I am sick of being alone
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: C.C. Ma.
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Hi.
Life is at times very hard when we keep playing the same roll all the time.
Isolation is perhaps the worst thing an alcoholic can wrap around themselves, that comes from experience I’m familiar with after a lot of sober years experience. Today it’s much better because I still go to 3-5 AA meetings a week where most people understand each other.
Getting out of it for me required me to work and change many things with the help of these people. The first thing was to go to a meeting a day, until I wanted to go. Next was to get involved in the fellowship by making coffee, greeting people, participating, cleaning up AND going out with others after a meeting for a sandwich, ice cream, bowling and other activities that would keep me from isolating.
These choices are a matter of misery or the joy of living.
BE WELL
Life is at times very hard when we keep playing the same roll all the time.
Isolation is perhaps the worst thing an alcoholic can wrap around themselves, that comes from experience I’m familiar with after a lot of sober years experience. Today it’s much better because I still go to 3-5 AA meetings a week where most people understand each other.
Getting out of it for me required me to work and change many things with the help of these people. The first thing was to go to a meeting a day, until I wanted to go. Next was to get involved in the fellowship by making coffee, greeting people, participating, cleaning up AND going out with others after a meeting for a sandwich, ice cream, bowling and other activities that would keep me from isolating.
These choices are a matter of misery or the joy of living.
BE WELL
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Join Date: Mar 2015
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i've read all the responses here and it's kinda humbling to receive two pages of support from people who have never met me. i did some stupid things on sunday that culminated in me getting into a fair bit of trouble and a ridiculous mess and i wish i'd just gone home and chatted with you guys... i've thought about hopping into the chatroom like wolfie suggested. if i get into that headspace again i'll join the room instead. i need the perspective and positivity that you all offer and i'm sorry for behaving like nothing matters except the sound of my own screaming. i don't really want to go into everything i did or what happened because there's no real point, except to move forward. i don't want to put myself in that position ever again.
i managed to get to a support group and forced myself to stay through the anxiety. one of the guys there got talking to me and offered to meet me to go to some AA meetings if i was too screwed up about going on my own. it's funny how even when you think you don't believe in anything, you end up praying when you're in deep ****. between waking up alive, the messages here, and the support from the group, i kinda feel like maybe someone heard me.
i managed to get to a support group and forced myself to stay through the anxiety. one of the guys there got talking to me and offered to meet me to go to some AA meetings if i was too screwed up about going on my own. it's funny how even when you think you don't believe in anything, you end up praying when you're in deep ****. between waking up alive, the messages here, and the support from the group, i kinda feel like maybe someone heard me.
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I am glad you come here Lycan, I urge you to take the help that has been offered by your local support group too. There is unlimited support here and elsewhere, but it does no good if you aren't willing to utilize it. Do it for yourself first and foremost, but for your family and friends too.
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Join Date: Mar 2015
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thanks guys. a couple of you have left messages on my wall but whenever i go to reply, i'm not able to? i don't know if it's my computer like a browser issue or something or i'm just being a dumbass but it either tells me i don't have permission to view conversations or the page is blank on the the visitor messages section. so i'm not ignoring the messages i just dunno how to respond.
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Join Date: Jan 2010
Location: Arizona
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lycanlaz,
I'm very alone and lonely too. (Newly moved) That was part of my motivator to try AA.
I've been to 4 meetings in 2 locations and have already made a few friends. Some have initiated contact, some have invited me along after the meeting for food.
CJ.
I'm very alone and lonely too. (Newly moved) That was part of my motivator to try AA.
I've been to 4 meetings in 2 locations and have already made a few friends. Some have initiated contact, some have invited me along after the meeting for food.
CJ.
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Join Date: Mar 2015
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hey CJ. isolation is rough as ****. i used to love my own space and being alone but there's something about an empty house that grates against me now unbearably. i'm craving human contact where before i wasn't exactly repulsed by it but my own company seemed preferable to anything else.
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Youd definatly meet ppl at Smart or AA mtns Laz you know if you call them youd proberly get someone to take you i was scared too but it turned out to be one of the best things i done to help my sobriety & i met ppl that was the best bit i wasnt alone
Here for you anytime bud
Here for you anytime bud
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Originally Posted by soberwolf 
Youd definatly meet ppl at Smart or AA mtns Laz you know if you call them youd proberly get someone to take you i was scared too but it turned out to be one of the best things i done to help my sobriety & i met ppl that was the best bit i wasnt alone
Here for you anytime bud
Here for you anytime bud
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Originally Posted by lycanlaz
thanks guys. a couple of you have left messages on my wall but whenever i go to reply, i'm not able to? i don't know if it's my computer like a browser issue or something or i'm just being a dumbass but it either tells me i don't have permission to view conversations or the page is blank on the the visitor messages section. so i'm not ignoring the messages i just dunno how to respond.
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