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09-14-2014, 06:24 AM

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SoberMama13

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10 months sober....

10 months sober. Wow. This is the longest I've gone without alcohol or benzos for YEARS.
I'm so incredibly grateful for sobriety, and absolutely do not want to ever go back to who I was.
YET, My AV is pretty strong these days. "Come on, you've gone 10 months, you don't have a problem" and "just one wouldn't hurt"....blah blah freaking blah.
Also dealing with PAWS. Big time. Especially the anxiety. And the crying for no reason.
This is just me relearning how to feel, right?

I have an appointment with an addiction specialist counselor on Monday. Years of therapy (not sober) feel a bit wasted now, but me SOBER feels it's time to grab this bull by the horns and wrestle it to the ground.

I'm not going to drink or take a pill, but sometimes I sure want to.
Thanks for letting me share.

09-14-2014, 06:25 AM

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pumpkinny

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10 months is great! Keep going!

09-14-2014, 06:28 AM

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SimplyNothing

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Congrats!

that's fantastic. I'm at 9 days. Hope to be where you are soon.

09-14-2014, 06:54 AM

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Soberwolf

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well done on 10 months Amazing im 14 months today this thread rocks !!!

09-14-2014, 07:02 AM

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hayley86

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Congrats on ten months!

09-14-2014, 07:05 AM

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Mags1

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Congratulations on 10 months sober, sobermama.

09-14-2014, 07:28 AM

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Originally Posted by SoberMama13

YET, My AV is pretty strong these days. "Come on, you've gone 10 months, you don't have a problem" and "just one wouldn't hurt"....blah blah freaking blah.
Also dealing with PAWS. Big time. Especially the anxiety. And the crying for no reason.
This is just me relearning how to feel, right?

SoberMama- I'm at 10 1/2 months and I'm dealing with similar stuff. Now that I've tackled the initial goal of just not picking up that 1st drink, I'm starting to look at myself and tackle some of the issues that kept me drinking for so long. That's hard to do and brings up alot of difficult emotions. My automatic response for so long was to numb those emotions so I guess that's why my AV comes on strong sometimes. Breaking old responses, learning healthy ways to deal with feelings isn't always easy and you aren't alone. I find my AV comes on strongest around my anniversary date each month, not sure why that is.

I think the counselor is a great idea and a perfect time to go for it. I've considered it myself.

Good luck and keep moving forward

09-14-2014, 07:31 AM

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Congrats !!

09-14-2014, 09:32 AM

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PurpleKnight

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10 Months is fantastic!!

09-14-2014, 09:40 AM

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SonomaGal

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Congratulations - it feels so good to see the year coming up in the horizon and know wow, I can do this! I'm almost at 11 months and seeing huge improvements with PAWS and general wellbeing. I hope month 10 is similarly expansive for you!