Soberpotamus

Cow, sorry you are feeling bad. Sending you XOXOXO today.

SoberLeigh

Hugs, Dear Cow. Hope you have someone there to sit with you, bring you your broth.

alphaomega

Hoping tomorrow is a better day for you dear sweet Cow. Please nurture yourself and take exceptional care of you. XO

RobbyRobot

(((Cow)))

dwtbd

Hope "better" comes sooner than later, sorry for trampling around in your absence, but ya know sometimes it's just there

dwtbd

And bb, yeah if giving my druthers I'd pick being Zeus

Cow

Thanks for kind wishes. No, I never has anybody to sit with me cuz they out having good times like normal people on nice day, and I all alone and nobody love me and life suck and I sick of motherducking broth and I never will know single moment of happiness ever and I total over this sh*tbag bitch of a life.

Just little catastrophic rant before I go lie down again. Carry on...

SoberLeigh

Oh, Cow. I truly wish that I could be there for you.

As for no one loving you . . . that isn't true. I know that we are virtual here at SR but we are flesh and blood humans and we REALLY, REALLY, REALLY care about you.

RobbyRobot

REALLY? REALLY? REALLY?

LOL, I mean, our we sure? Three REALLY'S? Love is such an awesome responsibility and all, don't we know? It's not all cookies 'n crème....

As for flesh and blood... well, I'm a robot, but so this makes no difference, yeah?

SoberLeigh

Aw Rats, I thought you were REALLY, REALLY, REALLY real.

You are right; love isn't all cookies and cream - as evidenced by the hurt we feel knowing Cow is hurting :-(.

neferkamichael

SoberLeigh

Very sweet, nefer (as always).

alphaomega

Cow - can I ask, have you expressed to your non cyber friends and brother how very ill you are ?

I mean, do they know know just how much you need someone right now to be there for you and with you ?

I only ask because I have a hard time saying "Help me Damn it !" even when I'm lonely and scared.

I try to "tough it out" rather than feel like I've have put someone out.

But, the times I have actually cried for help, I have witnessed great acts.

Maybe no one really knows the severity of the illness and the depth of your pain and sorrow.

trachemys

I sense improvement. You're back to being an angry mad cow.

Lenina

}}}}}}Cow{****************. Cow likes the angry hugs.

As we go into the new moon, dear Cow, I will be lighting candles for you. I hope my brother, Nefer, will join me. This ain't no white light, new age nonsense. This is a real deal. We are playing with fire! and air! And earth! and water! LOL.

love to you.

Lenina CA Cowgirl

trachemys

MrDavid

How would I describe my alcoholic experiences? Heart breaking comes to mind. You would think that after 20+ years of alcoholic drunkenness one would finally say ‘enough already’. Unfortunately, it never happened. I endured 5+ more years just for good measure. Then came the unexpected news, I was slowly dying. After that, drinking seemed so insignificant. I finally experienced tragedy like never before and my reaction was rather swift. I could no long justify my actions without first admitting defeat and that admission was my first step towards a possible cure. That was over 13 years ago.

Fast forward 13 years later and who you see today is someone completely different. But the cure did not evolve overnight. I had to work hard on becoming a better person before sobriety became my utmost priority, and even then it was a stretch. In the end, though, I would not change a thing. I no longer questioned my past, like I did years earlier, mostly because of what I learned. After all was said and done those questions lead me nowhere. I took a good look around and decided life is too precious to go on this way. I finally saw the light at the end of that proverbial tunnel and the end result was rather convincing. What came next was nothing short of amazing. It was my first real breakthrough in over a century.

However, my journey did not end there. It took many more years of on again, off again sobriety before I took this endeavor seriously. I had to put all negativity aside and focus entirely on sober living. When I did, my life improved dramatically. It was my way of letting go, entirely. I hope you do as well. Onward.

courage2

((Cow)). Do you have any little thing you want to do when you start to feel better physically -- any treat you can look forward to?

Parlor game question -- if you were going to be a god, which one would you be?

I'm thinking Siva, myself.

trachemys

Cthuhlu.

courage2

Oh that's so squishy. Ew. But no one messes with Cthulhu.