finaltime

3:48 am here in China, wide awake again. At least I am sober!! I will be up all night if it's what my body has to do to not put another pill in my mouth! Crazy how at work today in a meeting I was offered an altoid. The box was so full of these little white nicely percocet looking mints. Lol. For a brief moment I wished they were mine and were my special x friends. I will do this. Tired of being a slave to something so not okay in so many ways!