Update...

[SkyIsFalling42]

I hope that my family here has been well? 2stop..girl..how are you?
I have been having a rough go of it but am still moving. Last week was the trial for the man involved in the death of my cousin. I sat through a whole day and a half of testimony before the jury. The jury found him not guility on all counts. He was allowed to take the stand, which I felt was unfair simply because Connie was not here to do the same on her own behalf. This through me for a loop, as being confronted by the effects of the drugs and alcohol always does. They concentrated on the day before and the day of her death. All who testified admitted that they were drunk on the stand. There were 2 defense attorneys and one prosecutor. It is so very hard for me not to hate this alcohol and drug entity..I do not want to hate anything..but cannot help myself most times. It just always seems to ooze before and after me..continually marking my life with its prescense. Uninvited.
I have been going to group at the halfway house where my oldest daughter is staying every thursday. It is draining emotionally for me. But I love this opportunity. We are going to go to 6 more alanon meetings together, we have been to one together. She was denied her first pass out after 30 days..she is having trouble doing what is asked of her. She is 2 months clean.
We have not addressed the issues of her children, the house manager felt those issues need to be addressed with my daughters counselor. we have an appointment for the last Friday of this month.
My son is 19 and is living on his own in a room he is renting. He has a budget and is doing sooooo very well, I am so proud of him. He spends the night with us every saturday night.
I will be going for my vocational evaluation soon, and am very excited at the prospect of being back to work. Our family rights group is working on moving into the county in which I want to see change in. we have not had a meeting place..we will not meet for one more saturday.
I joined many others on the many different message boards dedicated to systematic change in the child protection structure. we sent in what we call a Baca Book to a senator who is willing to present our stories and family injustices to the house. I mailed out a very well structured complaint against the psychologist who "works" with the agency, and who tried to ruin my hard earned lifes work in myself and children. My complaint was sent with attachments of past work evaluations, and letters of reference from some different sources.
All in all I am doing good..and feeling sooo great that I am actually able to move at a good pace at times in my life.

[51anna]

Hi Sky,

It's so good to see you here!!

I'm sorry about the way the trial for your cousin turned out. It so often seems that criminals have more rights than victims and there seem to be an endless number of technicalities that they can get off on. You just need to trust in karma. Everyone will get back what they put out there.

I'm glad to hear about your son being on his own. That's great news. And there is some good progress with your daughter too. And, you just keep on working on the child protection rights. That's where your heart is and I know you can make significant change with all your hard work.

I hope you show up here more often!!

Hugs and love,
Anna

[2stop]

SKY!!!!!!!!!!bless you girl..I have missed you, but knew in my heart you were doing alright..You are so amazing, really you are my sis. Every time I go out to watch the stars..I wish for you the best life has to offer and peace and happiness like never before. Good for your son! Bless him. Give him a hug for me! Some progress with yoru daughter..that's good, but I can only imagine the strain and the struggle. I am so sorry for your burdens dear Sky..but the gracious angel you are...you stand tall and strong and keep on moving on. I admire you Sky. truly I do. I am doing pretty good myself. Feeling more free than ever before. getting out more, doing more with the kids. Taking them rollerblading tonight! I am not going to rollerbalde yet..but hope to this summer. Well, check in when you can. You're always in my heart and prayers..love you!

[Chy]

Hi and hugs Sky and belated happy Birthday! !

It's good to hear from you Sky.

I'm sorry the trial didn't turn out the way it should have.

I know how it feels when they get away.

I'm glad things are looking up for you and your daugher. I hope she continues in her recovery. She is lucky to have you.

Hugs
MG