Difference between night and darkness.
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Difference between night and darkness.
During the terrible feelings, thoughts, and fears of panic/anxiety, there seems darkness.
Even in the brightness of the noonday, there seems darkness.
Even when the anxiety comes at night,........things look and feel,...........dark, cold, gloomy, and full of dispair.
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During the joys of being panic and anxiety free, even the night seems pleasant.
During the joys of being panic and anxiety free, the nights reveal the beauty of the heavens, the stars, even the lights shining around the city from a distance..........are nice to behold.
When there is no panic or anxiety, the nights are filled with peace,... calm,... warm,... cozy, and comfortable pangs of euphoria even in the coldest weather.
In the absence of fear and anxiety, nights are a joyous end to a bright, shiny day.
Then comes the peaceful, restful nights sleep. To wake up to another bright shiny day.
May all of us who struggle to cope with this condition, experience the joys of being free from fear and anxiety.
May more of our nights be removed........from darkness.
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Even in the brightness of the noonday, there seems darkness.
Even when the anxiety comes at night,........things look and feel,...........dark, cold, gloomy, and full of dispair.
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During the joys of being panic and anxiety free, even the night seems pleasant.
During the joys of being panic and anxiety free, the nights reveal the beauty of the heavens, the stars, even the lights shining around the city from a distance..........are nice to behold.
When there is no panic or anxiety, the nights are filled with peace,... calm,... warm,... cozy, and comfortable pangs of euphoria even in the coldest weather.
In the absence of fear and anxiety, nights are a joyous end to a bright, shiny day.
Then comes the peaceful, restful nights sleep. To wake up to another bright shiny day.
May all of us who struggle to cope with this condition, experience the joys of being free from fear and anxiety.
May more of our nights be removed........from darkness.
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That was right on. I have not posted here yet as I began on this site due to a pill addiction. But I do believe alot my addictions were self medicating depression and anxiety.
I have suffered severe panic attacks my whole life and had very severe agoraphobia as a child that created a ton of problems for me. Life is so scary and dark when you are panicing all the time. God how I know.
That was good and I resonated with it. Thanks.
I have suffered severe panic attacks my whole life and had very severe agoraphobia as a child that created a ton of problems for me. Life is so scary and dark when you are panicing all the time. God how I know.
That was good and I resonated with it. Thanks.
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Yes, well put, Intro.
Welcome, Dragonfly. My drinking problem was also a response to anxiety. When I quit drinking the anxiety got worse, so I started seeing a therapist. That helped immensely, and as the anxiety has gotten better the urge to drink has subsided. I think a lot of us here on the anxiety board probably got into substance abuse for self medication.
Welcome, Dragonfly. My drinking problem was also a response to anxiety. When I quit drinking the anxiety got worse, so I started seeing a therapist. That helped immensely, and as the anxiety has gotten better the urge to drink has subsided. I think a lot of us here on the anxiety board probably got into substance abuse for self medication.
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Intro,
Your beautiful description reminded me of one of my favorite poems by John Keats:
"Darkling I listen; and for many a time
I have been half in love with easeful Death,
Called him soft names in many a mused rhyme,
To take into the air my quiet breath;
Now more than ever seems it rich to die,
To cease upon the midnight with no pain,
While thou art pouring forth thy soul abroad
In such an ecstasy!
Still wouldst thou sing, and I have ears in vain -
To thy high requiem become a sod."
Enjoy. To me, "easeful Death" means sleep, being free from anxiety
and "cease upon the midnight with no pain" is being free.
Love and light,
Your beautiful description reminded me of one of my favorite poems by John Keats:
"Darkling I listen; and for many a time
I have been half in love with easeful Death,
Called him soft names in many a mused rhyme,
To take into the air my quiet breath;
Now more than ever seems it rich to die,
To cease upon the midnight with no pain,
While thou art pouring forth thy soul abroad
In such an ecstasy!
Still wouldst thou sing, and I have ears in vain -
To thy high requiem become a sod."
Enjoy. To me, "easeful Death" means sleep, being free from anxiety
and "cease upon the midnight with no pain" is being free.
Love and light,
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Thanks all,
I used to loathe the night.
Its scary shadows of darkness descended upon me like a blanket.
No longer do I fear the night. In the absence of anxiety, I welcome it like an embrace.
Looking at the moon, stars, and lights of the city from a distance is no longer dreadful. Its exciting and fun, like a fireworks display.
My hope is the same for you all here.
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I used to loathe the night.
Its scary shadows of darkness descended upon me like a blanket.
No longer do I fear the night. In the absence of anxiety, I welcome it like an embrace.
Looking at the moon, stars, and lights of the city from a distance is no longer dreadful. Its exciting and fun, like a fireworks display.
My hope is the same for you all here.
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I've always been the opposite. I've always loved the night and hated the morning. When I was drinking I loved the night because liquor drowned the anxiety, and hated the morning because the anxiety came back with a vengeance. Now I love the night because I know it will end with sleep and I hate the morning because I don't know what the new day will bring. I love sleep and fear the unknown. But I'm improving. My mornings aren't nearly as bad now as they were just a few weeks ago.
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Hi scar,
I totally agree about seeing a therapist. Luckily my dad had the sense to send me to one when I was only ten because my anxiety was so bad. I wouldn't even go to school. I saw her until I was 12 and she did teach me many lessons I carried with me. Unfortunately I quit seeing her at my worst of times and then I got right into drugs. All these years later it is she I was able to go back to for help etting sober.
It is SO helpful to see a therapist.
I totally agree about seeing a therapist. Luckily my dad had the sense to send me to one when I was only ten because my anxiety was so bad. I wouldn't even go to school. I saw her until I was 12 and she did teach me many lessons I carried with me. Unfortunately I quit seeing her at my worst of times and then I got right into drugs. All these years later it is she I was able to go back to for help etting sober.
It is SO helpful to see a therapist.
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