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deerwalk · 07-20-2009, 06:06 PM

I have so many fears, I don't know if it's reality or intrusive thoughts due to ocd. Lately a number of men in my neighborhood have gone out of their way to say hello to me. I live in very dangerous neighborhood. I have a horrible fear of being attacked. When someone says "Hi" in a weird way (one guy even walked up to me while I was on the phone and put his hand on my leg and said "I love you") I begin to wonder obsessively if there was a previous interaction that I've forgotten about... I have been taking xanax and drinking for the past few days as it affords me a few moments of peace. My neighborhood is notoriously sketchy... I don't like being afraid all the time- I am a woman alone with no mate or family and that is frightening. I am so tired of being scared and feeling unsafe all the time. Nobody to care at the end of the day whether I am here or not. Nobody who gives a darn if I am terrified out of my mind of some guy walking up to me and touching me. I am so unnecessary. Well, cue the violins right?

Sweets79 · 07-20-2009, 06:32 PM

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Originally Posted by deerwalk

I have so many fears, I don't know if it's reality or intrusive thoughts due to ocd. Lately a number of men in my neighborhood have gone out of their way to say hello to me. I live in very dangerous neighborhood. I have a horrible fear of being attacked. When someone says "Hi" in a weird way (one guy even walked up to me while I was on the phone and put his hand on my leg and said "I love you") I begin to wonder obsessively if there was a previous interaction that I've forgotten about... I have been taking xanax and drinking for the past few days as it affords me a few moments of peace. My neighborhood is notoriously sketchy... I don't like being afraid all the time- I am a woman alone with no mate or family and that is frightening. I am so tired of being scared and feeling unsafe all the time. Nobody to care at the end of the day whether I am here or not. Nobody who gives a darn if I am terrified out of my mind of some guy walking up to me and touching me. I am so unnecessary. Well, cue the violins right?

Hey deer,

I think your fear is justified here. I would not want some strange man walking up to me, putting his hands on me, and saying "I love you." That is just freaky. With my mouth I'd probably get myself in trouble.

I know also what you're saying about being a woman alone. I have a few people close to me, and that's it. It is scary when you feel that way.

I had some weird guy harrassing me when I first started IOP. He would call me and he texted me "I love you" after only speaking a few times. I never even flirted with him or gave him any signs I was interested. I was just being a nice person to him. I was scared even though I had a few people call him. He wouldn't stop for weeks.

Would you ever consider moving? I know that's no help right now. My best advice is to just be aware of your surroundings, and not go out too late. If you do go out make sure someone walks you to your door.

deerwalk · 07-20-2009, 06:48 PM

I am trying so hard to get a decent job that pays enough to get out. My roommate just thinks it's all funny and when I tell him something awful I saw like a gang fight in the street he just gossips to his neighbors like it's fun and games... I don't get it. He thinks I'm a crybaby. I had an interview for a great job recently but I am afraid to hope. What's IOP?

Bamboozle · 07-20-2009, 06:59 PM

What Sweets said.

It is not appropriate for some stranger to come up and touch you without your permission. Don't put up with it.

07-20-2009, 06:06 PM	#1 (permalink)
deerwalk Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Chicago Posts: 820	ocd or reality? I have so many fears, I don't know if it's reality or intrusive thoughts due to ocd. Lately a number of men in my neighborhood have gone out of their way to say hello to me. I live in very dangerous neighborhood. I have a horrible fear of being attacked. When someone says "Hi" in a weird way (one guy even walked up to me while I was on the phone and put his hand on my leg and said "I love you") I begin to wonder obsessively if there was a previous interaction that I've forgotten about... I have been taking xanax and drinking for the past few days as it affords me a few moments of peace. My neighborhood is notoriously sketchy... I don't like being afraid all the time- I am a woman alone with no mate or family and that is frightening. I am so tired of being scared and feeling unsafe all the time. Nobody to care at the end of the day whether I am here or not. Nobody who gives a darn if I am terrified out of my mind of some guy walking up to me and touching me. I am so unnecessary. Well, cue the violins right?

07-20-2009, 06:59 PM	#4 (permalink)
Bamboozle Watch out...it'll fool ya! Duck Hunt 2 Champion! Alien Rescue Champion! Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: Underwater Posts: 3,475 Blog Entries: 12	What Sweets said. It is not appropriate for some stranger to come up and touch you without your permission. Don't put up with it. __________________ A strange game. The only winning move is not to play.

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07-20-2009, 06:48 PM	#3 (permalink)
deerwalk Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Chicago Posts: 820	I am trying so hard to get a decent job that pays enough to get out. My roommate just thinks it's all funny and when I tell him something awful I saw like a gang fight in the street he just gossips to his neighbors like it's fun and games... I don't get it. He thinks I'm a crybaby. I had an interview for a great job recently but I am afraid to hope. What's IOP?

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