roxieB

I'm new here and haven't posted that much. After posting here I admitted to a friend I was feeling suicidal and was admitted to a good hospital in NYC. They kept me two weeks (and I believe would've kept me longer if not for rotten insurance). I haven't felt safe like that in a long time. I actually wish I was still there. It wasn't the nightmare I'd seen in movies. Just having someone take care of my meals was incredible. I believe my addiction came as a result of my depression (I was dysthymic and now have major depression and panic disorders).

Long story short, please get help any way you can. I only wish I had done this years ago. I'm now on a new med (about five days) but the drs. said they already see a difference. Some days are rougher than others but the hospital showed me that I'm not alone. That's it...take care everybody.

Bamboozle

Welcome back, roxieB. I am so glad you got help and you are feeling better.

Dee74

Welcome back roxieB

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roxieB

Thanks everyone! I feel myself coming back more and more. It's been a few weeks since I got my meds tweaked and I barely recognize the person I was before. I never even put self-medicating together with depression and I'm supposed to be all smarty pants, LOL. I am still dealing with pain issues but while in the hospital they found alternatives for me as well (naproxen and ultram vs. heavy opiates).

Everyone offers great advice, and I wanted to offer some of my own:
1) ask for help
2) you are only human & no man is an island
3) find a safe place (whatever you consider safe) and STAY there till you can find support
4) Be good to yourself. Eat regularly, try to sleep regularly, and stay active

ttyl! RoxieB