10 months as of today
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I ended up buying a drink for a friend. I was just saying, "Well I don't drink" and then the bartender asked if I wanted one of her faux drinks and that she didn't really either,so she made it and it was nice.
Do something nice for yourself as a reward. 
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Congratulations Sleepie! That is a big accomplishment to have gone that far, there's no turning back now 
There is a certain amount of time for most people and it's all bets are off but 10 months is a really convincing amount of time to string together. Keep going!
There is a certain amount of time for most people and it's all bets are off but 10 months is a really convincing amount of time to string together. Keep going!
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Thanks
Hi Fbl
Pretty down today
Health stuff
Not feeling as if sobriety achieved anything . I am so tired. I try my best, it doesn't matter.
I see others who do as they please, no repercussions. I'm also tired of being treated as if my feelings don't matter. And people targeting me.
And scary, mean, hateful people who enjoy hurting someone who has already suffered a lot.
Hi Fbl
Pretty down today
Health stuff
Not feeling as if sobriety achieved anything . I am so tired. I try my best, it doesn't matter.
I see others who do as they please, no repercussions. I'm also tired of being treated as if my feelings don't matter. And people targeting me.
And scary, mean, hateful people who enjoy hurting someone who has already suffered a lot.
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sleepie for what its worth i spent a lot of time being ticked off at everyone else and there BS but I dunno I hit a point where i got angry and thought EF them i'm gonna do it my way I'm not gonna let tehre problem be my problem etc.. they can keep there bag of crap i'm not interested.
I still have my moments tho wehre other peoples nonsense pushses all the right buttons with me tho but it has gotten somewhat better.
I still have my moments tho wehre other peoples nonsense pushses all the right buttons with me tho but it has gotten somewhat better.
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Originally Posted by sleepie 
Thanks
Hi Fbl
Pretty down today
Health stuff
Not feeling as if sobriety achieved anything . I am so tired. I try my best, it doesn't matter.
I see others who do as they please, no repercussions. I'm also tired of being treated as if my feelings don't matter. And people targeting me.
And scary, mean, hateful people who enjoy hurting someone who has already suffered a lot.
Hi Fbl
Pretty down today
Health stuff
Not feeling as if sobriety achieved anything . I am so tired. I try my best, it doesn't matter.
I see others who do as they please, no repercussions. I'm also tired of being treated as if my feelings don't matter. And people targeting me.
And scary, mean, hateful people who enjoy hurting someone who has already suffered a lot.
I come home from work exhausted, having worked three 12 hour days in a row.. I'm in the kitchen getting something to eat and I can barely keep my eyes open.. step father is in a silly mood and starts bumping in to me and I take a step away and tell him that I'm tired and not feeling good.. He does it again, teases me about being crabby... I sit down to eat some chips and he says something to me, too quiet for me to hear over my crunching, so I say I can't hear you... so he talks very loudly and very slowly, like I'm being difficult or something.... And again, I'm exhausted and not feeling well and I'm having my buttons pushed just because they're pushable at the moment... In his mind, he was just being silly and I was being a kill joy... he told my mother the next day while I was helping her in the kitchen that I was in rare form the night before, I was telling him not to yell at me... I was in rare form? I was exhausted, I wasn't feeling well... I tried SO hard to be nice the whole time and yet now my mother thinks I was being a bitch to her boyfriend.... all because he would not stop trying to press MY buttons.... My feelings don't matter. Never matter.
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