What's Moo?
Woe is Moo.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
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What's Moo?
Hello Kittens, Little Doves, Bunnies, Turtles, Friends, and Other Assorted Peoples.
Many of you know (or has guess ...I mean, it not rocket surgery) that I slide back into the hole and things get very, very dire for me in, well, every possible way. Some of you still checking in on me and while I not able to respond, cuz I all sick and crazypants and shht, I does wish say thank you for you caring, which mean lot to me.
I has been sober now for 6 week, which longer than I ever been sober since, well, forever. It been grueling and my mental health is become extremely MORE unstable since I quit. This why I still staying quiet. I also afraid and not wanting for people to say: "WOO HOO!! CONGRATULATIONS AND UNICORNS AND RAINBOWS AND BUBBLES AND CAKES!!!" Cuz it not like that. I feeling terrible in every way and very fragile and the congratulation stuff make me feel weird and discordant and angry even. I know this make little sense.
Anyway, is for me is mostly isolation and chop wood, carry water. I not can even deal with “support” things right now, cuz I have rabid squirrels in my brain and even supportive contact can disturb me sometime or is over-stimulating. I have lot of dysphoric mania that would just love to drone on and on to all you all about its incessant frantic compulsions, rage and depressions, but this not productive for anyone. Right now, I just keep head down, not listen to brain to much, and try everything possible to find/create more stable place from which to re-engage with the world. I has think of you guys a lot and has check in on you and wishing you well.
Okay Sweet Gumdrops, look for Cow on the horizon, and know I doing my best to make my way back to you. ~Moo Mwah
Many of you know (or has guess ...I mean, it not rocket surgery) that I slide back into the hole and things get very, very dire for me in, well, every possible way. Some of you still checking in on me and while I not able to respond, cuz I all sick and crazypants and shht, I does wish say thank you for you caring, which mean lot to me.
I has been sober now for 6 week, which longer than I ever been sober since, well, forever. It been grueling and my mental health is become extremely MORE unstable since I quit. This why I still staying quiet. I also afraid and not wanting for people to say: "WOO HOO!! CONGRATULATIONS AND UNICORNS AND RAINBOWS AND BUBBLES AND CAKES!!!" Cuz it not like that. I feeling terrible in every way and very fragile and the congratulation stuff make me feel weird and discordant and angry even. I know this make little sense.
Anyway, is for me is mostly isolation and chop wood, carry water. I not can even deal with “support” things right now, cuz I have rabid squirrels in my brain and even supportive contact can disturb me sometime or is over-stimulating. I have lot of dysphoric mania that would just love to drone on and on to all you all about its incessant frantic compulsions, rage and depressions, but this not productive for anyone. Right now, I just keep head down, not listen to brain to much, and try everything possible to find/create more stable place from which to re-engage with the world. I has think of you guys a lot and has check in on you and wishing you well.
Okay Sweet Gumdrops, look for Cow on the horizon, and know I doing my best to make my way back to you. ~Moo Mwah
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My darling Cow. Glad to see you, crazy pants is better than no pants. I did that in a restaurant once. Sashshayed through a very fine restaurant with my dress hem tucked into my pantyhose. Basically bareassed. Sober even. So I understand about pants and lack thereof. And that there's some uproar over yoga pants. I try to stay relevant,
Much love to you and good to see my other sober sisters and brothers.
Much love from Lenina
Much love to you and good to see my other sober sisters and brothers.
Much love from Lenina
Woe is Moo.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
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To be clear, though I not up for cheers or celebrations, I total accepting any and all hugs: somber hugs, friendly hugs, forlorn hugs, hopeful hugs, angry hugs, and plus also, the ever popular: "I has no idea what to say in face of the total shambolic spectacle that you has become" hug.
to all you all
to all you all
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I has been sober now for 6 week, which longer than I ever been sober since, well, forever. It been grueling and my mental health is become extremely MORE unstable since I quit. This why I still staying quiet. I also afraid and not wanting for people to say: "WOO HOO!! CONGRATULATIONS AND UNICORNS AND RAINBOWS AND BUBBLES AND CAKES!!!" Cuz it not like that. I feeling terrible in every way and very fragile and the congratulation stuff make me feel weird and discordant and angry even. I know this make little sense.
sprained my ankle once ya know people might be like "oh let me help you" my response F OFF RARAR I DONT NEED NO DAMN HELP RAOOOR> maybe this why most dont bother to try helpig me when i need help? makes me wonder....
Anyhow hope your hanging in there at least and like the farmer says "you know why the grass is greener in that field? Cuase theres more **** over there"
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