Again??

[bluenena]

I have been fine for a year and a half. And all of the sudden two days ago I was at work and it hit me a panic attack. Full blown. It really hasn't gone away. Today is my first day back to work and I just want to go home. I hate to feel like this. my miond is foggy and I can't work. I just want to sleep. I want it to go away I don't want to lose my job.

[Wednesday]

Sorry to hear that. Can you go and talk to your doctor about it? I used to get panic attacks and they are scary.

[bluenena]

I don't have a primary care Dr. I am taking Celexa for the last year but I went about five days without taking it so I think that is why. But now I am so afraid that I won't get better that I think I cause my own panic.

[Toomutch]

bluenena - Sorry to here you are having panic attacks. Is there anything going on in your life that may be causing them? Are you drinking alcohol? I had my worst panic attacks while I was drinking.
Try taking some deep slow breaths, if you have a desk job get up and move around for a couple minutes.
You may want to see your doctor if this persists.

[bluenena]

I just don't fell like there is very much a Dr. could do for me at this point I wish I could just go home and go to sleep. But I missed the last two days of work. I really can't lose my job. I have three kids to take care of that makes it hard because I really just want to give up when I feel like this.

[Morning Glory]

I get through it by telling myself I can do this for 24 hours. I just had the mother of all panic attacks and had to self talk all night to keep it from going over the top. I didn't have a panic attack for 25 years before that.

The Celexa is going to kick in again. Just keep telling yourself you will be fine until then. You got through this before. You can get through it again. Do what you need to do to get through the day and then you can go home.

[bluenena]

Wow, Thank you so much Morning Glory for you encouragment. I will read it over and over today so that I can get through. It helps to remember my strength that helped me to get through this before.

[bluenena]

I made it through the day yesterday. I woke up shaky this morning but I know I can do it. Even if it is an hour at a time.

[bluenena]

Still anxiouse , having a hard time concentrating. Glad it's Friday so I can sleep all weekend. Trying really hard to suppress my anxiety. I have this. It frustrates me that I have been well for so long. And I hate that there is mo magic fix that just makes it go away. I am trying to be patient.

[Morning Glory]

Are you back on the Celexa? If you're not better by Monday I would go see the doctor. I ran right into the doctor when I had my panic attack. If it gets really bad and you are not able to function at work the doctor can take you off of work for a week and they can't fire you for that.

You are really doing well. Just keep talking to yourself and take slow, deep breaths. You are safe and there is no danger.

[Freedom1990]

I hope you got back on your Celexa! I can't just stop taking my antidepressants cold turkey or I completely fall apart! That's why there's always a warning with them to NOT abruptly quit taking them. Take care of yourself! :ghug :ghug

[bluenena]

I did get back on my Celexa. I just got so busy for a few days that I didn't take them. But I realize that was dumb and I am getting them back into my system. I feel a lot better this afternoon. I just keep talking myself down when I feel anything coming on. I also have benzos but I try not to have to take them. Especially at work. But I will if I have to.

[Freedom1990]

Glad you got back on the Celexa. I accidentally ran out over a weekend (very poor planning on my part) and couldn't get it filled. I felt like I was going to come out of my skin by Monday morning! I never made that mistake again! I hope you have a pleasant weekend. :ghug :ghug

[bluenena]

My heart raced all night. So I am tired and that makes me anxious. However I am working on positve thinking. And I know it will pass as the day goes on. If I need to I will take part of a xanex. I'm going to put in for some vacation time. I think that will help.

[Freedom1990]

I was wondering how you are doing! Positive thinking does help. :ghug

[bluenena]

Still doing well. It's been a few days now with very little anxiety even in the mornings when it is usually worse.

[Morning Glory]

That's good to hear bluenena!

[bluenena]

It's back after two years. It came today full blown I had to leave work. I was so scared and afraid it will get bad and last for month... I know typical bad thinking of all the what ifs and every bad thing was running rampid through my head. And I kept getting these rushes of adrenalin. I took a little xanex. I feel a little better now. I keep reading the posts above and remembering I DID GET THROUGHT THIS LAST TIME. I just have to get though this day , this hour, or even this next ten minute. A little at a time not let myself worry about anything farther away than that. I know I can do this...

[Introvrtd1]

I go thru the same things Blue.....same feelings of being woozy, dizzy, little pains that scare me. When Im at work, and feel like that, I just wanna go home too....but I have to tough it out till the end of the workday.....I try not to let anyone see how I feel....I often take breaks to go and hide by myself for a while.....its really quite depressing.....

I do however have my good days....days when I can focus, concentrate on my work, and not even think about panic or anxiety for the whole day.....on rainy days....its really well and good....because the rain is so soothing, calming, and I would stand in the cold rain for a few and get my face wet....aaaaaah refreshing....

[Froglet]

Originally Posted by bluenena

It's back after two years. It came today full blown I had to leave work. I was so scared and afraid it will get bad and last for month... I know typical bad thinking of all the what ifs and every bad thing was running rampid through my head. And I kept getting these rushes of adrenalin. I took a little xanex. I feel a little better now. I keep reading the posts above and remembering I DID GET THROUGHT THIS LAST TIME. I just have to get though this day , this hour, or even this next ten minute. A little at a time not let myself worry about anything farther away than that. I know I can do this...

Stay strong.

May I ask what job you are doing? If you feel it's private, then that's okay. I only ask because sometimes our jobs/professions cause us to become anxious. But I know how you feel because I go through the same thing (i created a thread). It's difficult, but I'm sure you can get through it.

I was clean 1 weekend (this past week), the first clean weekend in over 5-10 years, for however long and I feel my anxiety has dropped TREMENDOUSLY. My mind now evolves around staying 'clean'.

I still battle anxiety and can relate. I think you might want to find time for yourself and do something you enjoy.