SpaceDementia

So, here I sit recovering from my car wreck, on day 3 of no pain meds. I've been in a wheelchair since the wreck due to both my legs being broken severely. Being that I have had two and a half months to heal, I was finally ok'd to start physical therapy. 4 days ago I started the therapy. It hurt, let me tell you. I discovered that I can't curl my toes, have virtually no calf muscle in either leg, my right knee might need more surgery in the future, and walking again isn't going to be as easy as I thought. As the therapist was making my muscles stretch and pretty much just torturing me, I was feeling a lot of pain. I realized that if I'm on 80mg of oxycodone a day and a 7.5 mcg/h fentanyl patch and still hurt than what's the point. What better time to kick the habit? I'm going crazy being confined to a freaking wheelchair. I lie in bed looking at all my scars and watching all the screws in my knees making my flesh poke out in various places.

I don't understand this. Day 1 was horrible. Yesterday was worse. Today I'm feeling better. Makes no sense. I should still be really dope sick but, for whatever reason, I'm not. Sure, I'm not 100% better