Silience Was The Best Way To Cope...
Silience Was The Best Way To Cope...
Growing up the youngest of four in an alcoholic home wasnt any fun. Today as a 43 year old man Im really feeling the after effects of an abusive household. Im trying my best to stay away from blaming, Im also understanding that Isolation and silience was the best way to cope with the madness and violence.but today Im stepping out back into life. Trying to trust and feel my feelings....I no longer have to be afraid and hide. I can feel again and not deny what Ive been through...Today its okay to speak up and be counted as a human with faults. God help me with these imperfections....
I remember those times. I always hid somewhere. I lived in fear of everything. Some of those fears became reality. By the grace of God, I am still alive. I am always trying to find ways to cope and find peace. For the most part I can. I do have rough patches and that's when I come here.
Growing up with the most hateful spiteful mother who still to this day at 80 yrs old, continues to belittle me. I limit my contact.
I hope you find comfort here. I sure do.
Growing up with the most hateful spiteful mother who still to this day at 80 yrs old, continues to belittle me. I limit my contact.
I hope you find comfort here. I sure do.
God help me with these imperfections
I have to say it out loud because it doesn't carry as much weight if I only say it in my head. And if you really try to visualize a truly "perfect" person, wouldn't they be really creepy? They'd be a little too Stepford Wives I think.
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Growing up the youngest of four in an alcoholic home wasnt any fun. Today as a 43 year old man Im really feeling the after effects of an abusive household. Im trying my best to stay away from blaming, Im also understanding that Isolation and silience was the best way to cope with the madness and violence.but today Im stepping out back into life. Trying to trust and feel my feelings....I no longer have to be afraid and hide. I can feel again and not deny what Ive been through...Today its okay to speak up and be counted as a human with faults. God help me with these imperfections....
Isn't it amazing how it takes us years to realize what might be obvious to someone looking in from the outside. In my 40's, I'm just beginning to understand that it's obvious why I was introverted. As you say, silence and staying out of the way were safer. I, too, have had to learn to trust my gut and my feelings.
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