thiskidknows

Can depression and alcholism be "treated" together? Today, I couldn't get out bed..just laying there listening to the silence of the world followed by flashbacks which have left me numb, I have drink in the house but I didn't even want it just the thought of a drink made me feel sick, and also knowing that if I have a drink I won't stop, I sat they today, counting out the pills, a cocktail of drugs, no packages left in the house just a brown medicine bottle with the label off, I resisted taken them as I lay in bed and had flashback after flashback, seeing he's face laughing at me, I resisted the tablets, I can't afford to drink cause I know that i will get in a state and my consioucious that's keeping me alive will disappear. The reason I'm posting, is because i'm starting to feel the urge for a drink, its nite time here...my mood hasn't lifted and today has been wasted with me in bed (just laying there) I'm now starting to think a drink would lift my mood, would allow me to go out and be with people, without a drink I can't socialise...but its dangerous time and I know the first drink will kill me.

Please how do fight the urges not to drink when u want to lift ur mood, how else can u lift ur mood so u can interact with ppl without a panic, or anxiety attack hitting.

Thank you for reading.

lost xxx (still soul searching)

cali

(((Lost)))
I don't know if you have ever been to a meeting-AA or NA? I have a sister that suffers from bipolar. She hasn't had a drink in 4 years but doesn't go to meetings. I think she has resisted going because she thinks she may feel "alienated" because of her bipolar. She came to me about a week ago and said "I can't stop the cravings for alcohol I think about it all the time-I need help--I think I need to go to AA".

She went to a meeting THAT DAY and has been going ever since. I told her all along that there are tons of people at meetings that have an understanding of mental illnesses and other problems that they may be able to really help with! I also suggested that when she go, to let it be known to the group that she is new and needs help. My sister told me that she has found tremendous support and has been to a meeting everyday since. I get updates via cell and e-mail. Always somewhere in her message is “I can’t believe I waited so long-this is life changing”.

“There are those, too, who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders, but many of them do recover if they have the capacity to be honest”
How It works-Big Book~Alcoholics Anonymous

Astro

Since Feb. 21, 2005 when I've felt the urge to drink and need something to lift my mood I've attended an AA meeting. I figure somewhere around 850 meetings or more since some days I attend more than one. In early sobriety I was prescribed an SRI to help with the anxiety attacks, but most days I rely on and have faith in a higher power to relieve me of the obsession to drink.

Lost, you can do this but you've got to be willing to do whatever it takes, to follow instructions, to listen to suggestions. It won't happen if you're isolating in your home, laying in bed.

(((hugs)))

Astro

cali, that is awesome, God I love hearing stories like that. Miracles really do happen in sobriety if we open our hearts and do the work.

thiskidknows

I've not been to an AA or NA meeting, I would feel alienated, I feel that people would stare at me, and that I would be like the hulk and stand out, I know mentally I wouldn't because I'm the same as everyone else. I also have a massive phobia about mixing with people, espcially without a drink. I start shaking and have a panic attack. I will be seeing someone in 3 months about my drinking, self harming and panic attacks, it will be one on one. I wish I had the confidence to go even if just once, if I could just get to the door, would be an achievement for me.

I have started to isolate myself from the world, today was the first time I've layed in bed all day and ignored my phoned from text messages..I just had to get thru it, I am willing to change, I have to change and I'm willing to take orders, what ever it takes I just want a life, not to keep existing in a world, but live in a world.

Astro

You are? Then go to a meeting tonight or first thing tomorrow instead of laying in bed.

What are you going to do for the next 3 months? Hole up in your house and post on SR? I had to wait a couple months to see a therapist too, the only way I was able to cope with the panic and anxiety was to go to AA meetings and find the comfort and peace that's become my way of life in sobriety.

thiskidknows

I can't go to one 2nite, it started at 21:00 so its too late, I have counselling at 10:30 in the morning so I will see if there's one after that, well probably the afternoon cause counselling leaves me feelin drained. I probably would sit in doors all day doing nothing, disappear from the world, that's what I feel like doing but I know it won't do me anygood. I don't know what to expect at an AA meeting, I don't have to speak do I, I won't have to say who I am, can I hide in the back without questions so I can get used to the surroundings or will I have to speak and mix? sorry I just get real nervous and cant deal with things if I don't know what to expect..guess that's my anixety.

Live

You don't have to say a word. You can just sit and watch and listen.

Astro

You dont have to do anything if you don't want to. Just listen for the similarities, and try to leave with the message of hope in recovery. I tried to hide for a long time, but found that I wanted what everyone else in sobriety had, happiness.

karrotop

hi....I drank when i was depressed....and the alchohol made me more depressed...so,i think alchoholism and depression go hand in hand....For me,the depression subsided when i quit drinking.......
still dealing with anxiety,feelings of worthlessness,amongst other things,but,thank God,I don't cry myself to sleep everynight or look for telephone poles to run my car into every morning on my way to work!
Alchohol is a depressant!