Fear of the fear of the fear=no sleep! - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

SkyIsFalling42 · 11-20-2003, 12:54 AM

Oh I wish I had some magic non addictive sleeping dust tonight! I am meeting the family advocate tomorrow at 10:00 am and we are going to the administration building to get some answers from childrens services.
Just walking into that place overwhelms me with memories! I am so afraid of not being able to breathe and having a panic attack!!
And I keep lighting another cigarrette to think about the breathing problem...what sense does that make?? UUGHHH!!

11-20-2003, 01:01 AM

Oh Sky. I do that every time I have to do something important in the morning. Try watching a TV program until you fall asleep.

A hot bath might help too.

Good luck tomorrow.

Hugs,
MG

SkyIsFalling42 · 11-20-2003, 01:06 AM

Thank you Morning Glory. Think I will try the TV. I have made the cats both so tired I think they will sleep all night now! All of their toys are all over the floor..and we had alot of chasing fun!

A lot of the pet mice no longer have their tails..poor things.
Now if i just had a way to wear me out!!

Have a good night.
And I thank you for the luck wish tomorrow, I know I need it!!

ShpGrl02 · 11-20-2003, 06:50 AM

Hi Sky,

Are you O.K. so far this morning? I hope all goes well.

Take Care,

Anita

2stop · 11-20-2003, 06:54 AM

Hey sis....

Here's my hand,
hold it tight,
I will be beside you
for the fight,
and we'll keep
on walking
til we're in
the light.

Love ya Sky,(((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))
:bluerose

ladyofdreams · 11-20-2003, 07:16 AM

{{{{{{{{Sky))))))))))),

I'm standing right next to 2stop.
My hands, heart and faith are with you now.

Easy does it.
But know that you are not alone.

Much luck and love to you today ((((((Sister in Light and Spirit)))))

Love you girl,
EL

***51anna*** · 11-20-2003, 07:32 AM

Sky, I will be walking into the admin building along with you today. My fingers and toes are crossed that you get the help and info that you need. Let us know how it goes.

Hugs and love,
Anna

11-20-2003, 10:52 AM

Saying a prayer for you this morning Sky.

Hugs,
MG

SkyIsFalling42 · 11-20-2003, 03:40 PM

Oh ladies!! We did excellent at the administration building today!! I felt your presence I am sure!! I could not have done it alone! I was so very scared of being scared!!
The family advocate, Roz, and daughter Jenna and me all went down there. We were told at the reception desk that we had to have an appointment with the director in order to see him. Roz asked where his office was, so we could make an appointment. Roz asked about a grievance proceedure and their manual. A supervisor came out and gave us the grievance info.
We then went down to find the director's office, and low and behold met him in the hallway. He was extrememly rude and arrogant to us!!!!! Made Roz very mad! OOhhh!! thought she would bite him!! Many passersby were stopping and hanging around to hear the squabble!! (And i did not pass out cause you all were holding me up!!) He said the kids are in my custody, are being taken care of, and what is your problem? He ignored the business card which she handed him and demanded that she tell him who she was!!! The exchanges were very heated and powerful!!
After this, we all jumped on Roz's broom and went to the 7th floor to speak to the county commissioners...we were very angry, to say the least!! I know all three democratic commissioners, as I have worked on all of their campaigns in the past. Especially when I ran headquarters in 1992. One of them was a treasurer then and the other one was running for office.
The commissioners asked if we would be willing to go on record with the complaint against the director, and jumped at the chance! So, then I found us sitting in the conference room, being recorded. (And I still did not pass out, I know everyones arms are getting sore now!!)
After about an hour of talking, the commissioners agreed to ask the state to come in and review my file!!!!!!! And to speed up the grievance and records requests that I had given them months ago. They did so after Roz explained what state regs and so forth that they were not in compliance with by ignoring my requests!!!
We left there and went back down to the second floor where we proceeded to all three get into another hallway battle with the agency's attorney!!! Oh! She was mean and nasty!! And had a lot of excuses and lies!!!! My daughter even got in on this one!! I think maybe she was trying to make us SO MAD that we would do something really foolish!! But we did not.
This all took most of the day!!! My head is still spinning from it all!! I cannot believe that we did as much as we did!! When I have went there on my own, I have got nowhere!!
I love you all so much in spirit, and truly thank God that He has allowed me have you all in my life!!

2stop · 11-20-2003, 04:08 PM

((((((((((((((((((Sky))))))))))))))))))))

You are a very courageous and committed lady. I am so proud to call you sis..........you are an angel!!

:bluerose :yellowros :redrose

SkyIsFalling42 · 11-20-2003, 04:29 PM

(((2stop)))

Just remember my sis, it takes one to know one!!

11-21-2003, 01:34 AM

Good for you Sky.

I'm so glad you had someone helping you fight this.

The system is screwed up.

Hugs,
MG

11-20-2003, 12:54 AM	#1 (permalink)
SkyIsFalling42 Big kitty nose hugs Join Date: May 2003 Location: Center of The World Posts: 1,261	Fear of the fear of the fear=no sleep! Oh I wish I had some magic non addictive sleeping dust tonight! I am meeting the family advocate tomorrow at 10:00 am and we are going to the administration building to get some answers from childrens services. Just walking into that place overwhelms me with memories! I am so afraid of not being able to breathe and having a panic attack!! And I keep lighting another cigarrette to think about the breathing problem...what sense does that make?? UUGHHH!! __________________ Love In Spirit, Sky Where my heart is....... http://Writing.Com/authors/skyisfalling02 "Never Give In, Never Give In, Never Give In, Never, Never, Never." ~~Sir Winston Churchill~~

11-20-2003, 01:06 AM	#3 (permalink)
SkyIsFalling42 Big kitty nose hugs Join Date: May 2003 Location: Center of The World Posts: 1,261	Thank you Morning Glory. Think I will try the TV. I have made the cats both so tired I think they will sleep all night now! All of their toys are all over the floor..and we had alot of chasing fun! A lot of the pet mice no longer have their tails..poor things. Now if i just had a way to wear me out!! Have a good night. And I thank you for the luck wish tomorrow, I know I need it!! __________________ Love In Spirit, Sky Where my heart is....... http://Writing.Com/authors/skyisfalling02 "Never Give In, Never Give In, Never Give In, Never, Never, Never." ~~Sir Winston Churchill~~

11-20-2003, 06:54 AM	#5 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	Hey sis.... Here's my hand, hold it tight, I will be beside you for the fight, and we'll keep on walking til we're in the light. Love ya Sky,(((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))) :bluerose __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-20-2003, 07:16 AM	#6 (permalink)
ladyofdreams Member Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Casting Circles to the Wind Posts: 175	{{{{{{{{Sky))))))))))), I'm standing right next to 2stop. My hands, heart and faith are with you now. Easy does it. But know that you are not alone. Much luck and love to you today ((((((Sister in Light and Spirit))))) Love you girl, EL __________________ Approach without Fear, You who know me in your Heart ____________________________ Blessed Be and {{Many Hugs}} ~Lady~

11-20-2003, 03:40 PM	#9 (permalink)
SkyIsFalling42 Big kitty nose hugs Join Date: May 2003 Location: Center of The World Posts: 1,261	Oh ladies!! We did excellent at the administration building today!! I felt your presence I am sure!! I could not have done it alone! I was so very scared of being scared!! The family advocate, Roz, and daughter Jenna and me all went down there. We were told at the reception desk that we had to have an appointment with the director in order to see him. Roz asked where his office was, so we could make an appointment. Roz asked about a grievance proceedure and their manual. A supervisor came out and gave us the grievance info. We then went down to find the director's office, and low and behold met him in the hallway. He was extrememly rude and arrogant to us!!!!! Made Roz very mad! OOhhh!! thought she would bite him!! Many passersby were stopping and hanging around to hear the squabble!! (And i did not pass out cause you all were holding me up!!) He said the kids are in my custody, are being taken care of, and what is your problem? He ignored the business card which she handed him and demanded that she tell him who she was!!! The exchanges were very heated and powerful!! After this, we all jumped on Roz's broom and went to the 7th floor to speak to the county commissioners...we were very angry, to say the least!! I know all three democratic commissioners, as I have worked on all of their campaigns in the past. Especially when I ran headquarters in 1992. One of them was a treasurer then and the other one was running for office. The commissioners asked if we would be willing to go on record with the complaint against the director, and jumped at the chance! So, then I found us sitting in the conference room, being recorded. (And I still did not pass out, I know everyones arms are getting sore now!!) After about an hour of talking, the commissioners agreed to ask the state to come in and review my file!!!!!!! And to speed up the grievance and records requests that I had given them months ago. They did so after Roz explained what state regs and so forth that they were not in compliance with by ignoring my requests!!! We left there and went back down to the second floor where we proceeded to all three get into another hallway battle with the agency's attorney!!! Oh! She was mean and nasty!! And had a lot of excuses and lies!!!! My daughter even got in on this one!! I think maybe she was trying to make us SO MAD that we would do something really foolish!! But we did not. This all took most of the day!!! My head is still spinning from it all!! I cannot believe that we did as much as we did!! When I have went there on my own, I have got nowhere!! I love you all so much in spirit, and truly thank God that He has allowed me have you all in my life!! __________________ Love In Spirit, Sky Where my heart is....... http://Writing.Com/authors/skyisfalling02 "Never Give In, Never Give In, Never Give In, Never, Never, Never." ~~Sir Winston Churchill~~

11-20-2003, 01:01 AM	#2 (permalink)
Morning Glory Guest Posts: n/a	Oh Sky. I do that every time I have to do something important in the morning. Try watching a TV program until you fall asleep. A hot bath might help too. Good luck tomorrow. Hugs, MG

11-20-2003, 06:50 AM	#4 (permalink)
ShpGrl02 Paused Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Indiana Posts: 8	Hi Sky, Are you O.K. so far this morning? I hope all goes well. Take Care, Anita

11-20-2003, 07:32 AM	#7 (permalink)
*51anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 14,606	Sky, I will be walking into the admin building along with you today. My fingers and toes are crossed that you get the help and info that you need. Let us know how it goes. Hugs and love, Anna

11-20-2003, 10:52 AM	#8 (permalink)
Morning Glory Guest Posts: n/a	Saying a prayer for you this morning Sky. Hugs, MG

11-20-2003, 04:08 PM	#10 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,669	((((((((((((((((((Sky)))))))))))))))))))) You are a very courageous and committed lady. I am so proud to call you sis..........you are an angel!! :bluerose :yellowros :redrose __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-20-2003, 04:29 PM	#11 (permalink)
SkyIsFalling42 Big kitty nose hugs Join Date: May 2003 Location: Center of The World Posts: 1,261	(((2stop))) Just remember my sis, it takes one to know one!! __________________ Love In Spirit, Sky Where my heart is....... http://Writing.Com/authors/skyisfalling02 "Never Give In, Never Give In, Never Give In, Never, Never, Never." ~~Sir Winston Churchill~~

11-21-2003, 01:34 AM	#12 (permalink)
Morning Glory Guest Posts: n/a	Good for you Sky. I'm so glad you had someone helping you fight this. The system is screwed up. Hugs, MG

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