Cow

Bimi, saturated fats is actual protective of liver, especially for drinkers. Is many study on this. I not eat thing high in unsaturated fats, which can damage.

Last liver panel couple month ago was okay. I think pain is maybe pancreatitis. Either way is no treatment for pancreas or liver except to stop all alcohols and eat well which I doing. So I not gonna get ultrasounds and all this, cuz really, is no point to freak self out with bad news.

Soberpotamus

My mom had chronic and acute pancreatitis. She was on meds for it. She continued to drink It was painful.

LaVallette

Beautiful Saturday morning here. Gonna jump on the (motor) bike and pick up some Kombucha after reading about it here. Sounds interesting. Cow, I also had a constant pressure (rather than outright pain) on the right side of my abdomen, as well as the odd shooting pain in my liver, while still drinking. I'm happy to say this has greatly subsided to be almost non-existent now.

Keep hanging the fk on Cow!

trachemys

Good idea. No telling what you'd find.

fini

and exactly how I gonna fight addiction and madness with skateboard, Lenina?

Lenina, i thought it was a skateboard, too.
but i hadn't looked closely enough.
clearly, i didn't CARE enough to look closely. duh!

now, though, Cow, your question is intriguing. have you tried it? skateboarding might do wonders against madness and addiction. i know bicycling does!

heehaw!

RobbyRobot

Yeah, Cow. In a good way. No worries.

I thought I would have posted more too into the thread. Hasn't happened. Not entirely sure. I know the plentiful wacked humor within in thread sometimes comes across as obvious diversion tactics, but laughter is a wonderful tonic too. But yeah, I am being quite.

I think I'm more distracted with my own challenges perhaps? I know back a few pages when you challenged others to talk about themselves I choked up a bit. Sure I said to myself. I can do that! And I even typed out a few paragraphs of what is what for me just now, and as I considered submitting, I ended up choosing not to submit. So I started my own thread and this brought some satisfaction. Until it too didn't.

I think I'm at a cross-roads of sorts. I'm willingly to journey, and yet I'm suddenly aware I'm dragging my ass. No. Not suddenly. More like I saw this coming and said to myself whatever already. Just Bring It Anyways.

I've never done well with shadow boxing with myself. I prefer real triumph or real fail. I need to re-invent myself on some challenging levels. Its not that I doubt myself. Its more like I just don't want to trade in one mask for another, you know? At 33 or so years of being recovered, its not all that easy to radically bring change to be truthful...

Well. I kinda made this all about me. Unusually so.

Croissant

So ewwww, but so brilliant! Lol.

Lenina, I myself was trying to figure it out too and thought Cows avatar showed her with a skateboard too!

Lenina

you know? seems I recall from the movie "Dogma" that the skateboarders were like the hell hounds of all hell hounds. maybe that's why I thought the machete was a skate board. I changed out the wheels on my rolla board to those inline wheels you can buy at the sporting goods store. huge difference! I'm pretty brutal with my luggage.

I really liked that movie, "Dogma". Matt Damon and Ben Affleck, Selma Hayak and the fabulous Alan Rickman.

Love from Lenina

courage2

For once I'll weigh in on a movie, which is that Dogma is great. So great I showed it to my mother. She scowled and scowled and scowled and finally stomped off when the Sh!t Demon came around.

I had frequent pancreatitis-like abdominal pain & other problems (mostly chronic diarrhea) which I used to drink through. I denied for a long time that drinking caused them, and wouldn't see a doctor. It was one of the things -- but not the major one -- that got me here. I still can't eat high fat foods, or any quantity of anything.

Good to see you, Robby.

Soberpotamus

Cow, how's it going this morning?

Soberpotamus

Agreed! Lol.

Cow

OMG! Robot only human after all! You poor bastard! Okay, I gonna try and find you other thread to see what go on with you.

I sorry you not feel comfortable to post here. I know my thread sometime is too much clowning about. But trust me, I not laughing over here. I not cracking self up, at all. Ever. Is just way I think and really I not can help it too much. Is deep establish defense/coping skill from sh*t childhood. If it give other people a laugh, than good, cuz it cost me a lot. And is pretty much only gift I has to give. Anyways, you input has help me very much over past year, and is no joke that Cow care about Robot, okay?

SJ, I still in lot of pain. I maybe gonna has to break down and take something, cuz is borderline intolerable. Hate to take pain med though. I gonna try poultice first. In case you unfamiliar, poultice is where you strap a warm chicken to you abdomen.

trachemys

I just don't see this working.

Soberpotamus

Soberpotamus

Cow, I hope you find some relief soon. Um... cows using chickens strapped to their abdomens?? Chick-fil-A would be horrified Actually, that might be a good idea to pitch to Chick-fil-A!

trachemys

Oh, Jennie!

biminiblue

Good morning, lollipops.

RobbyRobot

No, its not being uncomfortable in your thread. I'm comfortable enough. I'm very aware you care about Robot, Cow. Its on me and no one else how I'm having a kind of funky despair. I'm at a place health-wise where I'm likely going to go against my specialist's advice and push myself past what they tell me is a non-personal physical real barrier. They don't really know what to do with me as I continue to mull this over. Ironically, a real part of me is disinterested in my health, their advice, and my abilities to once again surpass my limitations. Its been a long strange trip, lol.

The point of contention is how post-polio is affecting my overall health the last few years. Especially since my leg amputation in late summer of 2012. A simple google of post-polio syndrome will explain. Suffice it to say my motor nerves are chronically overwrought and messed up. this results in extreme fatigue and pain. With motor nerves, the golden rule is to let them rest when pain and weakness are in play as over extension can make things worse long term. Well, with my taking their advice these past two years, I've gained easily 25lbs or more and my condition worsens. We all know that if you don't exercise a muscle, it loses tone, then endurance, and finally it weakens. So, we can all do the math here. PPS (post-polio-syndrome) forbids exercise except when its not painful. I'm on slippery slope.

If I'm wrong, I'll make things worse for me by pushing myself through the pain and forcing myself to exercise, and these results could be permanent damage. If I follow medical advice, I'll continue as is, and this present status quo is not workable for me.

As well, this brings up deeply buried experiences of my childhood and teen years when I faced serious medical challenges as well... and had epic fail with such challenges both with the medical teams and with myself personally. Of course I was drinking in those years.

I'm old now. I've been dealing with my medical responsibilities since before I was even a year old. I'm in tight despair that yet again I need to marshal myself against my limits. Not a poor me as I see it, but as well not just another cake walk either, lol. Well, there it is. Right now I'm battling against my own disinterest in the whole rotten thing, lol.

trachemys

Got nothing but hope for you, Robby. May you find some relief, at least from the despair.

Cow

Robot. What about passive stimulation of muscles? And is you ever look into super cold water immersion after exertion to protect from nerve damage and also stimulate weight loss? Is lot of research and experimentations going on there.

Is reasonable I think to have lack of confidence in doctors. I would say, with all my brain stuff, at end of day, they ultimately hurt Cow more than help. And they was suppose to be best of best. But also is frightening to go against they advices, cuz they can put fear of Gods into you.

I total understand how one can be in abject despair even as you feel somewhat indifferent to you own situation. (Hoo boy, can I understands that one.) What can we do? What is you plan you think?

And PS. I sorry, but YES, this IS a POOR YOU situation!! There I said it! And I say it about Cow too, POOR ME! I not can stand whole spiritual paradigm where life is just series of "learning/growth challenges" and you not ever suppose to feel sorry for self. Well I sorry, but some people got total sh*t end of the "challenges" spectrum and some people was born a Karashian. I feels sorry for you, Robot. But that not change you measure as person. I take you over 500 Kardashian, any day.