Obsessive.........

[Waterman]

I have that not-so-good obsessive disorder, where I "dwell" on bad things that have happened to me, and find that if I think about a situation for more than 5 minutes, it gets 'stuck". Last thoughts of night, first of morning. That leads to anxiety......bummer...

[Cleansing]

I don't think I suffer from an obsessive disorder, but I do worry a lot about the future. Like Next week, is my psychiatrist gonna show up, or will he call in sick AGAIN?! Im out of meds if he calls in sick this wednesday (at least wit the Valium), but seeing another person at the clinic, like a nurse practioner isn't the same. She won't want to make adjustments to my meds. I really want to decrease the Valium and increase the Wellbutrin. But she won't do that. All she does is give out refills. I need him to be there. I'm really expecting him not to show up like the last two times, so i worry about that, and get anxious. so what did I do, I just went to stop and shop and spent 100 dollars on nutritional supplements. I get nervous and have to spend money to feel better.
Now I'm broke and feel worse though I obsessed to much felt bad, and got impulsive, now im broke. I get paid on Wednesday, but I owe so many people money.

But I think we're talking about the same thing, obsessing whether it's the past or present just makes us sick. The serenity prayer helps me sometimes.
God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

short and easy to remember. somethings we just have no control over, we just have to do our best at keeping sane and hope thigns fall in place.

as for the past, can we really chnage that? We have to rebuild a live the best life we can.