thiskidknows

i hate depression. i hate it i hate it i hate it. i hate bpd i hate labels. i hate me. nothing i do is write. i m being punished for a crime that i been told isnt my crime so why am i being punished. satans child they called me. they hurt me and i pay the price then and now. i reach out i talked to samariatans tonight. just one word on a lorry today triggered me. i was there. i was 8 years old and it was happening again. it was happening and wouldn't stop. one word. and i'm there. there is no release from the demons. there is no release from me. i will always be satans child. i will burn in hell. i hate life so much right now not one part of it is going right. u need not reply. i just need someone safe to write as there is nowhere safe in this world.

Stevie1

It sounds like you are dealing with some heavy duty ****.

((hug))

tlc21

In cases like that , when I'm feeling the same, I use to say 'feelings are not facts' , everything will be ok..it use to calm me down..

hugs

Presstoe

I've also suffered from trauma and have been reduced to mush in an instant by a single comment, then I feel like a tiny scared child. "bpd"? Are you referring to borderline or bipolar? I have been on and off considered both. I think I know how you're feeling, at least your frustration and anger. Write more if it's helping, you're safe here.