Surprise! Denial.
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Denial.
Don't Even Notice I Am Lying.
When I started working on my Step 4 at AA I realised that most of my perception of everything was skewed due to denying lots of stuff...
....denial of my part in situations I was fondly nursing resentments about
... denial of the fact that I was actually scared s**tless about most social stuff, and how people perceived me (even the ones I didn't like or respect anyway)
... denial of how things I'd done (when sober and when drunk) had hurt others
So, so much denial on my part. I still have to watch myself even though I am generally more aware of what I do. I often do sanity checks with my sponsor, just to make sure I'm not up to my old tricks or changing the reality I don't like to make it less scary and unpleasant.
Don't Even Notice I Am Lying.
When I started working on my Step 4 at AA I realised that most of my perception of everything was skewed due to denying lots of stuff...
....denial of my part in situations I was fondly nursing resentments about
... denial of the fact that I was actually scared s**tless about most social stuff, and how people perceived me (even the ones I didn't like or respect anyway)
... denial of how things I'd done (when sober and when drunk) had hurt others
So, so much denial on my part. I still have to watch myself even though I am generally more aware of what I do. I often do sanity checks with my sponsor, just to make sure I'm not up to my old tricks or changing the reality I don't like to make it less scary and unpleasant.
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