Drunk, out of the blue
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Drunk, out of the blue
Three and a half years, no cravings, I was blind to it. Didn't see it or care about it. Then I see a chilled bottle and BOOM, a week of "indulgence". So...do I quit now or go to rock bottom again. I know the answer but kind words would be appreciated....
Cunning, baffling and powerful is alcoholism. I would also add...patient.
Yes, you know the answer. Start again and don't ever get complacent. You know you can do it because you did it for 3 1/2 years. We're here to support you, so post before you drink, instead of after. Okay?
Yes, you know the answer. Start again and don't ever get complacent. You know you can do it because you did it for 3 1/2 years. We're here to support you, so post before you drink, instead of after. Okay?
Most definitely, quit now. Return solidly to the sober path.
I am sorry that you drank; I am three and a half years sober, too; I know that I would be devastated if I drank again so I really feel for you.
Glad you found SR; welcome.
I am sorry that you drank; I am three and a half years sober, too; I know that I would be devastated if I drank again so I really feel for you.
Glad you found SR; welcome.
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Thank you thank you, you bring tears to my eyes. I am trying not to let it be a CRISIS for fear that will really set me off. Happily I remember how absolutely amazing I felt without alcohol. But I am shocked. Yes, ever vigilant we must be.
Thanks for posting today. I had 18 years and in a moment it was gone.
Please don't follow in my footsteps and continue to drink like I did. It took me to a very dark place, not because of guilt, but because it was so easy and eventually it had me again. Depression, suicidal ideation, alone and frightened, unable to function, not taking care of my basic needs. You get the picture.
Please don't follow in my footsteps and continue to drink like I did. It took me to a very dark place, not because of guilt, but because it was so easy and eventually it had me again. Depression, suicidal ideation, alone and frightened, unable to function, not taking care of my basic needs. You get the picture.
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on a side not bird on a wire was a neat documentary about that tight rope walker that followed his dreams and walked a tight rope between the world trade center towers before they where finished being built. Worth the watch.
Not sure if thats where your name is from tho. Anyhow quit now while your ahead!
Not sure if thats where your name is from tho. Anyhow quit now while your ahead!
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WOW bimini thats terrifying how cunning this disease is! i know my AV is always plotting reading your post it was like DOH i cant just trick him in 20 years now DOH.
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Powerful thread and sharing - for me nothing is more telling than stories of tenured sobriety and picking up again.
I have heard from others who say they truly relapsed before they picked up and drank. Do you agree with that or is your experience different? Maybe this would be helpful to others.
Bim, was that your experience or no??
Glad you're posting - love the sentiment from our friend SoberLeigh
I have heard from others who say they truly relapsed before they picked up and drank. Do you agree with that or is your experience different? Maybe this would be helpful to others.
Bim, was that your experience or no??
Glad you're posting - love the sentiment from our friend SoberLeigh
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Powerful thread and sharing - for me nothing is more telling than stories of tenured sobriety and picking up again.
I have heard from others who say they truly relapsed before they picked up and drank. Do you agree with that or is your experience different? Maybe this would be helpful to others.
Bim, was that your experience or no??
Glad you're posting - love the sentiment from our friend SoberLeigh
I have heard from others who say they truly relapsed before they picked up and drank. Do you agree with that or is your experience different? Maybe this would be helpful to others.
Bim, was that your experience or no??
Glad you're posting - love the sentiment from our friend SoberLeigh
Hello BirdOnWire - I'm so glad you joined us.
I had 3 years once. Without giving it a second thought, I picked up again when on a date. (The man didn't know I was an A and I didn't tell him.) Next day I didn't feel too bad, so I convinced myself that I could probably use willpower to control it. Knowing in my heart it never worked before! Off I went for 7 years of hell. Be glad that you've had the good sense to stop the downhill slide. Sometimes I think we need further proof that we simply can't touch the stuff. You are going to be fine. Most likely, more determined than ever.
I had 3 years once. Without giving it a second thought, I picked up again when on a date. (The man didn't know I was an A and I didn't tell him.) Next day I didn't feel too bad, so I convinced myself that I could probably use willpower to control it. Knowing in my heart it never worked before! Off I went for 7 years of hell. Be glad that you've had the good sense to stop the downhill slide. Sometimes I think we need further proof that we simply can't touch the stuff. You are going to be fine. Most likely, more determined than ever.
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Hello BirdOnWire - I'm so glad you joined us.
I had 3 years once. Without giving it a second thought, I picked up again when on a date. (The man didn't know I was an A and I didn't tell him.) Next day I didn't feel too bad, so I convinced myself that I could probably use willpower to control it. Knowing in my heart it never worked before! Off I went for 7 years of hell. Be glad that you've had the good sense to stop the downhill slide. Sometimes I think we need further proof that we simply can't touch the stuff. You are going to be fine. Most likely, more determined than ever.
I had 3 years once. Without giving it a second thought, I picked up again when on a date. (The man didn't know I was an A and I didn't tell him.) Next day I didn't feel too bad, so I convinced myself that I could probably use willpower to control it. Knowing in my heart it never worked before! Off I went for 7 years of hell. Be glad that you've had the good sense to stop the downhill slide. Sometimes I think we need further proof that we simply can't touch the stuff. You are going to be fine. Most likely, more determined than ever.
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