows I do.... I'm trying to make changes in my life to be that. I'm trying to work the steps but I keep getting in the way of myself. I figure if I keep taking my butt to meetings, and work the 5 suggestions. I'm working on it, but I have no patience. I am a addict, I'm use to having it when I want it and where I want it. But I am trying so hard to change my whole thought process.

Dear Higher Power, Please hear my prayers!!!
Please take over the drivers seat, I can't do this by myself. Please show me the light. Show me how to be sober, how to be a better person and how to be happy again without the use of drugs and alcohol..

NYCDoglvr

Hope .... I relate to you completely. I don't know how long you've been sober but during the first few years I was angry constantly and just felt generally lousy. What helped in the short term was increasing meetings to one/day for 90 days. And talking to others with less time than I have. When I went to a doctor and learned I'm suffering from depression medication helped enormously.

I don't know how it works, but whenever I take action to really heal and change, I get the help I need. What doesn't work is just sitting at home trying to think myself better....