GailJ

Sorry I havn't been on lately and have done a lot of soul searchingand reflection in the last while, have been staying sober. :*****
Off the Effexors, last week was hell with the head zaps and dizziness on top of the pain meds for putting my back out. No worse than having to adjust to them in the first place though...
Back in good shape now though, even getting on good with hubby. Took stock of things I really needed to accept that I could not change with myself, from past circumstances and the present actions from others in my life.

I missed you all, will keep you posted and read through some of your threads tommorow. Just a quick visit before bed tonight. Hoping your all coping well.:ghug:

Introvrtd1

Hey Gail,

Glad to hear ur doing better.

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Lilya

Hi Gail,

Congratulations for staying sober!

Glad to hear you´re better. You see? Things change and you´re already feeling better.

Love and light,

GailJ

Blew It..............Damned

Introvrtd1

So what........we understand.

Dont be too hard on yourself. I know the feelin well.

One day at a time.

Keep reading, posting, and try to carry on.

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Lilya

Keep going, Gail.

Sobriety comes when you and only you are ready.

Don´t worry too much about it. But that´s what is so great about sobriety; when it comes and is there to stay, there is really no looking back.

You wouldn´t want it.

I know I´ve said in anger or under extreme stress that I wished I could "do drugs and drink again," but that is usually over in a day.

I would not want to change it, no matter what, because it was a profound life change and everything which is good about my life has evolved since the day I stopped completely.

When someone at an AA meeting says "I blew it," it is also a blessing for me, because it reminds me of my own experience and where I come from.

Don´t worry. It will come.

Love and light,

GailJ

Thanks guys and good morning....

Off work today as reinjured my back yesterdy. So I'll be checking in often.

Thanks for the replies, both of you are right and I appreciate you honesty.

I appreciate that we can talk openly and honestly about it here.

I'll try hard not to bemoan about my homelife and what triggers me to drink but at least now I know what it is that triggers me to cave in to the binge.

Today is a sober day:morning

GailJ

Found one of my long lost British cyber friends this week. Hope she comes here to post.
She went through EMDR and I would like her to share the experience and it's effectiveness or ineffectieness with us here

GailJ

Holly Molly, daylight is here and the ground outside is white. I guess winter has arrived. Taking my camera out today.

GailJ

Live

I dreamed that it snowed here in Florida the other night. I so miss the seasons!

GailJ

Made it through the company christmas party, sober and anxiety free.

Spiritual Seeker

I just P M 'd you about effexor as I would greatly apprec. your experience with that medication.
Beautiful pictures.

hippyhippy

Hey hun!
Sorry I not been in much. I have had a few weeks of hell but I am back on the up. I haven't forgotten you and I do hope you are ok. I am doing not too bad with the 'wagon' except I slipped and had one glass of wine but that is one glass in four weeks.
I really think I am on the wagon now as I have had such a scary time I am frightened to go down again so giving my stabilisers all the help they need.
Hope you post and let me know how you are.
Hippy
xxx

GailJ

Just saying Hi, very busy week will post more this weekend. Hope all are coping and healing. Be well.

GailJ

Did't make it this weekend without non sobriety.

yes cruelty triggered me. yes my fault for not being strong enough. My b-day this coming saturday. last weekend off till new year. working hard and alone again. No meds. just me.

Lilya

Hi Gail,

We are all here for you. :comfort

Keep going, don´t give up hope and keep us posted.

Love and light,

hippyhippy

Gail hun
that wagon is so bloody hard to stay on eh? I had two beers last night too. I think I am strong but it is a hard habit to break hun. Don't give up and neither will I
Thinking of you sunshine.
Hippy

Introvrtd1

Happy Birthday Gail!

Presents of peace and comfort to you.

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GailJ

Thanks fo your support. Even though I feel, hubby liberately provoked me to the point of drinking Friday. It is my fault that I did cave in. Back on the wagon again.