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[crzylilmndfreak]

Ii dont eally know what im asking here, all i know is that I need help, or maybe some feedback, ..I have been on all kinds of medication, and i do see a therapist, who has put me on , well i was on welbutrin for depression, which i stopped taking, and now i am on meds for obsessive thoughts and Zyprexa,hearing things that arent there,which also doesnt seem to be working, and klonopin for anxiety, which i can only take once a day, i was prescribed 3 times a day, but it makes me too drowsy,so it isnt working, i am completely a recluse, difficult to even come out of my house i never never drive or go anywhere by myself, im also on ritalin for my adult add, which should i think help with anxiety, right? It has helped me emmensly, as far as depression, focus and attention to detail, ...but i guess wht im asking , and i know ive posted simular posts here about this,and im sorry for repeating myself, but what i guess im asking is is there anything to take instead of barbituates for social anxiety, is there ANY hope for me?because i am miserable

[crzylilmndfreak]

i just saw that someone else had posted under "help' so forgive me for titleling under the same catagory

[Astro]

Originally Posted by crzylilmndfreak

what i guess im asking is is there anything to take instead of barbituates for social anxiety, is there ANY hope for me?because i am miserable

Remember that we're not doctors here and can't give medical advice, my suggestion would be to contact your prescriber or physician for a possible alternate. I don't believe you should suffer or be miserable, but it might take some time to find what'll work for you.

There's always hope, for everyone, you included. Thankfully we have recovery programs and support groups to help us every step of the way, so please keep reaching out until you have the answers you need.

[crzylilmndfreak]

I have tried so many different meds, i just feel like giving up on life alltogether. the only thing that keeps me going is my family i do not live for me

[Astro]

In early recovery, I depended upon my children and my family in recovery to love me until I was able to love myself. It's a process, but it gave me the hope I needed during those times when I didn't have the strength to live.

[crzylilmndfreak]

Originally Posted by Astro

In early recovery, I depended upon my children and my family in recovery to love me until I was able to love myself. It's a process, but it gave me the hope I needed during those times when I didn't have the strength to live.

ive come such a long way since being sober, and then again not in a way, i still want to drink so very badly, and i do not love myself one bit, due to so many horrible things i did to myself, and put my family through i am surprised my husband has even forgiven me at all, sometimes i just feel like he is "sticking around' in fear of what i might do to myself, i dont know how to get over this, and learn to love myself, not sure i even ever did

[Astro]

It took me many months to come to the point where I even wanted to look at myself in the mirror, I was so ashamed of what I'd done while I was drinking, felt like I'd torn my family apart and there was nothing left worth living for.

It's taken a few years of recovery to bring me to where I'm at now. My ex didn't stick around, she found someone who loved her the way she wanted to be loved. Recovery gave me the gift of being a loving father to my children, we have a relationship that I treasure more than anything else. I'm happier than I've ever been, and I love myself and know that God loves me "warts and all", I'm a flawed human being. But there's still room to grow, I'm enjoying the journey.

Taking a drink never solved anything. There's always hope. Stick around until the miracle happens for you.

[gravity]

It took a while for me to forgive myself in particular for the hurt I caused my wife & family.

For me, it took a lot of prayer and working the 12 steps. Yes, I have made mistakes in my life. Yes, I am an imperfect human being. But I am not a bad person. I did apologize to my wife and ask her if there was any way I could make amends to her. She told me to keep doing what I'm doing. She also smiled and told me that she loves me.

Today, I really can't say that I love myself. I still get frustrated. But I certainly don't hate myself. I'm okay I guess.

It's gotta be tough with the meds but I know many people in AA who have made it work.

Not saying AA is the only way. Just maybe keep reaching out to others - eg. counseling, religion...whatever works.

Never give up. You will get there.

[jamdls]

Zprexa has truly saved my life twice in the past 5 years. My psychiatrist kept me on it for about 4 months the first time and just 2 months the 2nd time and between that and therapy I was alive. You should take your meds as the doctor prescribed, if they make you sleepy then maybe you need to sleep and maybe that feeling will go away. I know when I first started taking zyprexa I felt heavily drugged but that feeling went away after a few days or a week at the most.
Hope you are doing better.

Judy

[GailJ]

[crzylilmndfreak]

Originally Posted by GailJ

Hugs to you gail

[Rediscovering]

I'm struggling with similar feelings and send you my love and prayers. I am a codie, not an addict..but have been experimenting with drugs to get rid of this horrendous anxiety and depression. I am currently not functional...i do not leave the house due to my extreme anxiety. I have tried different meds and also feel like "quitting". We can't live like this..it's not a life.

I am hunting for help. If I find something besides the same ol' keep trying different meds and see how nothing works, I'll keep in touch. Good luck. I'm praying for you

[crzylilmndfreak]

Originally Posted by Rediscovering

I'm struggling with similar feelings and send you my love and prayers. I am a codie, not an addict..but have been experimenting with drugs to get rid of this horrendous anxiety and depression. I am currently not functional...i do not leave the house due to my extreme anxiety. I have tried different meds and also feel like "quitting". We can't live like this..it's not a life.

I am hunting for help. If I find something besides the same ol' keep trying different meds and see how nothing works, I'll keep in touch. Good luck. I'm praying for you

thank you so much rediscovering, for your response, it is a really comforting feeling knowing that i am not the only one with this problem, i talked to my mom about it yesterday and she said that to get over it i jsut needed to get myself "out there" and the more i dwell on it, the worse it will get, i know she was just trying to help in her own way, but it didnt. i feel like no one knows what i feel like. i now, take baby steps, but even that freaks me out, im going back to the dr. on Mon, i will keep in touch and see how that goes. i jus want to know what most people are like in thier own head, because i have never known any other way, what i wouldnt give to just Stop constantly obsessing on everything! any time i do talk to someone, which is rare, after i dwell on every single word that was said, and wonder what they were thinking, or i "know" what they are thinking, they must think i am just an unsocial b%^& i did tell one of my neighbors about my problem, and last night she asked me if i wanted to come out and meet her new boyfriend, and i just couldnt do it, ugh

[Sweets79]

Originally Posted by crzylilmndfreak

thank you so much rediscovering, for your response, it is a really comforting feeling knowing that i am not the only one with this problem, i talked to my mom about it yesterday and she said that to get over it i jsut needed to get myself "out there" and the more i dwell on it, the worse it will get, i know she was just trying to help in her own way, but it didnt. i feel like no one knows what i feel like. i now, take baby steps, but even that freaks me out, im going back to the dr. on Mon, i will keep in touch and see how that goes. i jus want to know what most people are like in thier own head, because i have never known any other way, what i wouldnt give to just Stop constantly obsessing on everything! any time i do talk to someone, which is rare, after i dwell on every single word that was said, and wonder what they were thinking, or i "know" what they are thinking, they must think i am just an unsocial b%^& i did tell one of my neighbors about my problem, and last night she asked me if i wanted to come out and meet her new boyfriend, and i just couldnt do it, ugh

That part of your post totally described me...I go over every single word that was said, and I swear I know what the other person is thinking...I don't do it with EVERYONE, but certain people.