bars

I have struggled with lots of alcohol and drug addiction over the last 15 years and I have been able to walk away from certain substances yet others have a real hold on me.

Today, pot seems to be my last huge vice to get over. My main DOC is xanax and I struggle with my recovery from these pills. For some reason I have a very hard time not smoking any pot. I guess another DOC of mine is also pot then too...

When I was in treatment for xanax the doctor told me there is nothing i can do to help me quit smoking pot except quit smoking pot.

I keep telling myself today will be the last day I smoke and then tomorrow will come, I get terrified of being sober, and I cave.

There have been times when I would make it almost a complete 24 hours without smoking and then give in during the last hour.

I know I can beat this but I just can't believe how something like pot can have such a strong hold on me.

any advice?

Dee74

Hi Bars
welcome to SR

Glad to see you found the other thread on this

Without repeating myself too much - I just up and quit. It was hard in some ways but nowhere near as hard as giving up alcohol was for me later on.

You'll find a lot of support here. I know it's scary but it helps to have people around you who understand.

You can do this

D

johndelko408

I can totally relate. When I first decided to get into recovery I was doing it halfassed. I was willing to stop drinking but not willing to stop smoking bud. I continued to smoke everyday but not drink. I'd go to meetings and stand up and introduce myself and say I've been sober for X amount of days, when in reality I would smoke some trees before i left the house to go to the meeting (aa). It eventually led me back to drinking because trees don't really allow me to escape reality. When I smoked it made me what I like to call normal. By this I mean that I was always loaded, when I wasn't it was an abnormal feeling for me. Not only lead me back to alcohol, but the last time I drank, I drank myself into a blackout. I woke up at the next day at a friends out of town and also learned that I snorted a little more than 2.5 grams of coke that night in a period of no longer than 3 hours. Mind you I hadn't coke in years. I only way about 140lbs. Doing that much powder in that short time, I'm very lucky to be alive.

windysan

Don't smoke the Devil's Lettuce !!!

Ainslie

Hi Bars - I responded to your other post on 'any recovering potheads out there'

The beauty of SR is that there is always someone online to talk to - and with Dee and I being recovering potheads - we're usually both online at times where your american counterparts may not be - so feel free to send us a PM if youre struggling and dont feel like posting an actual thread. I bug Dee heaps, aye Dee

Dee74

D

bars

so happy for all of your responses. this site is great. i have been reading more than i have been posting but posting here makes me feel better than i do sharing at meetings. i have a hard time talking about my feelings but typing is much easier.

i mean it's not even fun for me anymore...

dreamscape

Someone shared at a NA meeting a week or so ago, and said that we can't go over problems or around them, we have to go thru them.

This is something I've been thinking about a fair bit lately.
I've been where your at many times, terrified to face life un-numbed. ......... but come on in, the waters fine!
Not near as bad as it seems

lulu70

Hey Bars--I just finished a big, long post on the other thread and have to hit the hay so I can be up for my wonderful job tomorrow, but wanted to let you know we're here for you! SR is a great place. Whenever you feel like lighting up, post here instead. It will really help!!!

Hang in there and keep letting us know how it's going!

SereniTee

Hey Bars,

My DOC was weed although I quickley progressed to Benzos and Alcohol dependance. An addict is an addict and I stuggled terribly trying to stop smoking. I am 6 months clean now and it was the last thing I quit, and slipped back with many times. Don't beat yourself up too much I know how alluring it can be. Keep going! I feel SO much better now I am used to being sober

endlesspatience

I smoked pot pretty much every day for about a year and then just decided to stop. I think the main reason was the fear of arrest. But I don't have any craving to go back to it, even before concerts or other special occassions. I have found it much harder to quit booze, mainly because it's so cheap and easily available.