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All About Love · 02-16-2009, 03:18 AM

i ended up having an admission for mental health assessment lasy night after a suicide attempt.
i was realeased into the care of my next door neighbour this morning.
i cannot say i feel any better, i will not take medication as it does nothing but make my life more miserable than it is already.
does anyone know of any successful therapies that are behavioural based or naturapathic based that have worked for them.
i hate feeling so low, im attacking people verbally cos im so sick an tired of feeling like shyte
im sick of others just assuming im fine an can hack it when the truth is im all alone an cannot handle life.
i hate my life an everyone in it.
how does someone overcome this feeling?
maybe i should just give up now an be done with it.

a very stressed an scared
niks

citychick · 02-16-2009, 03:35 AM

Hey Nikky, I'm so sorry you're doing it so hard.

Maybe you could consider going into the rehab that you mentioned, just for a while.

Your daughter will be ok, she'll do what she has to, to finish her studies.

It's important you do what's best for you, and if that means going away for a bit, well, that's what you'll have to do.

God darlin' I had no idea you're feeling so sad.

Rowan · 02-16-2009, 05:04 AM

Aw Nikk - I don't have any magic words, I just wanted to say I understand. I've been there. It hurts. And that you're not alone - it just feels that way. Stay on course - keep on going to your meetings and working with your sponsor. Talk about what's going on inside of you. That helped me the most: just getting it out and sharing it with someone I trusted. I hope you can get some rest today, hon. Hang in there. Much love.

tanyapmc · 02-16-2009, 07:03 AM

Nik, I am sorry that your hurting. I once heard that suicide is a permanent fix to a temporary problem. Is there anyway you could go to psychotherapy? I talked to a dr about 6 weeks ago for an hour and it did a world of good. Just a thought. Hang in there.

yeahgr8 · 02-16-2009, 07:18 AM

It's really heartbreaking reading how bad you are at the moment, i remember reading loads of positive posts from you and always looked out to see how you were doing. You were doing ok a couple of months ago and you can go back to that with an even stronger determination to make your life better, please don't think about ending it that would really suck for everybody that knows you!

Did you find out about the treatment centre you mentioned before, is that still an option?

historyteach · 02-20-2009, 07:15 AM

Nikki,

I hope you come back and let us know how you're doing. Many people have posted. We care.

Cognitive behavioral therapy is also known to help very much in many circumstances. A good therapist can teach you the technique in a short period of time; you can then work on issues yourself or in conjunction with your therapist. It becomes a very helpful way of looking at life realistically. Here's a link that can explain it to you.
In-Depth: Cognitive Behavioral Therapy | Psych Central
I do hope you'll look into it with a trained therapist. Your doctor can refer you to one. It's been known to have very high success rates in a short period of time.

Shalom!

All About Love · 02-20-2009, 09:15 PM

thankyou to you all!
im just checking in quickly as im going to a restraunt with my sponsor then staying at her house til tommorrow arvo an gotta get ready

im getting out, researching the therapies i need, for now though im taking care of myself an my appearance which means im on the up & up again! yay!

**hydrogirl** · 02-21-2009, 07:59 AM

Hey Nikky!

There are so many things in the world that make life worth living....
Warm flannel shirts on a cold night.
A cup of coffee and the big old Sunday paper.
The sight of a little bird in the spring all puffed up because it's still cold.
The voice of a loved one on the phone.
Snow!
Clean, warm towels out of the dryer.
A hockey game (rugby, soccer.....) on the telly and a bowl of popcorn.
The first daffodils in spring.

So many things, and people, want you to stay around Nikky! Hang in there! It does get better....

Hugs and prayers, HG

**hydrogirl** · 02-21-2009, 08:01 AM

Sorry, double post.....stupid dial up connection!
Hugs and prayers, HG

All About Love · 02-21-2009, 11:55 PM

im back, refreshed an on top of things again

im so lucky to have you all in my life
you are all awesum

02-16-2009, 03:18 AM	#1 (permalink)
All About Love ~miss nikky~ Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: windsor gardens, south australia, australia Posts: 1,979 Blog Entries: 4	i'm sick of living like this i ended up having an admission for mental health assessment lasy night after a suicide attempt. i was realeased into the care of my next door neighbour this morning. i cannot say i feel any better, i will not take medication as it does nothing but make my life more miserable than it is already. does anyone know of any successful therapies that are behavioural based or naturapathic based that have worked for them. i hate feeling so low, im attacking people verbally cos im so sick an tired of feeling like shyte im sick of others just assuming im fine an can hack it when the truth is im all alone an cannot handle life. i hate my life an everyone in it. how does someone overcome this feeling? maybe i should just give up now an be done with it. a very stressed an scared niks __________________ *"My asset is the ability to just do it."*

02-16-2009, 03:35 AM	#2 (permalink)
citychick Member Arkanoid Flash Champion! Rat Trap Champion! SD-Pong Champion! Tournaments Won: 1 Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: NSW Posts: 2,908	Hey Nikky, I'm so sorry you're doing it so hard. Maybe you could consider going into the rehab that you mentioned, just for a while. Your daughter will be ok, she'll do what she has to, to finish her studies. It's important you do what's best for you, and if that means going away for a bit, well, that's what you'll have to do. God darlin' I had no idea you're feeling so sad. __________________ " Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...it's about learning to dance in the rain."

02-20-2009, 07:15 AM	#6 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	Nikki, I hope you come back and let us know how you're doing. Many people have posted. We care. Cognitive behavioral therapy is also known to help very much in many circumstances. A good therapist can teach you the technique in a short period of time; you can then work on issues yourself or in conjunction with your therapist. It becomes a very helpful way of looking at life realistically. Here's a link that can explain it to you. In-Depth: Cognitive Behavioral Therapy \| Psych Central I do hope you'll look into it with a trained therapist. Your doctor can refer you to one. It's been known to have very high success rates in a short period of time. Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE

02-20-2009, 09:15 PM	#7 (permalink)
All About Love ~miss nikky~ Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: windsor gardens, south australia, australia Posts: 1,979 Blog Entries: 4	thankyou to you all! im just checking in quickly as im going to a restraunt with my sponsor then staying at her house til tommorrow arvo an gotta get ready im getting out, researching the therapies i need, for now though im taking care of myself an my appearance which means im on the up & up again! yay! __________________ *"My asset is the ability to just do it."*

02-21-2009, 11:55 PM	#10 (permalink)
All About Love ~miss nikky~ Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: windsor gardens, south australia, australia Posts: 1,979 Blog Entries: 4	im back, refreshed an on top of things again im so lucky to have you all in my life you are all awesum __________________ *"My asset is the ability to just do it."*

02-16-2009, 05:04 AM	#3 (permalink)
Rowan Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Posts: 12,138	Aw Nikk - I don't have any magic words, I just wanted to say I understand. I've been there. It hurts. And that you're not alone - it just feels that way. Stay on course - keep on going to your meetings and working with your sponsor. Talk about what's going on inside of you. That helped me the most: just getting it out and sharing it with someone I trusted. I hope you can get some rest today, hon. Hang in there. Much love.

02-16-2009, 07:03 AM	#4 (permalink)
tanyapmc Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Nunyabusinessville, Texas Posts: 4,443 Blog Entries: 2	Nik, I am sorry that your hurting. I once heard that suicide is a permanent fix to a temporary problem. Is there anyway you could go to psychotherapy? I talked to a dr about 6 weeks ago for an hour and it did a world of good. Just a thought. Hang in there.

02-16-2009, 07:18 AM	#5 (permalink)
yeahgr8 Member Pacman Turbo Champion! Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: UK Posts: 3,950 Blog Entries: 8	It's really heartbreaking reading how bad you are at the moment, i remember reading loads of positive posts from you and always looked out to see how you were doing. You were doing ok a couple of months ago and you can go back to that with an even stronger determination to make your life better, please don't think about ending it that would really suck for everybody that knows you! Did you find out about the treatment centre you mentioned before, is that still an option?

02-21-2009, 07:59 AM	#8 (permalink)
hydrogirl Forum Leader Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: Paris, I wish....... Posts: 3,077 Blog Entries: 1	Hey Nikky! There are so many things in the world that make life worth living.... Warm flannel shirts on a cold night. A cup of coffee and the big old Sunday paper. The sight of a little bird in the spring all puffed up because it's still cold. The voice of a loved one on the phone. Snow! Clean, warm towels out of the dryer. A hockey game (rugby, soccer.....) on the telly and a bowl of popcorn. The first daffodils in spring. So many things, and people, want you to stay around Nikky! Hang in there! It does get better.... Hugs and prayers, HG

02-21-2009, 08:01 AM	#9 (permalink)
hydrogirl Forum Leader Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: Paris, I wish....... Posts: 3,077 Blog Entries: 1	Sorry, double post.....stupid dial up connection! Hugs and prayers, HG

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