Hi all, what's going on.
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Hi all, what's going on.
Hi all just checking in with my usual report and to see how you all are. Wanted to say congrats to all the people who have stayed sober too. As for me, well I've had my issues, down to 50mg of Lamictal.
Something that rings in my mind lately however... I'm almost 23 years old... not much accomplished, life is in like shambles... don't know much or enough to survive about the world... how will I ever be able to live happily with such insecurity? I can only pray the medication/booze getting off it will help me get myself back together!
Something that rings in my mind lately however... I'm almost 23 years old... not much accomplished, life is in like shambles... don't know much or enough to survive about the world... how will I ever be able to live happily with such insecurity? I can only pray the medication/booze getting off it will help me get myself back together!
Hi all just checking in with my usual report and to see how you all are. Wanted to say congrats to all the people who have stayed sober too. As for me, well I've had my issues, down to 50mg of Lamictal.
Something that rings in my mind lately however... I'm almost 23 years old... not much accomplished, life is in like shambles... don't know much or enough to survive about the world... how will I ever be able to live happily with such insecurity? I can only pray the medication/booze getting off it will help me get myself back together!
Something that rings in my mind lately however... I'm almost 23 years old... not much accomplished, life is in like shambles... don't know much or enough to survive about the world... how will I ever be able to live happily with such insecurity? I can only pray the medication/booze getting off it will help me get myself back together!
PAULOS
This has been bugging me for a while:
"Make a joke and I will sigh, and you will laugh, and I will cry. Happiness I can not feel, and love to me is so unreal."-Loony from Rings of Power
The lyric is Black Sabbath "Paranoid". I recognized it for the longest time but couldn't place it, looked it up.
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And while there are still times when I feel a little insecure, I like to think that my humility keeps me peaceful and serene.
Paulos Don't worry Buddy in this road all we need to
know is what are we Doing to get better then the
rest will be reveal it's good that you are sking
that means that you want to make it you still have dreams
don't let our present conditions define our future
just keep following instructions and trusting the Process
you'll be alright and even when you can fallow
the Yellow Brick Road,your going to make it to Kansas city
if you didn't understand what I said I was trying
to make you laugh I love that movie of the Wizard of UZ
what I'm trying to say is take your medication as prescribe
and see your doctor, and if your seen a psychiatry see
him too, and just be still, I know you don't want to make
meetings I could respect that, but to be Honest it
will make a world of Difference if you Gave it a chance
Isolation is our worst enemies, thats what the Disease
wants Paulos it wants to Isolate you the Disease of Addiction
I made my first meeting yesterday, and the fear and the
compulsiveness and obsession lift it off.
I feel like a Free Spirit, Butterflys are meant to Fly
and I'm Flying, you cloud too Paulos Give it a try
God Bless Buddy I'll be:praying
know is what are we Doing to get better then the
rest will be reveal it's good that you are sking
that means that you want to make it you still have dreams
don't let our present conditions define our future
just keep following instructions and trusting the Process
you'll be alright and even when you can fallow
the Yellow Brick Road,your going to make it to Kansas city
if you didn't understand what I said I was trying
to make you laugh I love that movie of the Wizard of UZ
what I'm trying to say is take your medication as prescribe
and see your doctor, and if your seen a psychiatry see
him too, and just be still, I know you don't want to make
meetings I could respect that, but to be Honest it
will make a world of Difference if you Gave it a chance
Isolation is our worst enemies, thats what the Disease
wants Paulos it wants to Isolate you the Disease of Addiction
I made my first meeting yesterday, and the fear and the
compulsiveness and obsession lift it off.
I feel like a Free Spirit, Butterflys are meant to Fly
and I'm Flying, you cloud too Paulos Give it a try
God Bless Buddy I'll be:praying
Paulos has made it clear he's not interested in AA.
Paulos,
I'm 52 years old. I haven't accomplished much in my life either. I've got a degree and I teach history. I've got a son. I own my home -- along with the bank, that is, lol! And that's about it.
What is it you'd *like* to accomplish? What would your ideal world look like?
Lay it out for us. Tell us what it is you'd like to do. I know I'd love to hear about it.
Shalom!
Paulos,
I'm 52 years old. I haven't accomplished much in my life either. I've got a degree and I teach history. I've got a son. I own my home -- along with the bank, that is, lol! And that's about it.
What is it you'd *like* to accomplish? What would your ideal world look like?
Lay it out for us. Tell us what it is you'd like to do. I know I'd love to hear about it.
Shalom!
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I guess I just want to be sure I'll survive in life, be able to enjoy the things I once did again, ... hm I wish I had never picked up a drink in the first place 3 years ago... but that's something I've accepted and am living one day at a time with... Day 10 btw all
Keep it up!
You're right, Paulos; we can't change the past.
We can only determine that which is to come by the choices we make.
So, keep on making those good ones, Paulos!
Cuz, we're rooting for ya!
Shalom!
You're right, Paulos; we can't change the past.
We can only determine that which is to come by the choices we make.
So, keep on making those good ones, Paulos!
Cuz, we're rooting for ya!
Shalom!
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Hmm okay I'll try that Rowan, I just want them to go away... it's horrible stuff and makes me feel like I never had self confidence in my life. Yeah all I do is make good choices teach, but I keep worrying about the bad possible ones... thanks Suki I'm now on Day 11, and I won't mess up again... I know better, a lot better now.
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Paulos, I wanted to know those same things just over 3 years ago. I'm still here, kickin' & screamin' & enjoying life to the fullest. Trust me, you'll survive and you'll probably enjoy those things even more. There are rooms full of people in recovery that prove it!
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