Boo !
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Boo !
No, it's not a Halloween thing...I just haven't said "boo" to anyone on here for quite sometime. Coming up on 90 days here, pretty quick. This is the longest I've been free of Alcohol or other Drugs for 33 Years. My Health is good and I haven't contemplated suicide for over 80 days-YAY!
I lacked Trust in the Process, the last few times I tried to put the stuff down and let My anxiety and depression or lack of any feelings get the best of Me and picked up again.
I know this time for sure that I cannot drink Safely. I don't want to be sick for 6-8 weeks again. I quite like getting up in the Morning and making My bed and having good eating and hygiene habits. I like having something to offer and to bring to My personal relationships. I LOVE being fortunate enough to be able to listen to that Quiet Voice of Reason inside Me, instead of having a SCREAMING, Demanding Ego dictate My thoughts and actions.
I got a lot of support from People here over the past 13 months, especially in the early days when I was Isolating and didn't get out to see real people except mostly the person behind the counter at the liquor store.
This time around, I have found some real Peace that I never had before. Peace I never thought Possible. Peace I thought I could only find by Ending it All. I am glad I had some fragments of Hope to hang on though.
Thanks to All at SR for getting Me off to a Good Start. I am amazed at where I am Today.
I lacked Trust in the Process, the last few times I tried to put the stuff down and let My anxiety and depression or lack of any feelings get the best of Me and picked up again.
I know this time for sure that I cannot drink Safely. I don't want to be sick for 6-8 weeks again. I quite like getting up in the Morning and making My bed and having good eating and hygiene habits. I like having something to offer and to bring to My personal relationships. I LOVE being fortunate enough to be able to listen to that Quiet Voice of Reason inside Me, instead of having a SCREAMING, Demanding Ego dictate My thoughts and actions.
I got a lot of support from People here over the past 13 months, especially in the early days when I was Isolating and didn't get out to see real people except mostly the person behind the counter at the liquor store.
This time around, I have found some real Peace that I never had before. Peace I never thought Possible. Peace I thought I could only find by Ending it All. I am glad I had some fragments of Hope to hang on though.
Thanks to All at SR for getting Me off to a Good Start. I am amazed at where I am Today.
& thank you for your post
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